mask
sometimes you just sit and think.
you wonder if he can see it in your eyes?
if can he tell you still love him?
if he can tell that there's nothing
you would rather think about than
the times he held you in his arms?
can he see the tears?
they sure are there...
along with the pain and the loneliness
that you bury deep down
so you're positive no one can tell.
sometimes you would give anything for a chance
to show him how much he meant to you.
you would give anything to make him understand...
but you smile through it all.
you talk like you always used to,
he texts you like he was still in love with you...
almost like the best of friends...
and every time he smiles at you,
a tiny little piece of hope springs up,
but you crush it before it can give you away.
so you hug him good-bye like it's nothing,
when all you want to do is hold on forever.
but you let go...
fake a huge smile...
and walk away...
then cry all the way home
because you know ...
it will never be the same.
because try as you might,
you can't make someone love you.
sometimes you have to let them go...
that is when love hurts the most:
when you have to wear a mask
infront of the one you love.
sometimes you just sit and think.
you wonder if he can see it in your eyes?
if can he tell you still love him?
if he can tell that there's nothing
you would rather think about than
the times he held you in his arms?
can he see the tears?
they sure are there...
along with the pain and the loneliness
that you bury deep down
so you're positive no one can tell.
sometimes you would give anything for a chance
to show him how much he meant to you.
you would give anything to make him understand...
but you smile through it all.
you talk like you always used to,
he texts you like he was still in love with you...
almost like the best of friends...
and every time he smiles at you,
a tiny little piece of hope springs up,
but you crush it before it can give you away.
so you hug him good-bye like it's nothing,
when all you want to do is hold on forever.
but you let go...
fake a huge smile...
and walk away...
then cry all the way home
because you know ...
it will never be the same.
because try as you might,
you can't make someone love you.
sometimes you have to let them go...
that is when love hurts the most:
when you have to wear a mask
infront of the one you love.
[note]
i wanted to reply to "his" calls or to his texts. i could not.i had no right to. so i wear this ugly facade: the unrealistic me . i wore it only to get rid of him... to erase the emotions i feel. i played it so well, the real feelings i have towards him were hidden and burried that only i know the honest truth. my heart is screaming. my heart wants him more than he will ever know. but...no...i must not. if there was one thing i can do is...write what i feel and unreveal myself ...even if it is only here. if he reads it...great. if he doesn't, at least, here, it's left unraveled. even if in real life, it is left unsaid
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