Isama mo ako / đưa tôi với bạn /Take me with you
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
Isama mo ako / đưa tôi với bạn /Take me with you
Sa puso't isipan,
Nadaramang ikaw ang tanging pangarap ko
Maging sa panaginip ay palaging naiisip
Kailan kaya damdamin ko'y mababatid
Trong trái tim và tâm trí,
Cảm giác bạn chỉ ước mơ
Ngay cả trong những giấc mơ luôn luôn nghĩ
Vì vậy, khi tôi cảm thấy nhận thức
In the hearts and minds,
I fee your inmy dreams
Even in dreams I think of you
I wonder when you'll discover my thoughts.
Ang nais ko'y liparin
Ang kalawakan na sadya't iyong pinagmulan
Baka sakali na mapansin mo saglit man lamang
At ng malaman mo itong pagmamahal
Tôi nhặt mong muốn
Các thiên hà sadya't nguồn của bạn
Có lẽ bạn nên thông báo ít nhất một thời gian ngắn
Và bạn biết điều đó tình yêu
I picked up the desire to fly
The galaxy you are from
Can you notice me at least briefly
And you know this love
Isama mo ako sa daigdig mo na kay ganda
Nang di lang sa panaginip ay kapiling ka
Kung makikita mo nilalaman ng puso ko
Isang pagmamahal sadyang para lang sa'yo
Bao gồm tôi trong thế giới đó là tốt đẹp
Khi tôi chỉ ước mơ, là với bạn
Nếu bạn có thể xem nội dung của trái tim tôi
Một tình yêu Cô ấy cố ý Cuốn
Include me in the world that's beautiful
Not just in my dreams that I'm with you
If you can see the content of my heart
A love intentionally just for you.
Ang nais ko'y liparin
Ang kalawakan na sadya't iyong pinagmula
Baka sakali na mapansin mo saglit man lamang
At ng malaman mo itong pagmamahaL
Tôi nhặt mong muốn
Các thiên hà sadya't nguồn của bạn
Có lẽ bạn nên thông báo ít nhất một thời gian ngắn
Và bạn biết điều đó tình yêu
I picked up the desire to fly
The galaxy you are from
Can you notice me at least briefly
And you know this love
Isama mo ako sa daigdig mo na kay ganda
Nang di lang sa panaginip ay kapiling ka
Kung makikita mo nilalaman ng puso ko
Isang pagmamahal sadyang para lang sa'yo
Bao gồm tôi trong thế giới đó là tốt đẹp
Khi tôi chỉ ước mơ, là với bạn
Nếu bạn có thể xem nội dung của trái tim tôi
Một tình yêu Cô ấy cố ý Cuốn
Include me in the world that's beautiful
Not just in my dreams that I'm with you
If you can see the content of my heart
A love intentionally just for you.
At kung kailangan mo ng isang tunay na kaibigan
Para sa'yo ang puso ko ay laging bubuksan
Pag-ibig na nadarama'y hanggang sa kailanman
Tanging sa'yo ito'y aking ilalaan
Và nếu bạn cần một người bạn thật sự
Tôi tìm thấy nó với trái tim luôn luôn mở
Tình yêu bao giờ nadarama'y lên
Chỉ có tôi yêu nó được phân bổ
And if you need a true friend
for you my heart is always open
The love I feel is goes forever
It is only for you.
Isama mo ako sa daigdig mo na kay ganda
Nang di lang sa panaginip ay kapiling ka
Kung makikita mo nilalaman ng puso ko
Isang pagmamahal sadyang para lang sa'yo
Bao gồm tôi trong thế giới đó là tốt đẹp
Khi tôi chỉ ước mơ, là với bạn
Nếu bạn có thể xem nội dung của trái tim tôi
Một tình yêu Cô ấy cố ý Cuốn
Include me in the world that's beautiful
Not just in my dreams that I'm with you
If you can see the content of my heart
A love intentionally just for you.
The Ending.
You were the only man I took to face God. On our first date, I took you to church and we bended our knee and said our prayers. You asked me what did I pray for then. I didn't answer you. I blurted a smile. But I said thank you to God for giving you to me. But the unsaid part was, I hope you are the man I will soon take to Him again to marry.
But life has taken everything away from me. Inluding you, God took the two most important man I love. I don't know the reason. I can not have explations. I wish I did. But I don't.
All are left are broken hearts. All that is left are tears to cry. I don't know what to do my heart. It will be numb again. It will be put back to the freezer and no one can ever melt this icy heart again.
I took the risk to love you and be with you four years ago because I was thinking you are 'the one.' Because I thought you are worthied. I didn't want to love again before. But you made me love you.
But now you have given up on love. You have given up on me. What's the use of me fighting for the love I feel for you when you have given up on me? While I will fight for what I feel for you until the last of my breath, you stopped holding my hand. You stopped the beating of my heart.
Where do I go from here? I don't know. I thought our story was to be continued. While I was hoping to wrtie more chapters, you already put our conclusions. I still don't understand. I will never understand.
But I will respect your decision. I will go away. I will leave. I will give you the ending you wanted. Not because I wanted to do it. But because this is what you wanted. I love you too much to hold you back from leaving me. This is love...letting you go because you wanted to.
This is the end, huh? This is our ending. And all I could say is I'm sorry. For the last time, I love you. Goodbye. I'll see you in my dreams
BOW THE KNEE
Sunday, July 24, 2011
The Wilshire United Methodist Church Filipino Ministry Chancel Choir sang this at church today. It was a conteplative and touching piece. I thought it would be inspiring to share it...here are the lyrics of you can see the youtube here.:
www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVEr4GNz70UBOW THE KNEE.
