Do You Feel There is No Hope
In your times of deep despair,
Do you feel there is no hope?
As the darkness closes in on you,
Do you feel you cannot cope?
As you struggle on through every trial,
Do you say "When will it end"?
As you cry yourself to sleep at night,
Do you wish you had a friend?
When your body's racked with aches and pains,
Do you feel you are alone?
When you think about the future,
Do you fear the great unknown?
There is someone who really cares,
And He hears your every cry.
His arms are reaching out to you,
And on Him you can rely.
When things close in around you,
He sees your fear and doubt -
He wants to hold you in His arms,
And He will never cast you out.
As you stumble through the darkness,
He will be your guiding light.
He wants to wipe away your tears,
For you are precious in His sight.
Reach out right now to Jesus,
And let Him take complete control -
He'll take that heavy burden,
And He'll touch and make you whole.
He's reaching out His arms to you,
And He wants to be your friend.
Let Him take you in His loving arms,
For His love will never end.
PRAYER:
our loving Father, many times in our lives, we are weakened byt he everyday trials we go through. too many, sometimes, we rarely see, glimmers of hope. but remind us, oh Lord, that you do not give us anything we can not handle. and that though things are not turning out the way we ought life to be, help us believe and hope you have better plans instored for us. and we will wait for your call, our Lord. forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who sinned against us. bless our lovedones, guide them and protect them always. we asked you these in your most precious name. Amen.
Labels: hope, spiritual reveries
dear boy (dragon dancer),
driving on the 110 south freeway on my way home from glendale while listening to love songs playing onthe radio, i comteplated about having someone there in my life. so many times, i questioned why things can't work out when i want it to be.
in my lonesome moment, my cell phone rang and i was surprised to hear from you on the other line. your life has been busy with school lately and i did not want to intrude into your busy world. and yet, you tried to squeeze me in your occupied life.
in my past, i admitted to you that i must have told you how ideal of a man you were to me. and you've never failed to flirt with me. i tried not to cross that boundary because i did not want it to be like it was with AB before where i crossed the thin line of friendship and i lost him in the end.
and when you call me" beautiful" and "sweetie," or when you tell me, "i deserve someone better," or when you tell me how hurt you were when she broke your heart, or when i i cry to your when my soul is crushed...i can't help but have this admiration for you.
while you are far from me right now, i can't wait to just hug you when you're back here. then you wouldn't have to watch movies by yourself anymore, then you don't have to run miles at the thread mill just to kill time, then we don't have to talk late and morning nights burning our cell minutes away, then you can just hold my hand like you always do when i am next to you.
and so i'll wait for you even just hold my hand...and try not to let go when you do.
<3,>
Labels: love, UNSENT
i can scream.
i can paint my rage.
i can make a scene.
i can fight this battle.
i can question your decisions.
i can reveal what kind of person you really are.
but....
i WON'T.
why?
because my momma raised me well.
and i'm NOT that type of girl.
i choose my battles.
and this one is not worth my time.
i'm not going to stoop down your level.
i don't need a loser like you in my life.
without you, i can be fabulous.
and guess what?
I AM.
Labels: fabulosity, life
lakbay
Sunday, August 26, 2007
naalala ko ang ating nagdaang mga araw
ang mga mainit na gabi at masasayang umaga
sa bawat buhos ng tag-ulan at init ng tag-araw
lahat umiikot, nakaunkit na sa aking utak at puso.
mga malamyos mong haplos at ang mahigpit mong yakap
pakiwari ko nagliliyab sa matinding init
ang tamis ng halik na nangangako ng akala kong pag-ibig
parang totoo ngunit hamog lamang pala ito ng magdamag
sariwang sariwa pa, naalala ko ang lahat
ang mga marami mong pangako't pangarap
dapat ay magkasama nating binubuo at inaabot
ngayo'y nasaan tila nalimot na ng panahon
may hatid na malungkot na lumbay at mapait na sakit
minsan gusto ko na ring umiyak ngunit nagpipigil na ang luha
hindi dapat ako magpadala sa hapdi ng iyong mga ala-ala
dapat ko itong ariin bilang gintong leksyon ng aking buhay
dahil alam kong..kaya ko pa.
kaya ko pang maglakbay ng mahaba.
dito sa lakbay ng pag-ibig.
