ROLLERCOASTER

i think the most you can hope for at the end of life

is that

your hair is messed up,

you're out of breath,

and you didn't throw up.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:58 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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갈마는 생활이 너의 이기적인 욕심 많은 당나귀 돌보아줄 수 있는 암컷 이다.

translation?

karma's a b*tch. life can take care of your greedy, selfish a**.

(i'm sorry. i'm just angry with a certain relative. never mind who.it just hurts because our veins of blood are the same but gosh, why do they have to be so heartlessly greedy? eh. and just want to vent.)

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:09 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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SPIRITUAL REVERIES: LOVE tech support

techsupport: yes ma'am, how can i help you?

customer: well, after much consideration, i've decided to install LOVE. can you guide me through the process?

techSupport: yes,i can help you. are you ready to proceed?

customer: well, I'm not very technical, but ithink i'm ready. what should i do first?

techSupport: the first step is to open your heart. have you located your heart ma'am?

customer: yes, but there are several other programs running now. is it okay to install LOVE while they are running?

techSupport: what programs are running ma'am?

customer: let's see: i have past-hurt, low self-esteem, grudge and resentment running right now.

techSupport: no problem, LOVE will gradually erase past-hurt from your current operating system. it may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. love will eventually override low self-esteem with a module of it's own called high self-esteem. however, you have to completely turn off grudge and resentment. those programs prevent love from being properly installed. can you turn those off ma'am?

customer: i don't know how to turn them off. can you tell me how? techSupport: with pleasure. go to your start menu and invoke forgiveness. do this as many times as necessary until grudge and forgiveness have completely erased. customer: okay done, LOVE has started installing itself. is that normal?

tech support: yes, but remember that you have only the base program. you need to begin connecting to other hearts in order to get the upgrades.

customer: oops! i have an error message already. it says, "error-program not run on external components." what should ido?

techsupport: don't worry ma'am, it just means the LOVE program is set-up to run on internal hearts but has not yet been run on your heart. In non-technical terms, it means you have to LOVEyourself before you can LOVE others.

customer: so what should I do?

techsupport: can you pull down self-acceptance, then click on the following files: forgive-self; realize your worth; acknowledge your limitations.

customer: ok, done.

techsupport: now copy them to the "my heart" directory. the system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching faulty programming. also, you need to delete verbose self-criticism from all directories and empty your recycle bin to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

customer: ok got it! my Heart is filling up with new files. smile is playing on my monitor and peace and contentment are copying themselves all over. is this normal?

techsupport: sometimes. for others, it takes a while, but eventually everything gets downloaded at the proper time. so LOVE is installed and running. one more thing before we hang-up. LOVE is freeware. be sure to give it and it's various modules to everyone you meet. they will in turn share it with others and return some cool modules back to you.

customer: i promise to do just that. by the way, what's your name? techsupport: just call me the" master healer," "master solver" or "Divine Cardiologist", also known as the "great physician," or just "I AM." Most people feel all they need is an annual checkup to stay heart-healthy; but the manufacturer (ME) suggests a daily maintenance schedule for maximum LOVE efficiency. so KEEP IN TOUCH as often as you can. i will be standing by for any of your needs.


-----JESUS

PRAYER:

Lord, help us remember that in order for us to erase the piled up files of heartaches, resentment and grunges, we must install the program called LOVE internally in "MY HEART" directory. let us not forget that this program LOVE is a freeware and that in order for it to work in internally, its files must be shared externally. but above, rekindle in our heart and remind us often that YOU ARE the master LOVE tech support that we can count on and always on call 24 hours of the day. we ask you these in you most precious name. AMEN.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 1:53 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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i browsed through the pages of my old philosophy textbook and notes. a handwritten of note fell from the leaflets of the texbooks and this note fell. at three in the morning, i am reading it again. it must have been something catchy for me to even save it there. let me share it with you.

Charles Schultz Philosophy

You don't actually have to take the quiz. Just read the email or mail straight through, and you'll get the point, an awesome one, that it is trying to make!

1. Name the five wealthiest people in the world.
2. Name the last five Heisman trophy winners.
3. Name the last five winners of the Miss America contest.
4. Name ten people who have won the Nobel or Pulitzer prize.
5. Name the last half dozen Academy Award winners for best actor/actress.
6. Name the last decade's worth of World Series winners.


How did you do? The point is, none of us remember the headliners of yesterday. These are no second-rate achievers. They are the best in their fields. But the applause dies. Awards tarnish. Achievements are forgotten. Accolades and certificates are buried with their owners.

Here's another quiz.

See how you do on this one:

1. List a few teachers who aided your journey through school.
2. Name three friends who have helped you through a difficult time.
3. Name five people who have taught you something worthwhile.
4. Think of a few people who have made you feel appreciated.
5. Think of five people you enjoy spending time with.
6. Name half a dozen heroes whose stories have inspired you.

Easier?

The lesson:

The people who make a difference in your life are not the ones with the most credentials, the most money, or the most awards. They are the ones that care.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 1:28 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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from my comment on friendster...

just reposting...

"LIFE is never a bore..... It's always a MARVEL.

"What the caterpillar thinks is the end of the world, the butterfly knows is only the beginning."

