it was hilarious and i couldn't help but giggled as i read it. it was from a magazine quote from D.H. Mondfluer and it stated,
"I hate being happy.
It pisses me off.
Because I know if I try to grab it,
it will slip away,
like one of those goddamn water snakes.
And I hate just looking. I always try to grab."
then i thought to myself, maybe, happiness is just there to grab and not to look for. sometimes, i think we are so ungrateful for the things, events, and people that makes us happy. the feeling of joy- its warmth and glory - it is often unnoticed.sometimes, we humans spin faster and faster in the pursuit of merely personal happiness. we become exhausted in the futile effort of chasing our selves just to feel what it's like to feel that bliss.
i feel that happiness always looks small while we hold it in our hands. but let it go, and only then when we learn at once how big and precious it was. so i figured, it would not hurt to follow oprah's suggestions to rate your happiness: one star for not so good and four stars for the happiest.
as i went about with my daily activities today and recalled the past weeks, i started smiling. and whew, i was happy. for instance, i walked ariel today for one hour, thanks for the half a tablet of darvocet - i was pain free, with my ipod blasting with madonna's "borderline," and all i could feel are the light breeze touching my face - FOUR STARS! ariel pooping on our neighbor's grass and me picking up the nasty poop - eww- not so good but deserving: HALF a star. making grilled cheese sandwich in the heat od the kitchen for my niece ischa and my nephew ichad and my good old homemade chocolate shake with lots of powdered godiva chocolate and watching them gulped it down like hungry cows happily: definitely FOUR STARS!
and so i go on some more, last night's free movie in the company of diane and lorenz - wow! THREE stars! making a fool out myself, cracking out my collection of jokes in front of my friends and watching them fall off their chairs - FOUR STARS. hearing mamu's version"visaya man gyud accent slash vakleta and veauty" voice on my cell leaving messages: FOUR STARS! finishing the twenty two episodes of the korean telenovela princess hours - phew! super duper long but yet, iloved it - THREE and a half stars. eating addictive korean barbeque at hodori with maffi - FOUR STARS! but not so fond of smelling like kimchi - ONE STAR. walking on the sands of redondo beach and shivering from the chilly sea breze with cousin aileen and friend da and ischa - always a relaxing place for me- FOUR STARS.
the food tripping was even a blooming burst of bliss. pastrami sandwich & cheese rolls at portos bakery: FOUR STARS! pho 36's house special vietnamese summer rolls: THREE STARS! annoying waited who liked da: ONE STAR okay...make it TWO STARS because he was annoyingly funny and i enjoyed out moment there. just now, i just got back from chinatown and their hot steam buns "ta si bao" (in chinese) were to die for! FOUR STARS!yummy!
i guess what i am aiming for is: live every moment and make it a happy moment. we often forget that happiness often sneaks in through a door we didn't know we left open. i realized we are so fond of counting our troubles, but we seldom or even never does not count our joys. but if we counted them up as we ought to, as you can tell from my ratings above, we would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it.
so let yourself...BE HAPPY and RATE it. nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. and do not pretend either. for only if only we'd stop trying to be happy, we will realize we could have a pretty good time.so, try it and don't fake it -rated H as in H for H A P P I N E S S. let me know it it works out. =)
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