Labels: love, tagalog
ito ba ang dapat?
lumimot ay mabuti,
pilit sinasabi;
ngunit ang nagkukubli
sumisilip rin lagi.
Labels: brokenheartedness, quotes, tagalog
just go away....
rain drops are falling...
hard...
strong beats...wetting...
flooding my surrounding...
does it even care?it does not give a damn.
it passes through every creation...
at first, it pours steady and slow, the next second, it pours tears of barrels.
fighting every danger,
filling in every hole,
and i hid. i rushed...i ran away from it...away from you, strong rain...but damn this rain....
it's quite a different rain.
it follows me
chases me in my own house.
and once again, it tears me all apart. why, oh, why...my rain of life. please....just go away. Labels: brokenheartedness, nature, things
LIFE ON THE FAST LANE....
Friday, August 24, 2007
LIFE IS AN ENDLESS PARTY
SO WHILE WE'RE AT IT,
WE MIGHT AS WELL
PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR!
LEN
Labels: friendship, fun, life
HAPPY BDAY PAPI RICK!
Thursday, August 23, 2007
he's uniquely special...
he adores batman so much, he collects them. ( you can add robin, too)
he's obsessed with "the rock. " ( the wrestler) - i swear he sometimes think he looks like him.
lol.
he's addicted to pool games. if there's a place you'll always find him, he might be in a billiard hall.
he speaks like a bloody crazy "lad" from scotland.
he throws the wickedest, funniest jokes...
he tries to never miss the parties. he's all over the place!
he attempts to be "healthy" and "works out" at the gym *wink. yet, eats like no other. but then he feels guilty and spends the rest of the hours running at the gym at 5 in the morning. what an irony. (sorry, i know wasn't suppose to burn you out)
his overwhelming credit cards are spent on diesel branded and fancy clothes. over the years, he developed his rocky, funky sense of style.
if you don't know it yet, he's all over the clubs/bars/ "it" spots in hollywood, LA , OC and now, SF.
he proudly claims, he's a "boobies" man.
he's the all time jokester, a real comedian...
and my gosh, ladies flock all over him because of his enticing charm!
but behind the crazy party animal,
beyond the lavish parties he goes to every weekend,
more than his hardcore dragon dancing, shaolin temple trained martial arts moves,
and his huge array collection of girls on listed on his cell,
RICK is a real deal SWEETHEART. he takes his time to fall in love.
he really listen to his heart.
call him, old school but he is really old fashioned with regards to matters of the heart.
and when he does fall for someone, he treats them like a queen and gives his heart and soul.
as a friend, rick is the one who will be the first person there when you're in an emergency. and one call is all it takes, even if it is one or two hours away, he's guaranteed to show up.
sometimes, it does not even have to be an emergency, he will sit there right next to you, he's just there, he will let you vent and cry everything off.
when a cad breaks your heart, he'll say, " he's an loser, an Ahole for not keeping you and it's his loss."
his cellphone is available 24/7. you can call post midnight, even when he is asleep, he will wake up and he will listen to your woes patiently.
in his chosen craft, he is extremely passionate. he betters himself everyday. even giving up going away from everyone he loves just to become who he wants to be.
whether it be a distinguished business man,
or well known comedian,
or a famous actor,
he persistently follows what his heart wants.
he believes in learning and perfecting his craft.
he netwroks with people who can help him improve himself.
and he works super hard.
i am confident he will make it big someday
because he puts so much love to everything he does.
but for me, he's simply codename
'papi' the only guy i know who keeps my secrets ( he better),
who listen to my hormone infested drama episodes (endlessly),
the one who texts me back right away when i text him,
the one who makes me laugh when sometimes, i just want to sob,
and who calls me
'beautiful' in my crappiest moments.