There are moments on our journey following the Lord
Where God illumines ev’ry step we take.
There are times when circumstances make perfect sense to us,
As we try to understand each move He makes.
When the path grows dim and our questions have no answers, turn to Him.
*Bow the knee;
Trust the heart of your Father when the answer goes beyond what you can see.
Bow the knee;
Lift your eyes toward heaven and believe the One who holds eternity.
And when you don’t understand the purpose of His plan,
In the presence of the King, bow the knee.
There are days when clouds surround us, and the rain begins to fall,
The cold and lonely winds won’t cease to blow.
And there seems to be no reason for the suffering we feel;
We are tempted to believe God does not know.
When the storms arise, don’t forget we live by faith and not by sight.
THEIR ANGEL
Thursday, July 07, 2011
his face was almond-shaped, almost oval.
his eyes were closed but chinky, chinesey and slanted.
he had no hair yet, but shaped like a conehead.
his nose are not as pointed but pugged and rounded on the sides.
his lips are luscious with small upper lip and bigger lower lips.
his color is a perfect mix of island tan and beige.
his tiny little fingers like him.
innocent...
as if asleep...
in his zen calm and peaceful haven.
he got almost everything from him.
he only acquired her rounded nose and her color.
other than that, he resembled him.
and him, he was the love of her life.
and every time, she looked at that man,
no doubt she sees him,
her little angel.
her little angel who joined God in heaven.
she gave him back to God.
she wanted and tell her little angel about God.
instead, God held him...
hopefully God will tell her angel about his mom and dad.
it's almost 40 days....
the most difficult, challenging, saddest 40 days...
since they last held him close to their arms...
since their last hug with him....
since they gazed at his angelic face,
since they are amazed by his short but sweet presence.
now, he is gone, back to the Father God who let them borrow him...
yet, there was no passing day that they have not thought of him.
his memories are always cherished.
he will always be loved.
he will will always be in their hearts.
their angel son.
Unsent: CHASING GAME
Wednesday, July 06, 2011
Dear Boy,
I don't know what it is. It can be me and my anger, really. I just don't like people walking away. All my life, I am chasing people who walked away.
My mom needed to work abroad to make a living for us. She didn't walk away but she had to be away.
My dad always on his business. He had to make ends meet along with my mom's efforts. He, too, did not have enough time to be with us.
My older sister, 8 years older than I am, went away for college. and I am left with no one but to be with my siblings.
Ex. #1: Moved to Chicago. We can not make things work out. I thought he played me like a fool he claims he didn't. He's in Seattle now.
Ex#2: Hawaii boy. Cheated on me and got a girl pregnant while he was on vacation in the Philippines. His firstborn is named Gi-en. Get it? It was the initials of our first names G - him and N- me. He married the girl with a first name that starts with a B.
Ex#3: Korean boy. His family didn't like me because I was NOT Korean. It sucks really. He didn't like me physically but he used me. All of me.
Ex#4: Bestfriend. I just thought he like me. Even just a tiny bit. Well, he liked me all right. But he liked me with three several girls. I chased. I never looked back.
Then you came. You came at the time I did not want to look anymore. At the time, I had enough. At the time, I thought I could not love anymore.
And now, we are going through the most difficult time of our life. I am fighting to stay with you. And when you tell me you have to go, you have to leave...even just to leave me for a second when I just told you this is the time I needed you the most. I chased you. I am so upset yet, i chased to be with you.
All my life, I chased people and most of them walked away. I never returned. Even if they begged me to stay, I left them because they were not worth my time. They played and broke my heart.
Now, I chase you. With all my bleeding heart, my broken soul, and my recovering physical body, I chase you. I don't want you to walk away. For once, I fought for what I feel. For once, I cried for someone who are worth every single drop of my tears.
Despite the times I thought you walked away, you did not. You walked away so i can composed myself. You walked away so I can calm myself down. You walked away so you can return to me and talk to me peacefully. You walked away only to come back because I do feel that you love me.
I chase you...because I care.
I chase you...because in my strange and weird ways, I do love you.
I chase you... because you are worth it.
Please come back home to my heart.
I miss you.
Love,
PRINCESS
STATUS
Status today: I'm trying to be more splendid and more extraordinary. I am using each enchanting second of this life to fill up myself up to the brim. Truth is, I have NOT change. I have just become MORE of myself. That is my lifetime goal: become more of myself to serve others.
Yesterday: I am not built to shrink down smaller into less. I am created to blossom into more. And I am going to let my light shine. Let it shine from WITHIN me first, so it can shine someone else's later. Life has taught me what we give comes back to us. In time, I know the blessings will bounce back its way to me. So help me, God.
The day before: I just realized whether it's my preference or not, LIFE has its own course of path. No matter how much I go against the norm, it will naturally travel its choice of route. Therefore, I don't need a GPS nor a map. I just gott'a roll with the punches, see and savor where the mysterious journey takes me.
July 2nd, 2011:Amidst life's gloomy days, I appreciate the brightness of sunny days. That children bible song I used to sing when I was a kid from Lamentations 3:22-23 comes to mind, "The steadfast LOVE of the LORD NEVER CEASES. His mercies NEVER come to an end. They are NEW every morning, NEW every morning.GREAT is Your faiithfulness."
If you can onl read between the lines. These are the stories of my life.
