UNSENT: summer times

dear RP,

six summers ago, i fell in love with you.
you oftened called me,'hey girl' and i simply called you, my 'hey boy'
you even told your mom i was the girl you were going to marry
and i quickly hesitated!
you introduced me to korean food (including kimchi)
and made me addicted to korean telenovelas.
you used to put money in my bank during my college days without me knowing.
i used to cry to you all the time and you just listened to me.
at the peak of our romance,
you just disappeared like a bubble.
i waited for you that thanksgiving day like we talked about
but you never showed your face again.
i cried on my way back up north.

a year later, you tried to come back to my life.
you wanted it to be the same.
i wanted you to apologize for what you did.
you explained to me what happened.
perhaps, i understood...
but i was scared to even let you in my life again.

summer of 2005.
you were sitting in my car right next to me.
i swear, i was looking at you from my rear view mirror.
i wanted to hug you but it wasn't right.
you were my friend then...
we're ONLY friends.
before i parted with you that day,
you kissed me like you never kissed me before.
and yes, i might have enjoyed it.
i know, i still had feelings for you.
but it was too late.
i was with someone new then.
it was the last time i saw you.

now, we're talking again.
it feels strange that we've grown so close together again.
i've always felt comfortable telling you everything because you knew so much about me.
i still enjoy listening to your laughters...
i still find your arrogance charming...
sometimes, i wanted to say, ' i miss you'
but i know in my heart it is not the right time.
we're great friends now.
at least, for me, i felt we are so much better now.
i don't know how you view me.
i do feel that you care so much for me.

in about three months, i will see you again.
i can't believe i'll see you in the summer again,
just like we used to back in the days.
i wonder how things will be?
will we go further again?
i'm not sure.

but one thing's for sure,
i can't wait to see you
and welcome you back into my life,
my ex lover, now...my friend.

see you soon.

<3,
'hey girl'

posted by pinay freestyle @ 2:33 AM

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