for that and more, what can i say?
i am just blessed to have him.
rick, sometimes, i feel thank you is not enough for all that you've done.
one day, when all this chaos is over,
we will party like no other,
explore the world like we planned
and expand our friendship through the years.
thanks for always being there.
my vow is to be there for you.
but be there for you MORE
when you need me the most.
i miss you, papi.
but i am sure you're meeting new peeps
who will appreciate the wonderful person
i got to know five years ago.
i'm just here...
now and always.
love ya!
enjoy your bday!
<3, LEN
Labels: close to my heart
obstacles VS faith
doubt sees the obstacles.
faith sees the way.
doubt sees the darkest nights.
faith sees the day.
doubt dreads to take a step.
faith soars on high.
doubt questions, "who believes?"
faith answers, " i."
Labels: faith, poetry
The WALL
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
girls flocked into his comments as i peeked at his myspace. and one of the ideal-est guy i have in my life, i realized, is slowly moving on with his life. he has met new circle of girls and temporarily, i am out of the picture. he rarely even call.
cemented feelings piles on top of each other. it surrounds me like a protective barrier. like many times in the past, i placed an emotional wall around me. it's my security blanket. it's my armored shield. no one can harm my heart again.
his girls, his flirty comments to them - and his alluring messages to me...are these merely his way to entice women to himself?
i don't know who do i trust anymore. i don't know who is real and what emotions are true. and seriously, i am as confused as ever. is he the same as everyone else, as any fake men who betrayed me with their greatest fascade?
i sit here,
i cogitate,
and i wonder.
*sigh*
i hope not.
Labels: men, things
I CAN NOT SAY
Saturday, August 18, 2007
"The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can
,Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then?
I cannot say.."
J.R.R.T
Labels: life, poetry
SENT: case of the ex
[i got a short email from an ex of last year after i sent out thank you's for my bday. i didn't want to respond but i did. although i am leaving him anonymous...here's my response]
my dearest ******,
you know there are things i wanted to tell you.in my heart, there are unspoken desires. at present, i'm back to my party girl self but in the rare times, i come home and i am alone, i have to admit, i do miss you. but we both know i left that in our past where it is supposed to be. there is no place for me to discuss that in our present anymore because we could never be what we want to be freely.
but i just want you to know....if things were different... if i am not going to run over people's feelings...if i am not going to break people's heart along the way while "loving" you, there was no doubt in my mind, i would have no problem following my heart. i would have been there in your arms. because, i really loved you. for a while, i thought i would never feel that feeling again, and in that short span, in a quick wink of an eye, i knew i loved you.
but we can't force things. perhaps in that particular moment, we were meant to be. and sometimes, we just have to be thankful for that "little" unexpected moments. after all, it's the little memories that matters the most and those "someones" that we used to love.
and for that and more, i am grateful for you, ******. for that short time, thank you for reciprocating my love. and really, that is enough for me.
though, my world sometimes turns upside down, though i get my heart broken, though i will go through so much trials, but i know i will find myself. in this world of puzzle, love is an endless searching. i am hopeful, love will find its way to me. and i will be ready then.
i will be fine. in the right time, i will love again. for the mean time, single life is blissfully fun.
keep in touch,******
<3,
len
Labels: SENT
he said "NO"
Friday, August 17, 2007
A girl asked a guy if she was pretty..
he said
"NO." she asked him if he wanted to be with her forever..
he said "
NO." she then asked him if he would cry if she walked away..
he again said,
"NO." she had heard too much she needed to leave.
as she walked away...
he grabbed her arm ....
and asked her to stay..
he said , "you're not pretty.....you're
BEAUTIFUL ...."he said, "I don't wanna be with you forever.. I
{{NEED}} to be with you forever..
