SPIRITUAL REVERIES: sand and stones
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
two friends were walking through the desert. during some point of the journey, they had an argument, and one friend slapped the other one in the face. the one who got slapped was hurt, but without saying anything, he wrote in the sand:
“today my best friend slapped me in the face.”they kept on walking, until they found an oasis, where they decided to take a bath. the one who had been slapped got stuck in the mire and started drowning, but the friend saved him. after he recovered from the near drowning, he wrote on a stone: "
today my best friend saved my life".the friend who had slapped and saved his best friend asked him,
"after i hurt you, you wrote in the sand and now, you write on a stone. why?” the friend replied,
"when someone hurts us, we should write it down in sand, where winds of forgiveness can erase it away. but, when someone does something good for us, we must engrave it in stone where no wind can ever erase it."learn to write your hurts in the sand and to carve your benefits in stone. they say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
PRAYER:
Lord,
thank you for always shedding light in your dark everydays.
thank you for always givng us second chances to correct our imperfectness.
Lord,
in our times of shortcoming
and times we may have hurt the people around us,
i ask for your mercy and forgiveness.
we are sorry.
give me the chance to forgive
the people who have caused us pain or torments.
and that in return, we also ask for your forgiveness.
as we go on our day, Lord,
open our hearts and minds
to become a better Christian.
guide us in ways we can serve you and your people
at the best of our capability.
bless the people around us,
who continue to be patient with us despite our cruelty.
bless the people who loves us dearly.
bless even more,
the ones who we have lost touch and had rivals with.
may they find forgiveness in their hearts.
keep them in your watchful eyes and guide them.
we ask you these in your name....
Amen.
Labels: forgiveness, friendship, God, life, life lessons, LORD
EPISODES
Friday, May 02, 2008
like the color yellow traffic light, i wait for my turn for the life's traffic light to go green. i scribbled words of mixed emotions: indescribable rollercoaster feelings of being in love and loving back, awkwardness of losing a trusted best friend due to self proclaimed ego, standing strong through the storms of recovery, missing the experience of the normalcy of life. lately, life has been on a halt.
the past months has truly been a test of strength. my best friend and i kind of parted ways. i will nmot detail the arguement. but let's face it, i am truly hurt. i've decicated my 13 years of friendship with her. and despite my anguish, i still worry and think about her. i stilll pray that God protects her and guides her. and that she'll forgive me for whatever harshness i've said. yeah, i have other friends. in fact, i have a lot of friends. but still, life is not the same not having her around. but for right now, life must go on.
physical recovery from an injury is somewhat easy. but the emotional and mental complications along with it is difficult. i am recovering from a long complicated injury that seems to get worse each time i am lying on a MRI machine as specialist detected more damage. words like 'nerve damage,' 'complications,' have been somewhat of a norm. narcotics, muscle and nerve relaxants have been my companion when the physical pain arise. but insomnia kicks in at night and you start thinking. how many days of idleness have passed you by due to all of this? my life of 2 hours sleep a day before is gone. i could have done a million things from these wasted recovery days. this idleness is a killer. and it gets worse as the day goes by.
for most part, love is unexplainable. most of the times, it is wonderful like the cherry on top of the sundae. sometimes, very rare, i taste a bit of tartly sourness like an unripe fruit. no one has loved me like "he" loves me. he is, by far, the greatest man i have dated beyond my wildest dream. who shows up in my house with an iced hazelnut coffee just because he knew i would love that? who takes me to latenight walks on the beach just because he knew i would enjoy that? who goes swimming with me eventhough he admits he's not a great swimmer just so i wouldn't be alone in the siwmming pool? my love does that for me...JUST BECAUSE.
but love isn't all sunshine and roses. we deal with miscommunicating. we say things we don't mean but have said it anyway and hurt each other. sometimes, a mere joke is taken too seriously that you unknowingly pained his ego and his heart. sometimes, i forget how lucky i am and i forget to appreciate all the awesome things and experiences he shares with me. i tell him many times, i am not perfect. i admit i am wrong and i say i am sorry. but i know, apologizing sometimes is not good enough to erase the damage i have done. yet, he forgives me. yet, he loves me.
i can't predict what life will bring me. i can't foretell what stories will come up next or who are the people i will cross path with. in this make believe world of 'fakes," i am simply struggling to be ME, the original. all i know for sure is, this is MY life. and as life hits me with my life's episode, i will just absorb it, writing stories of my life, one moment at a time. i can't do anything with what life gives...there's nowhere to go but to go on, savor it, live it and then tell it.
