FAITH
Wednesday, September 12, 2007




sometimes, i cogitate how other people respond to performing my life if they were in my shoes. filling in my shoes in not an easy task. the grand lists of errands and everyday things i have to do in a day is overwhelming. sometimes, i feel like 24 hours is not enough. while some of has become habitual, half are exhaustingly painful, mentally alarming and emotionally draining.



pain has been a big issue lately. i will not discuss the intensity of it. though my warm face does not show the obvious symptoms ( i put on a big facade most of the time and i hide it because i don't like lovedones worrying about me, ) my MRI's will probably prove it. frustration and irritability play a bigger role, it chokes me a chicken and sometimes, i feel i can't breath from it all. most of the time, i try to convice myself, it's all "mind over matter" as the martial arts mantras dictate. yet, the mind detects pain. it just constrain the body and affects the soul.



regimens of relaxation and meditation are part of my daily routines now. prayers in my head are what keeps me sane. when i am with lovedones or when i talk to them on the phone, i prefer to have doses of laughter. it is after all the best medicine. and if you're there with us, you'll notice that i try to incorporate humors in our conversations. i attempt to keep it enlightening and positive.



although, i have to admit, i hardly show it but there are times when i grow weary. i get too tired and exhausted of life's events. fighting for your life and telling yourself to stay on top of things drain all of your energy. but courage is an unbelievable thing. it brings you to heights of great pursues.



in the end, like i always tell my friends, keep the hope, dig in and find that courageous you. though i am going through those trials right now, i certainly know that there is a rainbow waiting for me. after all, we can not discover new oceans unless we have the courage to lose sight of the shore.



so hold on a little longer...faith, courage and hope awaits. and we'll suffer no more.




"To dream anything that you want to dream.


That's the beauty of the human mind.


To do anything that you want to do.


That is the strength of the human will.


To trust yourself to test your limits.


That is the courage to succeed."



[BERNARD EDMONDS]

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

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my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

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