he said, " and I wouldn't cry if you walked away.. I would
{{ DIE }}....Labels: love, poetry
BAHAGHARI
Thursday, August 16, 2007
bahagharing nawawala kapag sa dulo sang hakbang na
inasahang kulay na mahahawakan hindi na matagpuan
sa malayo'y pangakong di masukat sukat ang handog
kapagkapit naglahong tila wala roon
walang dinatnan
nangarap
pinagsakluban ng sumpang hindi siya ang lumikha
walang laban walang masabi
walang darating
abot ang tingala
sa langit na nakalimot
kahit walang sawa
walang awa
walang dumarating
tumayong naghintay ng ulan mula sa ulap na hindi naman maabot
isang saglit, isang oras, isang araw, isang taon,isang buhay,
di na makaalis
dahil masakit
maghintay sa patak
na ayaw bumitaw sa ulap
bahagharing hindi na makita
iniiyakan
kapag nagiisa
nagiisa
nagiisa na
ang dating dalawa
paalam ...
bahagharing di ko makita
Labels: brokenheartedness, tagalog
hindi na muna.....
hindi na muna siguro
ako iibig.
kasi,
sa tuwing iibig ako,
parang nalalanta ang mga orchids sa hardin,
parang umiitim ang bughawing langit ng tanghali,
at napupunit ang mga pahina ng paborito
kong libro.
darating na lang siguro,
ang bagyo na magpapalaya sa akin
sa rehas ng pagiisa.
siguro nga mayroong bukas,
na tutunog
muli ang musika ng pag-ibig,
at sasalubungin ko ang agos
ng liwanag
ng pagpapatawad.
pero sa ngayon, di na muna...
di na muna ako
ako iibig.
Labels: brokenheartedness, tagalog
close topic
i have this guy friend "
dragon dancer." well, he decided all of the sudden he will be up north for
"school." but what he does not know is that sometimes, i think there is a personal reason why he moved there.
while he is the one i cried to most of the time, i know he cries inside. he never tells me anything about what he truly feels. and when i asked him, he never admitted to his brokenheartedness. he always claims positive feedbacks. he always focuses on what he wants to do and what lies ahead.
what he doesn't know is that, i know he secretly grieve from his broken heart. everytime i asked him what happened to
"them" (him and the ex), he does not want to discuss her nor what he feels towards her.
recently, i viewed his ex's myspace and i found out she's with someone new. and from what i recall, she moved on with another asian guy after only couple days they ended their relationship. and
mr. dragon dancer boy, he has not. and while he makes excuses that he's
"over" her, i know he's pained by these events that all he wanted to was escape from it all. and so he left.
my poor
dragon dancer boy...i cried to him but he refuses to cry even if i know his heart his torn into pieces.
Labels: brokenheartedness
silence
there's nothing
sadder
in this life
than
to watch
someone
you
L <3>
walk away
after they have left you...
to watch
the
d i s t a n c e
b---e---t---w---e---e---n
your two bodies
E - X - P - A - N - D
until
there
is
n o t h i n g
left
but
E M P T Y
S P A C E
and
S I L E N C E
Labels: alone, quotes, space
and...i will smile.....
lately, i've been spending so much time out: out with friends, friday night outs, meeting new people, dating new people my friends' introduced me to, out shopping, out at the beach...just outside.
and then they asked me, "what's up with you and your mr. 'rp'?" i did not know what to say. fankly, i don't want to deal with him. he knows this is the last thing i need right now. i don't need stress.
twinge tears my heart and sometimes, i cry myself to sleep. with a deep sigh, i just answered, " you know, i don't want to dwell on things i can't do anything about. i'd rather dwell on things that are working out for me."
a guy friend uttered, " please, len, stop busting out with your drama...just think that someone, somewhere, thinks of you and dreams of you before they they go to sleep. you should live life for those people."
and so, tonight, i will be thinking of those people.i will wipe the tears away.
