Dear Boy,

I don't know what it is. It can be me and my anger, really. I just don't like people walking away. All my life, I am chasing people who walked away.

My mom needed to work abroad to make a living for us. She didn't walk away but she had to be away.

My dad always on his business. He had to make ends meet along with my mom's efforts. He, too, did not have enough time to be with us.

My older sister, 8 years older than I am, went away for college. and I am left with no one but to be with my siblings.

Ex. #1: Moved to Chicago. We can not make things work out. I thought he played me like a fool he claims he didn't. He's in Seattle now.

Ex#2: Hawaii boy. Cheated on me and got a girl pregnant while he was on vacation in the Philippines. His firstborn is named Gi-en. Get it? It was the initials of our first names G - him and N- me. He married the girl with a first name that starts with a B.

Ex#3: Korean boy. His family didn't like me because I was NOT Korean. It sucks really. He didn't like me physically but he used me. All of me.

Ex#4: Bestfriend. I just thought he like me. Even just a tiny bit. Well, he liked me all right. But he liked me with three several girls. I chased. I never looked back.

Then you came. You came at the time I did not want to look anymore. At the time, I had enough. At the time, I thought I could not love anymore.

And now, we are going through the most difficult time of our life. I am fighting to stay with you. And when you tell me you have to go, you have to leave...even just to leave me for a second when I just told you this is the time I needed you the most. I chased you. I am so upset yet, i chased to be with you.

All my life, I chased people and most of them walked away. I never returned. Even if they begged me to stay, I left them because they were not worth my time. They played and broke my heart.

Now, I chase you. With all my bleeding heart, my broken soul, and my recovering physical body, I chase you. I don't want you to walk away. For once, I fought for what I feel. For once, I cried for someone who are worth every single drop of my tears.

Despite the times I thought you walked away, you did not. You walked away so i can composed myself. You walked away so I can calm myself down. You walked away so you can return to me and talk to me peacefully. You walked away only to come back because I do feel that you love me.

I chase you...because I care.

I chase you...because in my strange and weird ways, I do love you.

I chase you... because you are worth it.

Please come back home to my heart.

I miss you.

Love,

PRINCESS