Labels: friendship, life, life lessons, love, strength
existence
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
before i went on hibernation last weekend, i squeezed in a lunch date with sexy sini during her lunch break. let me remind everyone i haven't had any meat in my body in months after deciding to be low carb, partial vegetarian! so i begged sini to go to a sushi bar just so i can have sushi or some kind of fish. well, so we both ordered a bento tray and a generous sushi selection ( i did not finish any of the sushi - i had one or two of each and i was about to puke my brains out).
in that intersection of hollywood boulevard and vermont avenue, for her one hour lunch break, we shared endless laughters and memorable conversations of love, life and friendships. even squeezed in a little shopping for a necklace. it's been 15 years since i knew her and not a single thing change.
[sushi selection]
[japanese bento tray]
weekend came and i, i sort of, well, i went into hiding...except that i did spend some time with people from church to go watch the pacquiao-barrera fight. i lost my voice screaming my butt off that night.
determined, after that, i ditched my regular "saturday-night-gimikera-party-gal" image to "i-will-be-low-profile-&i'll-be-off-someWHERE-tranquilizing" to unstress my weary mind, body and soul. with cellphones turned off and ipod blasting in my car, i just drove off.
and there, at that undisclosed location, i attempted to rejuvenate my eahausted self from the cares of the world. and it has never been more filling to just enjoy such animosity.
when i opened my quiet cell as monday morning approached, it was overflowing with voice messages and gazillion texts..most of which i deleted. i filtered the messages and selected only a very few for a call back. well, in fact, i only called one person, kuya arthur because i knew he needed me after leaving me array of detailed texts and voice messages ( take note: he often leaves me just one message so i knew it was an emergency situation).
it turned out i was right. upon meeting him, we dived into discussing his problems. we figured out some kind of solution to his dilemma. knowing him when he's stressed out, he always asked me to eat out after. i think that was his own way of destressing himself. as always, he made to decide where to eat out. and we ended up here.
[korean barbeque and the generous "bancha" - appetizer]
["galbi" - marinated beef on the grill]
being partial vegetarian, i declined on the fat slabs of korean steaks (although, i was itching to try it. ) i ordered their vegetarian "bibimbap" ( with mushroom, spinach, bean sprouts, carrots, bean jelly, spinach and dried nori flakes on a bed -" furikake" in japanese on abed of sticky rice - i had three big bites of the rice and that was it!) but they still had some chopped beef on my clay bowl. so i just took it out.
while i watched kuya enjoy his thrid korean barbeque meal with me, he gave me a lecture why i'm so crazy, not showing my face, not returning his calls, and now, not eating meat at all..(that's his typical self ---lecture here and there...) and i just gobbled up on my freshly made bibimbap, green salad with peacan, and fried tofu (my version of meat for three months now).
[korean BIBIMBAP]
[FRIED TOFU]
[green salad with peacans]
but beyond the great food, i'm grateful for the gracious company of my friends who constantly worry about me. they knew me so well that when i decided i would be "gone" for couple for days, they talked among themselves who was going to take me out on what day JUST because...i knew also that they thought i was probably in surgery to be that awfully quiet and distant.
people asked me where do i obtain my amazing strength. well, of course, my faith allows me to replenish strength when i'm weary. but my family and friends multiplies that God given courage when they are with me and believing in me. and this difficult path to battling life has been triumphant for me because i am surrounded with amazing people who refuse to give me up especially on the most challenging, mind boggling stage of healing.
i am humbly appeciative.
i realized, i'm so fortunate.
thankful that i am super blessed.
i exist...i am here..
i will live and enjoy each day of life...for them.
they make it worth living.
Labels: food, friendship, fun, lifestyle
'separation' anxiety
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
LIFE ON THE FAST LANE....
Friday, August 24, 2007
LIFE IS AN ENDLESS PARTY
SO WHILE WE'RE AT IT,
WE MIGHT AS WELL
PARTY LIKE A ROCK STAR!
LEN
Labels: friendship, fun, life
HAPPY HOUR
Monday, August 13, 2007
rossini took me out to a late brithday korean barbeque lunch/early dinner friday the past week. we were so full and we still had a grip of time to spend some more time before she heads out to her friend's despedida. so we decided we'd go t k-box for their happy hours karaoke. (a place destined for me to always bumped into people i know and yes, upon entering, i already saw some of the guys i was drinking my ass off with just the weekend before. =P )
was it me or what? but the happy hour did not feel like happy hour to me. i mean, don't get me wrong, being with rossini there makes me happy but hearing the songs we sang makes me think about life and love in general. i suddenly missed people in my life. while sini sang the blues away, i missed feeling loved, i miss having my friends there all the time, i miss being with siblings.
so...yeah, you get the picture. anyway, just thought i'd share two of my faves from the songs we sang and the lyrics.
