TELL MY SELF

"Promise yourself to be so strong
that nothing can disturb your peace of mind.

Look at the sunny side of everything
and make your optimism come true.

Think only of the best,
work only for the best,and
expect only the best.

Forget the mistakes of the past
and press on to the greater achievements of the future.

Give so much time to the improvement of yourself
that you have no time to criticize others.

Live in the faith that the whole world is on your side
so long as you are true to the best that is in you!"

Christian D. Larson

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:39 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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FATHER AND SON (or in my case, a daughter)

one of the many songs i loved singing in the karaoke is cat steven's song father and son. i guess, though i am a daughter, my father always talked to me like a son. he told me his life stories, he showed me his unselfish ways of heliping others, he gave everything he had even if sometimes he had nothing left. when troubles arise, my father picks me up when i fall and remind me that no matter what happens i can deal with the storms of our lives. so it might have been a little late but belated happy father's day and happy birthday papa! for all that you've been, this one's for you. i love you!

FATHER AND SON
by Cat Stevens

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just relax, take it easy.
Youre still young,
thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to know.

Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me,
I am old,
but Im happy.

I was once like you are now,
and I know that its not easy,
To be calm when youve found something going on.
But take your time,
think a lot,
Why,
think of everything youve got.
For you will still be here tomorrow,
but your dreams may not.

Son
How can I try to explain,
when I do he turns away again.
Its always been the same, same old story.
From the moment I could talk
I was ordered to listen.
Now theres a way
and I know that I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

Father
Its not time to make a change,
Just sit down, take it slowly.Y
oure still young, thats your fault,
Theres so much you have to go through.
Find a girl, settle down,
If you want you can marry.
Look at me, I am old, but Im happy.


(son--
away away away,
I know I have to
Make this decision alone
- no)

Son
All the times that I cried,
keeping all the things I knew inside,
Its hard, but its harder to ignore it.
If they were right, Id agree,
but its them you know not me.
Now theres a way
and I know that
I have to go away.
I know I have to go.

(father-- stay stay stay, why must you go andMake this decision alone? )

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:30 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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i was thinking of something to wrtie about my father for father's day in tagalog also in memoriam of philippines'109th indepenence day. my papa is wonderful and my mom has been equally magnificent. and i ended up tearing while trying to compose something. fortunately, i read this article from a filipino spiritual digest and along with it came this touching musing. i'd like to share it with you. i attempted to write a tribute for my father, but i figured, my parents both deserved to recognize. read on...and hopefully, we can start a new to build our relationships with our parents.

sulat ni TATAY at NANAY sa atin



Sa aking pagtanda,
unawain mo sana ako
at pagpasensiyahan...

Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan,
o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag kainan,
huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan.
Maramdamin ang isang matanda.
Nagse-self-pity ako
sa tuwing sinisigawan mo ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko
at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo,
huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng "binge!";
paki-ulit nalang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat nalang.
Pasensya ka na, anak.
Matanda na talaga ako.

Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko,
pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo,
katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo
noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.

Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako
kung ako man ay nagiging makulit
at paulit-ulit na parang sirang plaka.
Basta pakinggan mo nalang ako.
Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan
o pagsasawaang pakinggan.

Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa?
kapag gusto mo ng lobo,
paulit-ulit mo 'yong sasabihin,
maghapon kang mangungulit
hangga't hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo.
Pinagtyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.

Pagpasensyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy.
Amoy matanda, amoy lupa.
Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo.
Mahina na ang katawan ko.
Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan,
huwag mo sana akong pandirihan.

Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa?
pinatyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng
kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana kung madalas,
ako'y masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan.

Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin.
Kapag may konti kang panahon,
magkwentohan naman tayo,
kahit sandali lang.

Inip na ako sa bahay,
maghapong nag-iisa.
Walang kausap.

Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho,
subalit nais kong malaman mo na
sabik na sabik na akong makakwentohan ka,
kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kwento ko.

Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa?
Pinagtyagaan kong pakinggan
at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kwento
tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.

At kapag dumating ang sandali
na ako'y magkakasakit
at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman,
huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan.

Pagpasensyahan mo na sana kung
ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan,
pagtyagaan mo sana akong alagaan
sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay.

Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.
Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw,
hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay
at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob
na harapin ang kamatayan.

At huwag kang mag-alala,
kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha,
ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain ka sana...
dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama't ina...

