open arms

{THIS IS AN ENTRY FOR SOMEONE SPECIAL IN MY LIFE *R*P* who once taught me how to love and to let go and how to forgive and to become great friends again because after all we've made enermous great experiences together than the not so great ones. thanks for teaching me how to act like a proper korean, for introducing me to the warmth of korean culture, for getting me addicted to korean telenovelas as well as embracing my own filipino morals and traditions as your own, and always clapping behind me no matter what disagreements we go through. i am looking forward to see you on summer like we spent our summer times together. happy birthday RP.나는 나가 너를 놓치는 너를 사랑한다 나의 팔으로너를kacikoiss기 위하여 나는 나를 사랑하기를위해 감사한다 너를 그때 그리고 지금 기다리고 yesterday, now and always. )

before,somehow, when conversations amongst our friends mentioned of your name, i felt strange. and when someone asked me if i knew you, i remain tongue-tied and idle. i did not want to discuss you nor inted to dig our pasts. and so, without the long explanation why you were gone, i looked to where they were waiting for an answer, and then i said softly, "once, i thought...i did."

ironically, when they asked me about the things i learned from your food and culture, i answer it with so much pride and wisdom. and i realize, you taught me so much. the often i turned my back from remembering you, i look away and i thought of all the times we had together. we shared so much laughters. we shed tears. and there are jokes and tons more in between: both expected and unexpected.

many times in my life, i prayed for our perfect ending. i wanted a perfect ending...but growing up and maturing, i've learned the hard way, that some poems do not rhyme, and some stories do not consist of clear beginning, middle and an end. i realized life is all about not knowing, having to change, and making the best of it all, without knowing what is going to happen next.

in the past, i've pushed away close people like you in my life. i've created emotional barriers to stop you or them from going back and barging into my gated self. and yet, your marked memories - the spectacular moments - spent with you bounces back into my mind and although i never admitted it, i gradually miss them.

you once told me, "we don't have to hold on to the pain and instead, hold on to the memory." that sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we end up losing people. but it does not mean, we have to comepletely erase them in our lives. we have to never forget them. certainly, you reminded me that most fo the times, those memories are the ones that gives us strength to go on.

sometimes, we take forgranted the people in our lives that meant so much ( even though things did not work out then when we wanted it to). and when we realize that, sometimes, it can be too late.

but today is different. i've learned that today that we have to take advantage of every we minute we have. we have to cherish and hold on to that every second moment. i've learned to embrace everything, have no regrets and never forget those that made you who you are.

and so i welcome you back in to my life with open arms ---because you toughened me up and made and inspired me to be who i am today. even stronger and better than before.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 11:17 PM

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