Take Me I’ll Follow
Tired of feeling all by myself
Being so different from everyone else
Somehow you knew I needed your help
Be my friend forever
I never found my star in the night
Building my dream was far from my sight
You came along and I saw the light
We’ll be friends forever
I can’t face the thought of you leaving
So take me along
I swear I’ll be strong
If you take me wherever you go
I wanna learn the things that you know
Now that you made me believe
I want you to take me
‘Cause I long to be
Able to see the things that you see
Know that whenever you do
I’ll follow you
Somebody must have sent you to me
What do I have you could possibly need
All I can give is my guarantee
We’ll be friends forever
I can’t face the thought of you leaving
So take me along
I swear I’ll be strong
When you take me wherever you go
I wanna learn the things that you know
Now that you made me believe
I want you to take me
‘Cause I long to be
Able to see the things that you see
Know that whenever you do
I’ll follow you
Teach me more with each passing hour
By your side
I’ll follow you
I know I would cover?
Is it true that you have the power
To capture this moment in time
Take me wherever you goI wanna learn the things that you knowNow that you made me believeI want you to take me‘Cause I long to beAble to see the things that you seeKnow that whenever you doI’ll follow you
Take me wherever you goI wanna learn the things that you knowNow that you made me believe(I want you to take me…)I want you to take me…
SA ISIP KO
Alam kong meron ng iba
Sa kilos mo'y na dararama
Mukhang ako ay kinalimutan mo na
Wala ng masasabi di ba
Kapit mo kay lamig na
Pati halik mo'y wala ng gana
Magaw ka man ng iba sa akin
Pag-ibig ko'y patuloy parin
CHORUS
Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Alam kong meron ng iba
Ang init ay nang lamig na
Ba't de aminin ang de malilihim
Ikaw at ako'y tapos na
Bawat hakbang palayo ka
Walang linaw na babalik pa
Maagaw ka man ng iba sakin
Pag-ibig ko'y patuloy pa rin
CHORUS
Sa isip ko'y yakap ka pa
Sa isip ko'y walang iba
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Mananatiling ikaw ang kapiling
Kahit sa isip ko lang lamang
Labels: friendship, lyrics
HAPPY BDAY TO ME!!!
Saturday, August 11, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!
happy birthday to me! [again and again!!]
the past year is probably one of the challenging trials of my life. celebrating another year of just living this life given to me by my CREATOR is truly one of his miracles. my Lord loves me, I know, because he shows it through the warm spirits of people who touched and inspired my life.
mom ('my) & papa (popeye) - there were many times, i failed to be the "role model" daughter but you loved my flaws anyway. thank you for the"gift", the wacky night out with ate bel and the abundant almost gluttonic lunch birthday with the whole fam bam at full house. i love you so much!
ate bel & cha- thanks for the fun night at musikahan crazy host bona for the "okrays" spoken jealousy of my "real" boobs =) and for the unlimited dose of laughter. 'twas a stress reliever!
niece ischa and nephew ichad - wow! so many gifts! i love it all!!! and my super nice flipped through picture frames! it's my favorite gift becausew you guys made it! i'll always be here for you. tita loves you dearly.
sistah karing/noreenie weenie - thanks for the heartwarming text. it was narcissistic but it was so you and i love that about you! though we're far right now, i constantly think of you and i wished i can celebrate my bdays with you and long. i love you sis.
brotha long/NJ - whoa! suprising comments brah! thanks, i'm so touched hey! you're crazy & sometimes, a pain in the ass, but i would not have you any other way! i like you just like that! i love yah, men.
baby brother LA - thanks for my "gifts" from new york and my pasalubong from miami, and for the thoughtful things you sent me while you were away. thanks for coming home from miami early to be with me. thanks for the birthday breakfast at al cove, move & dinner at sanam with cousin ai. 'twas healthily yummy and what ambiance! luv yah!
cousin ai - two weeks with you is amazing! thanks for going down from up north to be with us! thanks for the pasalubong from london, the gifts you gave me & from auntie vicks ( i'm reading it everyday!), the movie date rattatoullie at the grove, the nights and mornings spent at the beach ( i still feel bad about your cellie but it's ok..i'm sure you're enjoying your fancy iphone!), our endless dose of coffee bean, the late late night talks and drinks and karaoke! i miss you already! i can't thank you enough.
auntie vicks - my harajuku bag! yeah! love it love it! and my souvenirs from london. lakas ko talaga sa inyo.
cousin hannah - you know me best. kakaiyak yung dvd. reminds me of " you know who." i miss you so much, tears. i love you and coleenie and fafa eric.
auntie norma & uncle ding - thanks for coming down to be with me and my family. we miss you, too.
cousin annette - thanks for the Bday email.