and... i will smile. =)
Labels: change, happy thoughts, moving on
HAPPY HOUR
Monday, August 13, 2007
rossini took me out to a late brithday korean barbeque lunch/early dinner friday the past week. we were so full and we still had a grip of time to spend some more time before she heads out to her friend's despedida. so we decided we'd go t k-box for their happy hours karaoke. (a place destined for me to always bumped into people i know and yes, upon entering, i already saw some of the guys i was drinking my ass off with just the weekend before. =P )
was it me or what? but the happy hour did not feel like happy hour to me. i mean, don't get me wrong, being with rossini there makes me happy but hearing the songs we sang makes me think about life and love in general. i suddenly missed people in my life. while sini sang the blues away, i missed feeling loved, i miss having my friends there all the time, i miss being with siblings.
so...yeah, you get the picture. anyway, just thought i'd share two of my faves from the songs we sang and the lyrics.
Take Me I’ll Follow
Tired of feeling all by myself
Being so different from everyone else
Somehow you knew I needed your help
Be my friend forever
I never found my star in the night
Building my dream was far from my sight
You came along and I saw the light
We’ll be friends forever
I can’t face the thought of you leaving
So take me along
I swear I’ll be strong
If you take me wherever you go
I wanna learn the things that you know
Now that you made me believe
I want you to take me
‘Cause I long to be
Able to see the things that you see
Know that whenever you do
I’ll follow you
Somebody must have sent you to me
What do I have you could possibly need
All I can give is my guarantee
We’ll be friends forever
I can’t face the thought of you leaving
So take me along
I swear I’ll be strong
When you take me wherever you go
I wanna learn the things that you know
Now that you made me believe
I want you to take me
‘Cause I long to be
Able to see the things that you see
Know that whenever you do
I’ll follow you
Teach me more with each passing hour
By your side
I’ll follow you
I know I would cover?
Is it true that you have the power
To capture this moment in time
Take me wherever you goI wanna learn the things that you knowNow that you made me believeI want you to take me‘Cause I long to beAble to see the things that you seeKnow that whenever you doI’ll follow you
Take me wherever you goI wanna learn the things that you knowNow that you made me believe(I want you to take me…)I want you to take me…
SA ISIP KO
Alam kong meron ng iba
Sa kilos mo'y na dararama
Mukhang ako ay kinalimutan mo na
Wala ng masasabi di ba
Kapit mo kay lamig na
Pati halik mo'y wala ng gana
Magaw ka man ng iba sa akin
Pag-ibig ko'y patuloy parin
CHORUS
Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Alam kong meron ng iba
Ang init ay nang lamig na
Ba't de aminin ang de malilihim
Ikaw at ako'y tapos na
Bawat hakbang palayo ka
Walang linaw na babalik pa
Maagaw ka man ng iba sakin
Pag-ibig ko'y patuloy pa rin
CHORUS
Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Labels: friendship, lyrics
HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
happy birthday to me! [again and again!!]
the past year is probably one of the challenging trials of my life. celebrating another year of just living this life given to me by my CREATOR is truly one of his miracles. my Lord loves me, I know, because he shows it through the warm spirits of people who touched and inspired my life.
mom ('my) & papa (popeye) - there were many times, i failed to be the "role model" daughter but you loved my flaws anyway. thank you for the"gift", the wacky night out with ate bel and the abundant almost gluttonic lunch birthday with the whole fam bam at full house. i love you so much!
ate bel & cha- thanks for the fun night at musikahan crazy host bona for the "okrays" spoken jealousy of my "real" boobs =) and for the unlimited dose of laughter. 'twas a stress reliever!
niece ischa and nephew ichad - wow! so many gifts! i love it all!!! and my super nice flipped through picture frames! it's my favorite gift becausew you guys made it! i'll always be here for you. tita loves you dearly.
sistah karing/noreenie weenie - thanks for the heartwarming text. it was narcissistic but it was so you and i love that about you! though we're far right now, i constantly think of you and i wished i can celebrate my bdays with you and long. i love you sis.
