SUBSTANCE
Saturday, March 31, 2007
substance

i went on a date with a guy who claimed he liked me for a while a week ago. i can't even explain how terrible the date was. let's just say, i warned my friends to stand by and keep their cellphones close by so they can pick me up just in case i am ready to desert the asshole and and leave him there - alone. yes, it was that bad!

it's not worth talking about him so i will not discuss how disgusted i am and disappointed in him. besides, that will even boost his ego so i am going to refrain from giving him his own free publicity. i am looking at it in the bright side, as mamu stated, "it was meant to be NOT TO BE."

in that particular date, he attempted to touch based sensitive issues that irked me. he said he didn't want kids ( i love kids!), he mentioned that women who are over 25 should marry now because "they are not like men...who are biologically capable" ( i beg todisagree, i worked in the medical field and i am fully aware of my patients in their 40's having babies - besides, there's always invitro LOL )and even worse, he said he'll take me to a club next time so "i can lose weight" (for his information, it took me a while to embrace and love myself and i am not going to change because some jerk prefers an anorexic b*tch).

and so i asked him while he busted out with negative remarks, why was he in a date with me again? he uttered he always thought i was someone he liked because i'm fun to be with, always never a dull moment, that he knew me, his family knew me, his friends knew me and they told him i'm a great catch....blah-blah-blah. it ws too late for me to be impress. he made such damaging statements earlier thatwhat ever he said, it's all bull, of course.

i left that date...and never turned back. i never even called him. when he attempted to call me, i texted him back and told that we're two different individuals that will never work out. so i beg him to just leave me alone.

as it was once said, sometimes, we have to be careful to judge the book by its cover. the cover might be attractive and intriguing but that book better have something good to offer inside. otherwise, it's just another boring book feasting on dust on a shelf.

i might not be a beautiful eyecatching cover of a book...but darn it, when you open this book called ME, you'll discover that i might be simply plain from the outside but in the inside, i am a book filled with SUBSTANCE.

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

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