MY ron, pogi shi po so. bian he for my craziness. whatever happens in our life time, together or apart, i will always be here for you and you will always hold a special place in my heart. sarang heyo.
maffia - thank you for attempting to stay up the night before my birthday in an effort to be the first one to greet me ( poor sleepy you, ended up sleeping, like you always do) but A for effort and i love you for that. i'm touched by your comment. stop making me cry! the k-dramas are already making me melodramatic! i miss you and alyssa. come down soon! or i'll fly there! luv yah girl!
charm ( my blondie) and shane ( tiyong cesar) - thank you for hosting my second party at your house. so much food, so much drinks, crazy hosts!!! wow, what an a lovely party! you were awesome! how can i even top that!? i love you both for your sarcastically love to me ( naiimune na ako sa lakas niyong pang-asar!) and charm for my cute necklace and earring - ang arte mo talaga! love you and my inaanaks - kaylah & khloe!
balloteskie & fafa - i'm still craving for that sisig! and my yummy cake, tY for bringing kristine and jerome ( thank you for coming! )mamu, thanks for all the late night conversation, our days at the beach, for the life, love and boys advices, but above all, for making me laugh when all i wanted to do is cry. you're my secret keeper and i love you. gurl, walang laglagan! haha LOL. miss cutie mhilou too. nandito lang aketch, vakla if you need me. todo na to, walang iwanan.
kuya salde - my gosh! shocking phonecall from NYC ha! touched naman ako. kuya, thanks for all the advises, for the patawa, for the chika and for being the brother i never had. i miss you and new york. i'll go there when i am well. so i get to stay in your gold card hotels in atlantic city? hahah you gambler you! be careful. teach me your tricks next time.
diane & lorenz - di, i know you're always praying for me.thanks for my gift. thanks for always the one who feeds my spiritual needs. i am closer to God because of people like you. thanks for the movie nights and early morning dates at chinatown and karaoke! i hope lorenz felt good after the party because he was out of it!!!! =) thank you bringing glenn, mike, and darryl and cousin. hope they had a great time.
tone - elvis!!!you are always my cheer giver, my destressor, my singer and entertainer, driver for free! you sing me my requested songs and bring me my favorite food when i make kulit. you have an extarordinary voice. i envy you, my "vocal coach" - tagasalo ng matataas na kantang di ko maabot! you've proven me you will always be there for me at the toughest time of my life. thank you. i'll be praying for you to pass the boards. besa me mucho, muchas gracias!
papie ricks - my ______donor!!! there's nothing so wonderful in the world than you always calling me "beautiful" at 5 am at my least prettiest moment. our meaningful conversation brings sunshine to my everyday. i so miss you, sweetie. i wish you're near. take me to frisco! thanks muaaah!
sini - we should have done this ten years ago! i had a blast with you today! thanks for taking me out today: for the unlimited korean bbq ( dude, i'm still full! and the freakin' bbq smoke smell in my clothes!), for the happy hour at k-box ( parang senti hour =( yata), for the chika at starbucks. thank you for the post midnight emo chika. alam mo na! see you next thursday. i won't elaborate na!
arnie - ms. madonna! congrats on the wedding! super happy for you! thanks for my ice cream cake. thanks for being there. i know you worked 12 hours and yet you were there. i love yah. and oh, don't forget, when i'm admitted in your unit, make sure you give me multiple doses of morphine, okay? haha! movie when? call me.
ate tina, thanks for coming with hubby! my god what a small world! it was nice seeing you and always fun talking/chatting/texting! Ty for the starbucks card. sabihin mo sa hubby mo, "innocent" ako para payagan ka niyang lumabas tayo palagi! don't translate this in english mwahaha!!
janet - fanget! happy birthday to you, too! thanks for my vodka hahaha =) are you trying to tell me i'm an alcoholic? I"M NOT no! thanks for being my private nurse at cheese cake factory and shopping with me. pilay na nga, nagshoshopping pa! do bale, maganda naman. hahah LOL. i'll see you and elai later! wab ya girl!
