TRANSFORMATION
Friday, September 21, 2007
when i was in the car with mom, she often lectures me about humility:to be humble of my achievements , to set my foot planted on the ground and not to allow my head to get big. she insists being humble harvest rewards in the end because karma is evident. it can hit you when you least expected it. so, you reap what you sow. when you're nice, you reap kindness and respect from other people. what mom does not know is thatshe taught me that lesson long time ago. i remained humble. i am still the same person: that little girl who grew up near the market in the philippines and mingled with the poor, the girl who witnessed her hard work along with papa's effort, too, just to give us the best education, and i'm still the little girl who still discovering herself and attaining her goals humbly.
i've been trying to incorporate one to two hours daily walks with ariel every day. i also attempted to perform light exercises as i can't exert too much pressure on my left foot and ankle and right shoulder yet. i have also switched to vegetarian meals now for about two months and as difficult as it is, i hardly eat rice now a days. i only drink water or 100% natural juices. i also gave up coffee and soda, mind you. well, all my pants are getting loose now. when i wear my body hugging clothes, my evident curves are showing. and now, i get comments like "vavavoom" or "DDG" (stands for drop dead gorgeous) from my friends. it's such a inspiringly flattery gesture.
and the herd of men are flocking in. some caught my choosy interest. but i am no longer the lady who dated every men she met or got hooked up with. my god, have i grown picky with my choices of men?! no more gangsters, no more ghetto, slang talking guys, no more guys who can't spell a word, no more guys who does not love their family, no more men who are not close to the Lord ...well yeah, you might have pictured my list. my strict list of standards now have sclaed up on a higher level now. that explains why i am still single. but it is perfectly okay as it is my task to choose who i think is right for me. he he he.
these strange journey of transformation came by surprise. but one that i am embracing with open arms. i know there are many more to come. and i do welcome the little steps but obviosuly drastic change.
who knows? i'll just shock everybody else later on. i'll keep you posted. =)
Labels: change, life, self esteem
and...i will smile.....
Thursday, August 16, 2007
lately, i've been spending so much time out: out with friends, friday night outs, meeting new people, dating new people my friends' introduced me to, out shopping, out at the beach...just outside.
and then they asked me, "what's up with you and your mr. 'rp'?" i did not know what to say. fankly, i don't want to deal with him. he knows this is the last thing i need right now. i don't need stress.
twinge tears my heart and sometimes, i cry myself to sleep. with a deep sigh, i just answered, " you know, i don't want to dwell on things i can't do anything about. i'd rather dwell on things that are working out for me."
a guy friend uttered, " please, len, stop busting out with your drama...just think that someone, somewhere, thinks of you and dreams of you before they they go to sleep. you should live life for those people."
and so, tonight, i will be thinking of those people.i will wipe the tears away.
and... i will smile. =)
Labels: change, happy thoughts, moving on
buhay
Friday, July 20, 2007
pinatay ko na lahat ng telepono.
gala na naman ako ng gala.
sabi ng doktor, pumirmi ako sa bahay.
dapat ako'y nagpapahinga.
pero mas parang nagkakasakit ako sa bahay.
gusto ko nasa labas ako dahil mas presko.
mas nakakahinga ako ng maiigi.
subalit sampung araw na mahigit....
hindi na naman ako tamaan ng tulog.
sumasakit na ulo ko sa kakaisip.
gutom man ay di ako dalawin.
yun ngang pantalon ko lumuluwag na.
iniisip ko siya kahit ayaw ko na siyang isipin.
lintek na buhay ito, oo!
Labels: change, tagalog
