TONIGHT I CAN WRITE
Saturday, September 15, 2007


"Tonight I Can Write"
By Pablo Neruda

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.


Write, for example, "The night is starry

and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance."


The night wind revovles in the sky and sings.


Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.


Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.

I kissed her again, and again under the endless sky.


She loved me, sometimes, I loved her too.

He could one not have loved her great still eyes?


Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have her.

To feel that I have lost her.


To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.


What does it matter that my love could not keep her.

The night is starry and she is not with me.


This is all. In the distance someone is singing.

In the distance.

My souls is not satisfied that it has lost her.


My sight tried to find her as though to bring her closer.

My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.


The same night whitening the same trees.

WE, of that time, are no longer the same.


I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.


Another's. She will be another's.

As she was before my kisses.

Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.


I no longer love her, that's certain,but maybe I love her.

Love is short, forgetting is so long.


Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms

my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.


Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer

and these the last verses that I write for her.











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Thursday, September 06, 2007

Love is a temporary madness.

It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides.

And when it subsides you have to make a decision.

You have to work out whether your roots

have become so entwined together that

it is inconceivable that you should ever part.

Because this is what love is.

Love is not breathlessness,

it is not excitement,

it is not the promulgation

of promises of eternal passion.

That is just being "in love"

which any of us can convince ourselves we are.

Love itself is what is left over

when being in love has burned away,

and this is both an art and a fortunate accident.

Your mother and I had it,

we had roots that grew towards each other underground,

and when all the pretty blossom had fallen f

rom our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

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ASHES
Saturday, September 01, 2007

ASHES


the ashes of your letters

i burned them all earlier

but the featherwieght ashes, they stayed here.

piled up like a dwarfed hill

i contemplate and wonder:

as your love letters for me turned into gray ashes,

will so your unforgettable memories of me?

the strong wind blew

going towards my direction

the ashy particles blinded my eyes...

temporarily blocking my sight...

i rubbed my teary eyes so hard

until it turned sore and red....

as i squinted and opened my eyes slowly

i noticed a paper

alluringly, waving at me...

i realized,

'twas a torn part of your letter

it escaped being transformed into ash

clearly, i could tell its your familiar handwriting,

in there it was written, "you will always be in my heart."

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the artist

poe

"We are all

painters

of our lives-

we choose

the colors,

brushes,

& strokes,

just as we choose

which perspective to depict.

our lives and our stories

becomes our masterpieces"

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obstacles VS faith
Thursday, August 23, 2007


doubt sees the obstacles.
faith sees the way.
doubt sees the darkest nights.
faith sees the day.
doubt dreads to take a step.
faith soars on high.
doubt questions, "who believes?"
faith answers, " i."

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I CAN NOT SAY
Saturday, August 18, 2007

"The Road goes ever on and on
Down from the door where it began.
Now far ahead the Road has gone,
And I must follow, if I can
,Pursuing it with eager feet,
Until it joins some larger way
Where many paths and errands meet.
And whither then?
I cannot say.."
J.R.R.T

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he said "NO"
Friday, August 17, 2007

A girl asked a guy if she was pretty..

he said "NO."

she asked him if he wanted to be with her forever..

he said "NO."

she then asked him if he would cry if she walked away..

he again said, "NO."

she had heard too much she needed to leave.

as she walked away...

he grabbed her arm ....

and asked her to stay..

he said , "you're not pretty.....you're BEAUTIFUL ...."

he said, "I don't wanna be with you forever.. I {{NEED}} to be with you forever..

he said, " and I wouldn't cry if you walked away.. I would {{ DIE }}....

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spiritual reveries: THE GREATEST ADVICE
Wednesday, August 01, 2007

spiritual reveries: THE GREATEST ADVICE

Don't date because you are desperate.
Don't marry because you are miserable.
Don't have kids because you think your genes are superior.
Don't philander because you think you are irresistible.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.
Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.
Don't dictate because you are smarter.
Don't demand because you are stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you are old enough and know better.
Don't hurt your kids because loving them is harder.
Don't sell yourself, your family or your ideals.
Don't stagnate!

Don't regress.
Don't live in the past. Time can't bring anything or anyone back.
Don't put your life on hold for possibly Mr. Right.
Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr. Wrong because your biological clock is ticking.

Learn a new skill.
Find a new friend.
Start a new career.
Sometimes, there is no race to be won,
only a price to be paid for some of life's more hasty decisions.

To terminate your loneliness, reach out to the homeless.
To feed your nurturing instincts, care for the needy.
To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get a puppy.
Don't bring another life into this world for all the wrong reasons.

To make yourself happy, pursue your passions and be the best of what you can be.
Simplify your life. Take away the clutter.
Get rid of destructive elements: abusive friends, nasty habits and dangerous liaisons.
Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdose on duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feeling for your family.
Be true to yourself.
Don't commit when you are not ready.
Don't keep others waiting needlessly.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.
Say those words. Don't let the moment pass.
Do what you have to, even at society's scorn.

Write poetry.
Love Deeply.
Walk barefoot.
Dance with wild abandon.
Cry at the movies.

Take care of yourself. Don't wait for someone to take care of you.
You light up your life.You drive yourself to your destination.
No one completes you - except YOU.

It isn't true that life does not get easier with age, it only gets more challenging.
Don't be afraid. Don't lose your capacity to love.
Pursue your passions.

Live your dreams.
Don't lose faith in God.
Don't grow old.
Just grow YOU!

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you'll never get back.
Your time is your life.
That is why the greatest gift you can give to someone is your time.

Relationships take time and effort,
and the best way to spell love is T-I-M-E
because the essence of love
is not what we think or do or provide for others,
but how much we give of ourselves.

God is good all the time!

-- Rick Warren
PRAYER:
My Lord, in our days when life seems dull and tiring, remind us that you gave us this GIFT called LIFE. You said, our time is our life. we have to make the most of it while we are here on earth. and the key to make our lives flourish and for our hearts to feel alive is to live our lives to the fullest and to share our blessings to the unfortunate. we have to live every day as if it is the last day on earth. guide us and protect us and our lovedones. heal our broken mind, body, heart and soul. forgive us for our sins as we forgive those who sinned against us. we asked you this in your most precious name. Amen.

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"

my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

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