ron fanget! - i love your version of "what a wonderful world!" it's a wonderful world because of your kalokang laughter. life might be a test right now, but i am confided you will make it through. kaya mo yan, pare!
elai -aw, my other fanget.... i miss you na new nanay! and papa abel and baby girl too. i heard you were working with my mommy. thank God you didn't burn me out! hahah yeah, that's the deal, when infront of me,tell her her daughter is "good and nice and maganda!" babayaran kita no? hahah love yah. see yah later (in about 7 hours exactly ).
maya/meyah, cesar and gabbi - thank you for coming. but more than that, thank you for proving me your loyalty. my "other " friends i don't even hear from them. thank you being there no matetr what. i miss working with you at medsurg. i'll miss you when i go back to work. it was nice seeing you at anna d's pad. tell your crazy hubby he's insane but we love him anyway. =) miss gabbi too =(
ben - you're the perfect example that exes' can be friends =) i love you as a MANONG =)
angelo - you're one crazy a-hole sometimes....but i appreciate your honesty.
WILSHIRE UNITED METHODIST CHURCH & YOUTH - your continued prayers for me gives me source of strength and inspiration to endure the tough times. though i am not there all the time, i am there in spirit and i am grateful for the love.
( manang olive - you're the best "manang" . thanks for the advices and tsismis. i miss being with the babies at the day care!
krysta - i'm just here if you need anything.
jet - nakakatawa kausap ading! jp - bon vayage and congrats sa wedding!
papa jay and cherry - thanks for the bday gift
ate aileen - Ty for the greeting
glenda - you're so funny girl! ligo ng ligo - alam mo na!?)
ate joyce - though my cousin and i lost touch, thank you for being my ate and friend. thank you for the bday greeting.
merryl - my berry berry, you film director you! i'm so proud of you! don't forget me on the red carpet okay? thank you for the birthday greeting! kiwi loves you always. how's ryan? tell him, i said hello.
manang lot and max - i miss you sister fanget, blondie, ms.praise the Lord - we all miss you. how are you and hubby. tY for the bday greeting.
eloi - my dear, thanks for the love and greeting! belated happy bday to you and manong eli! i miss you! how's pastor?
sis clarisse - bday was awesome! thank you for remembering! ingat sa lovelife okaY?
ate vanet from pinas - thank you for the text and for taking care of my siblings. we're thankful for you.
rosemary - thank you for the bday greeting
david, my "malau" - you remembered my birthday! thank you!
kuya arthur, if i'm "ms. fabulous," you're "mr. fabulous" kasi we're equal in that fabulosity factor. oh di ba ang taray ng lola mo! charing! thank you kuya for everything: for advicing me about boys, for making me laugh, for being my driver, for my kachika.
ate norlits and joy - always fun times when i am with you.
manong dan from canada - thanks for the bday greetings manong. hope to see you in canada one day.
ate judy - thanks for the greetings.
bigs ( charm's cousin ) ang ingay mo pag lasing, pare! but thank you for helping me out. =)
TO THE REST WHO GREETED in text, cell, email, chat, bulletin and if i failed to mention you, i hope you know i didn't mean to. i am grateful for the overwhelming love and care i got from all of you. life might be a chaotic crazy battle field. but it's a battle that's worth fighting for because i am blessed with wonderful people like you. THANK YOU SO MUCH for the brithday wishes!
ABOVE ALL, my Lord, thank you for giving me this gift of .;life. thank you for your love and guidance especially the past year. I am nothing without YOU. Make me an instrument of YOUR peace. Help me inspire others as you inspired me to be a better person and a better christian. Forgive me my shorcomings as i forgive those who sinned against me. Mold me to be who you want me to be. Use me to reach out to lost souls so then they can understand the power of your love and mercy. So when I return you my borrowed life, you can finally tell me, my Lord, " Well done, my God and faithful servant..." Bless my loved ones Lord. Guide them the same way you protect me everyday and forgive their mishaps, too. I asked you these in your most precious name. AMEN.
Labels: friendship, thank you
huwag ka ng iiyak....