brotha long/NJ - whoa! suprising comments brah! thanks, i'm so touched hey! you're crazy & sometimes, a pain in the ass, but i would not have you any other way! i like you just like that! i love yah, men.
baby brother LA - thanks for my "gifts" from new york and my pasalubong from miami, and for the thoughtful things you sent me while you were away. thanks for coming home from miami early to be with me. thanks for the birthday breakfast at al cove, move & dinner at sanam with cousin ai. 'twas healthily yummy and what ambiance! luv yah!
cousin ai - two weeks with you is amazing! thanks for going down from up north to be with us! thanks for the pasalubong from london, the gifts you gave me & from auntie vicks ( i'm reading it everyday!), the movie date rattatoullie at the grove, the nights and mornings spent at the beach ( i still feel bad about your cellie but it's ok..i'm sure you're enjoying your fancy iphone!), our endless dose of coffee bean, the late late night talks and drinks and karaoke! i miss you already! i can't thank you enough.
auntie vicks - my harajuku bag! yeah! love it love it! and my souvenirs from london. lakas ko talaga sa inyo.
cousin hannah - you know me best. kakaiyak yung dvd. reminds me of " you know who." i miss you so much, tears. i love you and coleenie and fafa eric.
auntie norma & uncle ding - thanks for coming down to be with me and my family. we miss you, too.
cousin annette - thanks for the Bday email.
MY ron, pogi shi po so. bian he for my craziness. whatever happens in our life time, together or apart, i will always be here for you and you will always hold a special place in my heart. sarang heyo.
maffia - thank you for attempting to stay up the night before my birthday in an effort to be the first one to greet me ( poor sleepy you, ended up sleeping, like you always do) but A for effort and i love you for that. i'm touched by your comment. stop making me cry! the k-dramas are already making me melodramatic! i miss you and alyssa. come down soon! or i'll fly there! luv yah girl!
charm ( my blondie) and shane ( tiyong cesar) - thank you for hosting my second party at your house. so much food, so much drinks, crazy hosts!!! wow, what an a lovely party! you were awesome! how can i even top that!? i love you both for your sarcastically love to me ( naiimune na ako sa lakas niyong pang-asar!) and charm for my cute necklace and earring - ang arte mo talaga! love you and my inaanaks - kaylah & khloe!
balloteskie & fafa - i'm still craving for that sisig! and my yummy cake, tY for bringing kristine and jerome ( thank you for coming! )mamu, thanks for all the late night conversation, our days at the beach, for the life, love and boys advices, but above all, for making me laugh when all i wanted to do is cry. you're my secret keeper and i love you. gurl, walang laglagan! haha LOL. miss cutie mhilou too. nandito lang aketch, vakla if you need me. todo na to, walang iwanan.
kuya salde - my gosh! shocking phonecall from NYC ha! touched naman ako. kuya, thanks for all the advises, for the patawa, for the chika and for being the brother i never had. i miss you and new york. i'll go there when i am well. so i get to stay in your gold card hotels in atlantic city? hahah you gambler you! be careful. teach me your tricks next time.
diane & lorenz - di, i know you're always praying for me.thanks for my gift. thanks for always the one who feeds my spiritual needs. i am closer to God because of people like you. thanks for the movie nights and early morning dates at chinatown and karaoke! i hope lorenz felt good after the party because he was out of it!!!! =) thank you bringing glenn, mike, and darryl and cousin. hope they had a great time.
tone - elvis!!!you are always my cheer giver, my destressor, my singer and entertainer, driver for free! you sing me my requested songs and bring me my favorite food when i make kulit. you have an extarordinary voice. i envy you, my "vocal coach" - tagasalo ng matataas na kantang di ko maabot! you've proven me you will always be there for me at the toughest time of my life. thank you. i'll be praying for you to pass the boards. besa me mucho, muchas gracias!
papie ricks - my ______donor!!! there's nothing so wonderful in the world than you always calling me "beautiful" at 5 am at my least prettiest moment. our meaningful conversation brings sunshine to my everyday. i so miss you, sweetie. i wish you're near. take me to frisco! thanks muaaah!
