rays of hope
Monday, May 18, 2009
like a theatrical piece seen in a broadway play or a scene in a tear-jerking movie production, life is a showmanship poured with a labyrinthe of mystifying dramas. my meandering life existence for the past few weeks leaves me exhausted. its’ intricate unending complications are becoming laboriously unbearable. almost daily, i am faced with problematic dillemmas. troublesome journeys take an immense toll on me causing unmanageable relationships with my lovedones, peers, and even myself.
today, after yet another demanding encounter last night that resulted in fuming argument, i found myself staring at my own reflection in the mirror. my chinky eyes manifested a sleepless tearful night with obvious puffiness. the skin that circles under my eyebags and my eyelids are peeling and a little red from rubbing it too much that i obtained from wiping my tears rigoriously. i wanted to smile instead i displayed a sorrowful frown.
the urge to weep again arises but i kept it composed. alternatively, i stared at my blank face. silently in my head, i started a conversation with that woman i see infront of the mirror. the array of painful events suddenly rewinded and recalled. the anxious concerns came pouring in and rationalizing scrutiny. there are a vast of negative critiques to identify. there are summons of pin pointing blames. there are intriguing questions calling for answers…most of which starts with “why?.” yet, i forced to ignore that agenda. it was not my desire to let the tears fall again this time.
in leui, i directed the serious ”discussion” to import of unwavering strength, to give in to account of hope, and to chronicle and remind myself to hold on to faith. i desired this consultation to be a journey to heal, to forgive and eventually to forget.
so the dialogues went like these...
always know that there are those whose love and
understanding will always be there, even when you feel most alone. there are the people who will love you even in your worse self, they will love you. never stop discovering. discover enough goodness in others to believe in this world of peace.
embrace and be thankful for simple gestures: a kind word, a reassuring touch, and a warm smile be yours every day of your life. and in return, may you give these gifts as well as receive them.
always believe and hold on to hope. remember the beauty of the sunshine when the life’s storm seems unending.
never stop loving. teach love to those who hate you and your family. love your enemies the most. let that love embrace you as you go out into the world. never stop learning. let the teachings of those people you admire and got inspired become part of you, so that you may call upon them.
always make a positive connection and never forget the people you have met along the way. remember that those whose lives you have touched and whose have touched yours are always a part of you, even if the encounters were less than you would have wished. it is the content of the encounter that is more important than the form.
do not become too concerned and obsessed with material matters, but instead place
immeasurable value on the goodness in your heart. remember... you can not
bring all these treasures in heaven. you can only bring your friends.
always be appreciative and productive. find pleasure in simple things. find time
each day to see beauty and love in the world around you. realize that each
person has limitless abilities, but recognize that each of us is different in our own way. what you feel you lack in the present may become one of your strengths in the future.
never stop dreaming and achieving and stop worrying. look at the future as
one filled with promise and possibility. be a sponge and absorb everything life
has to offer. learn to view everything as a worthwhile experience.
find YOURSELF. find enough inner strength to determine your own worth by yourself. do not be dependent on another’s judgment of your accomplishments. you know yourself better than anyone else.
despite the hurt…always believe in love. always believe there are people who care for you and love you as you are. so just be yourself. may you always be loved. may "mr. dimsum" always love you...despite of the times you say angry things at him. may he be patient and unchanging.
there may be testing trials…but remember that there are also victorious triumphs. and that the world awaits you…
i guess…what i am really trying to convey is…there is always hope. there are times when heart gets weak. but it will continue to beat. and no matter how much difficult encounters, the heart lives and it will feel like the sun coming out after a series of rainy days.
we should always cling to hope because we know that there is always hope in the heart that chases the dark clouds away. hope is a higher heart frequency and as we all begin to reconnect with our hearts, hope awaits us to show new possibilities and arrest the downward spiral of grief and loneliness. it becomes just a matter of how soon you want the sun to shine.
so listen to the still, small voice in your heart….it will make hope into a reality. just what my friend balot always say, “HANG IN THERE.”
and so i am hanging on.
i am holding on.
in God's perfect time, He will give it to me.
the best is yet to come.
Labels: hope, life, life lessons, my story
BELIEVE
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
[note: i had a disheartening day today while waiting for another doctor's appointment. in between my deep sighs, i was able to scribble some writing, reminding myself to believe and to have hope. i hope it helps you today.]
B E L I E V E
there may be days when you get up in the morning
and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.
that's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better.
there are times when people disappoint you and let you down.
but those are the times when you must remind yourself
to trust your own judgments and opinions,
to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.
there will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life,
and it is up to you to accept them.
constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you.
it may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle
you will find a stronger sense of who you are.
so when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be.
because the challenges and changes will only help you t
o find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.
bottom line is how can you convince people
to believe in you when you can't believe in yourself?
believing is a magic that makes a dream come true.
keep believing. you can do it!
Labels: believe, encouragement, hope, life, life lessons
SOMEDAY...my prince will come
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
A message from God:
"No man will ever claim you unless he claims you from me. I have reserved a man for you, who has my heart and loves me even more than he will you. I won't give you unless he asks you from me.