-- Rev. Fr. Ariel Robles

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:16 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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UNSENT: 365

dear boy (AB),

365 days ago, one year of silence, one year of cutting off my ties with you, one year of completely alienating myself from you...one year of deciding i will be out of your life forever. just like that...from best friends, to great lovers, and worse, now, total strangers.

and until now, i am trying to figure out what was worse? saying something and wishing i had shut my mouth and had not? or saying nothing and wishing i had? i've said things that pained you, i knew. but we must admit that the wound you cause me is much deeper. and the scars remained.

look, no more blaming games. i made a vow of looking towards the bright side of things. and so i am going to refrain from digging through the graves of our past out of respect of my friendship and past relationship with you.

moreover, i forgave you. i just woke up and realized that sometimes, bad things just happen - for no reason, no purpose. they just occur. and what do we do next? we ar eleft to pick up all the broken pieces the best that we can. and so i did. i picked mine up right then and there and moved on.

with no further comments and if you found access to this musing anywhere, i would just like to say, for the many treasured moments you made me feel genuinely and sincerely as though i actually meant something to someone...THANK YOU.

if we crossed paths again, i will be grateful enough just to see you happy. and that is enough. i don't know where you are now but wherever that place is, it is my prayer that my Lord is keeping you under His care. and that you are truly happy. i wish you well.

love,
len

posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:23 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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lyrics adapted from joyce

(NOTE: for most part, this is might sum up every thing i've been feeling lately. but i hate to think of negative thoughts. for months now, i am living off the hopes and certainties that i will only have great and not so great days. progressively, i came to the realization to apply the power of postive thinking. and slowly, it is giving me wonderful results.)

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:22 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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LIONESS: lady of leo

NOTE: one of my closest buddy lotte has been obsessed in astrology for years. it's at her bed side table for heaven's sake! for a long time, i've been ignoring the urges to read it nor believe it really. and then, every time, i get the lure to open it, it often states pretty precise definitions of me and my situational dilemma are even discused. and i swear, it's rubbing on me. so, anyway, to kill time today, i decided to post some of my astrological qualities as a child of leo. i decided, i would only post the positive traits of as who would like reading the negative sides of being a leo. and then, my friends who knew me well, can you actually see these characteristics in me? let me know.

LIONESS: the lady of leo

The ruler of Leo is the Sun. The glyph is generally thought to represent the tail of the lion. It can also symbolize the heat or the creative energy of the Sun. On entering the sign Leo, the Sun is said to exemplify cosmic splendor. The meaning attached to this seems to be that both the good and bad characteristics associated with Leo are perpetual. Through the ages, Leo has signified the coming of thebest growing season and thus reflects the abundant generosity of life.
In this aspect Leo is seen as the ordained provider.

Personal Traits

The Leo is a dominant, spontaneous, creative and extroverted character. They possess grace, dignity and an expansive personality. The lion is king of the animal kingdom, and an appropriate symbol for Leo who tends to dominate his environment. Ambitious, courageous, strong willed, positive, independent, self-confident are all words that describe the Leo traits.

Leos were born to lead and are most effective when in a position of command. Leos are straightforward and uncomplicated individuals who know what they want and pursue it with enthusiasm and a creative spirit. They are not easily daunted, and will persist through the most formidable of circumstances.They tend to be stubborn, and will hold onto a belief, or stick to a course of action through thick or thin.

Because of their positive nature, they tend to expect the best, and when things don't turn out as they had expected, they react immediately and badly. Although, they may suffer from short bouts of depression when life doesn't meet their expectations, they bounce back quickly and move on with their normal cheerful and demonstrative nature. Leos walks forward always, head held proudly and face turned towards the sun.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:19 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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SPIRITUAL REVERIES: unseen tomorrows


i may never see tomorrow; there's no written guarantee
and things that happened yesterday belong to history.
i cannot predict the future, i cannot change the past,
i have just the present moments, imust treat it as my last.

i must use this moment wisely for it soon will pass away,
and be lost forever, as part of yesterday.
i must exercise compassion, help the fallen to their feet,
be a friend unto the friendless, make an empty life complete.

the unkind things i do today may never be undone,
and friendships that i fail to win may nevermore be won.
i may not have another chance on bended knees to pray,
and i thank God with a humble heart for giving me this day

PRAYER:
my lord, we do not know what tomorrow hold
nor what it will bring.
but remind us, oh lord,
that our tomorrows is what we make it.
help us to make good choices
and that we may be able to inspire
and reach out to others as you taught us.
forgive us for our shortcomings
and thank you for the hope of tomorrows.
amen.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:09 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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