UNSENT: 365

dear boy (AB),

365 days ago, one year of silence, one year of cutting off my ties with you, one year of completely alienating myself from you...one year of deciding i will be out of your life forever. just like that...from best friends, to great lovers, and worse, now, total strangers.

and until now, i am trying to figure out what was worse? saying something and wishing i had shut my mouth and had not? or saying nothing and wishing i had? i've said things that pained you, i knew. but we must admit that the wound you cause me is much deeper. and the scars remained.

look, no more blaming games. i made a vow of looking towards the bright side of things. and so i am going to refrain from digging through the graves of our past out of respect of my friendship and past relationship with you.

moreover, i forgave you. i just woke up and realized that sometimes, bad things just happen - for no reason, no purpose. they just occur. and what do we do next? we ar eleft to pick up all the broken pieces the best that we can. and so i did. i picked mine up right then and there and moved on.

with no further comments and if you found access to this musing anywhere, i would just like to say, for the many treasured moments you made me feel genuinely and sincerely as though i actually meant something to someone...THANK YOU.

if we crossed paths again, i will be grateful enough just to see you happy. and that is enough. i don't know where you are now but wherever that place is, it is my prayer that my Lord is keeping you under His care. and that you are truly happy. i wish you well.

love,
len

posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:23 PM

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