He's asleep, don't wake him, he's busy for me and my kingdom. Soon you will know him, but I have the perfect time.
You are my princess, my daughter. Let no prince claim you unless he asks you from my hand. For I am your Father, the King of Kings.
You, my princess are worth waiting for."
"I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am."
-John 14:3
Someday my Prince will come.
Labels: faith, hope, LORD, love, relationships, spiritual reveries
ginhawa
Saturday, September 29, 2007
kaya ko naman, Lord.
kaya ko pang magtiis sa hirap.
kaya ko pang labanan ang pait.
kaya ko pang tumayo sa bagyo ng buhay.
kaya ko pang ibigay lahat sa mga kapatid ko.
kaya ko pang tulungan ang nanay at tatay ko.
kaya ko pang magbigay sa kapwa ko.
kaya ko pang makinig sa mga kaibigan ko.
kaya ko pang bumangon sa pagkadapa.
kaya ko pang hilumin ang malalim na sugat ng puso.
kaya ko pa sigurong magmahal kahit ilang beses na nasaktan.
kaya ko pang gunapang kahit hirap na sa paglakad.
kaya ko pa, Lord...
pero sa kabila ng mga unos na ito, Panginoon ko,
samahan niyo ako sa bawat pagtahak ko ng pagsubok,
lantaran niyo ako ng ilaw sa mga araw na madilim,
bigyan niyo ako ng ginhawa sa mga araw na nawawalan ako ng pag-asa.
kaya ko pa, Lord...
basta, huwag niyo lang ako iiwan.
kaya ko pa, Lord....
dahil nandiyan ka sa buhay ko.
Labels: hope, spiritual reveries, tagalog
FAITH
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
sometimes, i cogitate how other people respond to performing my life if they were in my shoes. filling in my shoes in not an easy task. the grand lists of errands and everyday things i have to do in a day is overwhelming. sometimes, i feel like 24 hours is not enough. while some of has become habitual, half are exhaustingly painful, mentally alarming and emotionally draining.
pain has been a big issue lately. i will not discuss the intensity of it. though my warm face does not show the obvious symptoms ( i put on a big facade most of the time and i hide it because i don't like lovedones worrying about me, ) my MRI's will probably prove it. frustration and irritability play a bigger role, it chokes me a chicken and sometimes, i feel i can't breath from it all. most of the time, i try to convice myself, it's all "mind over matter" as the martial arts mantras dictate. yet, the mind detects pain. it just constrain the body and affects the soul.
regimens of relaxation and meditation are part of my daily routines now. prayers in my head are what keeps me sane. when i am with lovedones or when i talk to them on the phone, i prefer to have doses of laughter. it is after all the best medicine. and if you're there with us, you'll notice that i try to incorporate humors in our conversations. i attempt to keep it enlightening and positive.
although, i have to admit, i hardly show it but there are times when i grow weary. i get too tired and exhausted of life's events. fighting for your life and telling yourself to stay on top of things drain all of your energy. but courage is an unbelievable thing. it brings you to heights of great pursues.
in the end, like i always tell my friends, keep the hope, dig in and find that courageous you. though i am going through those trials right now, i certainly know that there is a rainbow waiting for me. after all, we can not discover new oceans unless we have the courage to lose sight of the shore.
so hold on a little longer...faith, courage and hope awaits. and we'll suffer no more.
That's the beauty of the human mind. To do anything that you want to do.
To trust yourself to test your limits.
[BERNARD EDMONDS]
Labels: hope, life, pain
SPIRITUAL REVERIES: HOPE
Friday, August 31, 2007
Do You Feel There is No Hope
In your times of deep despair,
Do you feel there is no hope?
As the darkness closes in on you,
Do you feel you cannot cope?
As you struggle on through every trial,
Do you say "When will it end"?
As you cry yourself to sleep at night,
Do you wish you had a friend?
When your body's racked with aches and pains,
Do you feel you are alone?
When you think about the future,
Do you fear the great unknown?
There is someone who really cares,
And He hears your every cry.
His arms are reaching out to you,
And on Him you can rely.
When things close in around you,
He sees your fear and doubt -
He wants to hold you in His arms,
And He will never cast you out.
As you stumble through the darkness,
He will be your guiding light.
He wants to wipe away your tears,
For you are precious in His sight.
Reach out right now to Jesus,
And let Him take complete control -
He'll take that heavy burden,
And He'll touch and make you whole.
He's reaching out His arms to you,
And He wants to be your friend.
Let Him take you in His loving arms,
For His love will never end.
PRAYER:
our loving Father, many times in our lives, we are weakened byt he everyday trials we go through. too many, sometimes, we rarely see, glimmers of hope. but remind us, oh Lord, that you do not give us anything we can not handle. and that though things are not turning out the way we ought life to be, help us believe and hope you have better plans instored for us. and we will wait for your call, our Lord. forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who sinned against us. bless our lovedones, guide them and protect them always. we asked you these in your most precious name. Amen.
Labels: hope, spiritual reveries