Thursday, July 26, 2007
HUWAG KA NG IIYAKnag-usap kami ni sini nung isang gabi halos madaling araw na yata kami natapos. kalungkot niyang kausap. naawa ako dahil minsan, ako rin minsan ganon kalungkot dahil kakaisip sa mga walang kwentang lalaking pinaglaruan lang puso namin. hindi niya alam ito, pero habang umiiyak siya sa kabilang linya, nakiki-iyak din ako sa kanya. tahimik lang nga alng akong lumuluha. tapos wala rin akong luha. basta, nandon iyung pait. nung lunes naman, lasing na lasing pinsan ko pagkatapos namin magvideoke dito sa bahay, alas tres na ng madaling araw at hindi pa rin siya dalawin ng antok. hindi nga umiinom itong cousin kong ito eh. nagulat nga ako bakit siya naglalaklak sa alak. tapos, smirnoff pa na halos purokg alkohol. patulog na kami, kinikwentuhan pa niya ako. bakit daw isang amo lang nung lalaki sa kanya, sinusungaban niya? kahit na nung nakaraan eh nasaktan na siya nito? tahimik lang akong nakikinig. nung medyo tumahimik siya, sinasabihan ko na siya na huwag niyang pahirapan sarili niya. kung ayaw sa kanya, eh di ayaw. basta, mahalin niya ng sarili niya. ako rin nasosorpresa kung bakit ako ganito kamanhid. siguro, hindi naman ako manhid. sa tutoo lang, marami akong nararamdaman. pero pinili ko lang kung ano yung mga pakiramdam ko na papatulan ko. kung makakasakit lang sa akin, pinababayaan ko na lang. nung sinasabi ni sini na nasasaktan siya nung nakita niya yung litrato ng ex niya, na parang naaalala niya lahat, nasasaktan ang damdamin ko para sa kanya. pero naalala ko yung sinabi nung barkada kong lalaki nuong nag-iiyak ako noon dahil sa ginawa ng isang lalakign lubusan kong minahal.lasing na lasing ako noon. hindi ko nga maalala kung anu anong pinag-iinom ko. pero sabi ni rick sa akin non sa akin, "alam mo, iyak ka ng iyak diyan. pinupuno mo yang isip mo ng alak para bukas makalimutan mo siya. pero ang tutoo niyan eh, nasa isip mo pa rin siya. nagpapakaloka ka diyan pero ito ha, sasabihin ko sa iyo ng tutoo. wala na siyang pakialam sa iyo. nagpapalasing ka diyan pero ang tutoo niyan, wala siyang ka-amoramor sa iyo. hindi ka niya iniisip ung okay ka lang o ano. hindi ka dapat nagkakaganito. mahalin mo ang sarili mo. kapag buo ka na, marami ang magmamahal sa iyo."
sinabi ko rin yan kay sini. masakit marinig kaya lang iyong mga salitang binigkas na iyo sa akin nung gabing yun ang gumising sa akin. kaya siguro nagmamatigas ako. kaya siguro para akong manhid. walang nararamdaman. kaya sa haba ng panahon, patuloy ko pa rin hinahanap ang taong magpapatibok uli ng puso ko. at sana...sana lang, sa panahon na iyon ay, siya na ang tama para sa puso kong ito matagal ng naghihintay mahalin. Labels: family, friendship, tagalog
FREEWAYS
Thursday, July 12, 2007
FREEWAYSthe long stretch of freeways here in los angeles is like going through a corn maze not knowing where to go and where to exit. the shocking fast lanes, the millions of different cars, the undetailed numbers of opposing freeways, the confusing exits, and loud roudy insane LA drivers are scary if you are not from this crazy big city. most of the strangers i know often find themselves lost, going through the wrong exits and are clueless on how they could enter back in to the freeway.
my friend ("valerie madrigal" code name) had these heartwarming talk couple months ago. that sometimes, human journeys are like going through the freeway. in our cars called life, we put on our seat bealts, we just drive, get in and go to the fastest lane to get to where we want to go. not realizing once we were in, we don't know our destinations.
our all knowing attitude sometimes leads us to different exits. most of them, the wrong exits. and we falter, we go around the streets, we attempt to find our way back. we realize we're lost but we in denial that we need help. we just go about our selfish ways and not asked for help and end up being farther from the return route in the first place. even creating more lapse of damage than we ought to.
finally we catch ourselves and swallow our prides and asked for help to get back on route. only then do we find ourselves after being lost in a whirlwind of a city we never knew. i've had many encounters of being lost in my life. i've exited the wrong exits. i've hit and hurt people along the way because i was selfish, because i had too much pride.
but the lesson learned is that, there are ways back to the freeway. we might be lost along the way but as we mature and we learn the right detours to life, we find out there are always ways back to get back on track. but this time around, we are humbled by the experience. and this time around, in that freeway, we are sure of the destination.
Labels: friendship, l