sini - we should have done this ten years ago! i had a blast with you today! thanks for taking me out today: for the unlimited korean bbq ( dude, i'm still full! and the freakin' bbq smoke smell in my clothes!), for the happy hour at k-box ( parang senti hour =( yata), for the chika at starbucks. thank you for the post midnight emo chika. alam mo na! see you next thursday. i won't elaborate na!
arnie - ms. madonna! congrats on the wedding! super happy for you! thanks for my ice cream cake. thanks for being there. i know you worked 12 hours and yet you were there. i love yah. and oh, don't forget, when i'm admitted in your unit, make sure you give me multiple doses of morphine, okay? haha! movie when? call me.
ate tina, thanks for coming with hubby! my god what a small world! it was nice seeing you and always fun talking/chatting/texting! Ty for the starbucks card. sabihin mo sa hubby mo, "innocent" ako para payagan ka niyang lumabas tayo palagi! don't translate this in english mwahaha!!
janet - fanget! happy birthday to you, too! thanks for my vodka hahaha =) are you trying to tell me i'm an alcoholic? I"M NOT no! thanks for being my private nurse at cheese cake factory and shopping with me. pilay na nga, nagshoshopping pa! do bale, maganda naman. hahah LOL. i'll see you and elai later! wab ya girl!
ron fanget! - i love your version of "what a wonderful world!" it's a wonderful world because of your kalokang laughter. life might be a test right now, but i am confided you will make it through. kaya mo yan, pare!
elai -aw, my other fanget.... i miss you na new nanay! and papa abel and baby girl too. i heard you were working with my mommy. thank God you didn't burn me out! hahah yeah, that's the deal, when infront of me,tell her her daughter is "good and nice and maganda!" babayaran kita no? hahah love yah. see yah later (in about 7 hours exactly ).
maya/meyah, cesar and gabbi - thank you for coming. but more than that, thank you for proving me your loyalty. my "other " friends i don't even hear from them. thank you being there no matetr what. i miss working with you at medsurg. i'll miss you when i go back to work. it was nice seeing you at anna d's pad. tell your crazy hubby he's insane but we love him anyway. =) miss gabbi too =(
ben - you're the perfect example that exes' can be friends =) i love you as a MANONG =)
angelo - you're one crazy a-hole sometimes....but i appreciate your honesty.
WILSHIRE UNITED METHODIST CHURCH & YOUTH - your continued prayers for me gives me source of strength and inspiration to endure the tough times. though i am not there all the time, i am there in spirit and i am grateful for the love.
( manang olive - you're the best "manang" . thanks for the advices and tsismis. i miss being with the babies at the day care!
krysta - i'm just here if you need anything.
jet - nakakatawa kausap ading! jp - bon vayage and congrats sa wedding!
papa jay and cherry - thanks for the bday gift
ate aileen - Ty for the greeting
glenda - you're so funny girl! ligo ng ligo - alam mo na!?)
ate joyce - though my cousin and i lost touch, thank you for being my ate and friend. thank you for the bday greeting.
merryl - my berry berry, you film director you! i'm so proud of you! don't forget me on the red carpet okay? thank you for the birthday greeting! kiwi loves you always. how's ryan? tell him, i said hello.
manang lot and max - i miss you sister fanget, blondie, ms.praise the Lord - we all miss you. how are you and hubby. tY for the bday greeting.
eloi - my dear, thanks for the love and greeting! belated happy bday to you and manong eli! i miss you! how's pastor?
sis clarisse - bday was awesome! thank you for remembering! ingat sa lovelife okaY?
ate vanet from pinas - thank you for the text and for taking care of my siblings. we're thankful for you.
rosemary - thank you for the bday greeting
david, my "malau" - you remembered my birthday! thank you!