Count it all joy when you fall into various trials - JAMES 1:2

posted by pinay freestyle @ 8:11 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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PLUG IN: just added GOOD THINGS. you'll find out . so go there now!!!

and oh...there's YACKETY YACKS! also...if you want.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 3:33 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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rated H

it was hilarious and i couldn't help but giggled as i read it. it was from a magazine quote from D.H. Mondfluer and it stated,

then i thought to myself, maybe, happiness is just there to grab and not to look for. sometimes, i think we are so ungrateful for the things, events, and people that makes us happy. the feeling of joy- its warmth and glory - it is often unnoticed.sometimes, we humans spin faster and faster in the pursuit of merely personal happiness. we become exhausted in the futile effort of chasing our selves just to feel what it's like to feel that bliss.

i feel that happiness always looks small while we hold it in our hands. but let it go, and only then when we learn at once how big and precious it was. so i figured, it would not hurt to follow oprah's suggestions to rate your happiness: one star for not so good and four stars for the happiest.

as i went about with my daily activities today and recalled the past weeks, i started smiling. and whew, i was happy. for instance, i walked ariel today for one hour, thanks for the half a tablet of darvocet - i was pain free, with my ipod blasting with madonna's "borderline," and all i could feel are the light breeze touching my face - FOUR STARS! ariel pooping on our neighbor's grass and me picking up the nasty poop - eww- not so good but deserving: HALF a star. making grilled cheese sandwich in the heat od the kitchen for my niece ischa and my nephew ichad and my good old homemade chocolate shake with lots of powdered godiva chocolate and watching them gulped it down like hungry cows happily: definitely FOUR STARS!

and so i go on some more, last night's free movie in the company of diane and lorenz - wow! THREE stars! making a fool out myself, cracking out my collection of jokes in front of my friends and watching them fall off their chairs - FOUR STARS. hearing mamu's version"visaya man gyud accent slash vakleta and veauty" voice on my cell leaving messages: FOUR STARS! finishing the twenty two episodes of the korean telenovela princess hours - phew! super duper long but yet, iloved it - THREE and a half stars. eating addictive korean barbeque at hodori with maffi - FOUR STARS! but not so fond of smelling like kimchi - ONE STAR. walking on the sands of redondo beach and shivering from the chilly sea breze with cousin aileen and friend da and ischa - always a relaxing place for me- FOUR STARS.

the food tripping was even a blooming burst of bliss. pastrami sandwich & cheese rolls at portos bakery: FOUR STARS! pho 36's house special vietnamese summer rolls: THREE STARS! annoying waited who liked da: ONE STAR okay...make it TWO STARS because he was annoyingly funny and i enjoyed out moment there. just now, i just got back from chinatown and their hot steam buns "ta si bao" (in chinese) were to die for! FOUR STARS!yummy!

i guess what i am aiming for is: live every moment and make it a happy moment. we often forget that happiness often sneaks in through a door we didn't know we left open. i realized we are so fond of counting our troubles, but we seldom or even never does not count our joys. but if we counted them up as we ought to, as you can tell from my ratings above, we would see that every lot has enough happiness provided for it.

so let yourself...BE HAPPY and RATE it. nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy. and do not pretend either. for only if only we'd stop trying to be happy, we will realize we could have a pretty good time.so, try it and don't fake it -rated H as in H for H A P P I N E S S. let me know it it works out. =)

posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:05 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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BUS

throughout life we will meet one person who is unlike any other. this person is one we can forever talk to. they understand us in a way that no one else does or ever could. this person can be your soul mate, your best friend, your significant other.

sometimes, these set up works out. sometimes, best friends can be great lovers. but what if things went the opposite way? i believe it's harder to mold ex-lovers to be friends. how can you built a friendship that was destroyed because you decided to be more than friends? how can you create friendship when you betrayed even the last person who loved you the most?

i found myself asking, " why did my relationship failed in the past?" for a while, i blamed myself. i questioned my capabilities. i doubted myself. but as i grew wiser, i realized, it was NOT me all along. i should not blame me. and that there will be many opportunities in my lifetime where love will enter my heart again.


after all, it was said that love comes to those who still hope. they love despite being disappointed. they still believe although they've been betrayed. they still love although they've been hurt before.


it reminds me of that printed quote from that candy heart last valentines, it stated, "LOVE is like a bus, if you miss it, don't worry, you'll catch another one."

one day, that time will come. and so, i remain hopeful. i don't count on what is lost. i count on what is left.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 4:47 AM [[ 0 comments ]]

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When you're up against a trouble,
Meet it squarely, face to face;
Lift your chin and set your shoulders,
Plant your feet and take a brace.
When it's vain to try to dodge it,
Do the best that you can do;
You may fail, but you may conquer,
See it through!

Black may be the clouds about you,
And your future may seem grim,
But don't let your nerve desert you;
Keep yourself in fighting trim.
If the worst is bound to happen,
Spite of all that you can do,
Running from it will not save you,
See it through!

Even hope may seem but futile,
When with troubles you're beset,
But remember you are facing
Just what other men have met.
You may fail, but fall still fighting;
Don't give up, whate'er you do;
Eyes front, head high to the finish.
See it through!

posted by pinay freestyle @ 1:20 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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BURN
(click on title to hear and watch song)
by:Usher
Album: Confessions (2004)

[video and song copied from eloi's friendster]

i talked to BM at 1 am this morning. it's super final. we can't even be friends. we can't because WE JUST CAN'T. so for all that it is, this is the end of us...not even friends. today, we're complete strangers. and we're just going to pretend as if we never met. so final farewell, i guess. finall bid of goodbye.

[Intro:]I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you
I justI feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

[Verse 1:]
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby,
I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's overWe know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Verse 2:]
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return
(let it burn)

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
(let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

[Bridge:]
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

[Breakdown:]
Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooohOoh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh
So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

[Chorus:]
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:39 PM [[ 0 comments ]]

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