kuya arthur, if i'm "ms. fabulous," you're "mr. fabulous" kasi we're equal in that fabulosity factor. oh di ba ang taray ng lola mo! charing! thank you kuya for everything: for advicing me about boys, for making me laugh, for being my driver, for my kachika.
ate norlits and joy - always fun times when i am with you.
manong dan from canada - thanks for the bday greetings manong. hope to see you in canada one day.
ate judy - thanks for the greetings.
bigs ( charm's cousin ) ang ingay mo pag lasing, pare! but thank you for helping me out. =)
TO THE REST WHO GREETED in text, cell, email, chat, bulletin and if i failed to mention you, i hope you know i didn't mean to. i am grateful for the overwhelming love and care i got from all of you. life might be a chaotic crazy battle field. but it's a battle that's worth fighting for because i am blessed with wonderful people like you. THANK YOU SO MUCH for the brithday wishes!
ABOVE ALL, my Lord, thank you for giving me this gift of .;life. thank you for your love and guidance especially the past year. I am nothing without YOU. Make me an instrument of YOUR peace. Help me inspire others as you inspired me to be a better person and a better christian. Forgive me my shorcomings as i forgive those who sinned against me. Mold me to be who you want me to be. Use me to reach out to lost souls so then they can understand the power of your love and mercy. So when I return you my borrowed life, you can finally tell me, my Lord, " Well done, my God and faithful servant..." Bless my loved ones Lord. Guide them the same way you protect me everyday and forgive their mishaps, too. I asked you these in your most precious name. AMEN.
Labels: friendship, thank you
UNSENT: concealed
UNSENT: concealed
dear boy RP,
you're clueless to what i go through each day. how can you be there right next to me? how can you even hug me? how can you tell you mom stories about me or what you feel about me...when in my face, you can not tell me what you truly feel?
those monday nights that we talked week by week for the past years or so when you were away, were those planned all along? those sweetly handwritten letters you sent to me, were they part of your scheme? that day you hugged me so tight and held my hands, were those genuinely acted? that day you promised you will be there for me, were those true?
like a sharp knife that stabs my heart,
like a pin that hits a balloon,
like a bullet on a target,
like a big truck running over me,
that's what it's like.
the pain i hid inside.
the pain i get from you.
and yet, crazy me,
i'm just a fool,
because despite of it all,
despite of what makes you, you....
i still love.
<3,
len
Labels: UNSENT
spiritual reveries: THE GREATEST ADVICE
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
spiritual reveries: THE GREATEST ADVICEDon't date because you are desperate.Don't marry because you are miserable.Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.Don't associate with people you can't trust.Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.Don't dictate because you are smarter.Don't demand because you are stronger.Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.Don't sell yourself, your family or your ideals.Don't stagnate!Don't regress.Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.Learn a new skill.Find a new friend.Start a new career.Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits and dangerous liaisons.Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.Be true to yourself.Don't commit when you are not ready.Don't keep others waiting needlessly.Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.Write poetry.Love Deeply.Walk barefoot.Dance with wild abandon.Cry at the movies.Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.You light up your life.You drive yourself to your destination. No one completes you - except YOU.It isn't true that life does not get easier with age, it only gets more challenging.Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.Pursue your passions.Live your dreams.Don't lose faith in God.Don't grow old. Just grow YOU!When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.Your time is your life. That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.Relationships take time and effort, and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E because the essence of love is not what we think or do or provide for others, but how much we give of ourselves.God is good all the time! -- Rick Warren
PRAYER:
My Lord, in our days when life seems dull and tiring, remind us that you gave us this GIFT called LIFE. You said, our time is our life. we have to make the most of it while we are here on earth. and the key to make our lives flourish and for our hearts to feel alive is to live our lives to the fullest and to share our blessings to the unfortunate. we have to live every day as if it is the last day on earth. guide us and protect us and our lovedones. heal our broken mind, body, heart and soul. forgive us for our sins as we forgive those who sinned against us. we asked you this in your most precious name. Amen.
Labels: poetry, spiritual reveries
