I was listening to this song while it was playing on the radio in the car and I started missing Dimsum. He hates it when I cry and tells me it irritates him. But it made me think about him because his "lectures" to me consisted of the lyrics. Thought I'd post the lyrics here.

WHEN SHE CRIES

(Restless heart)

The road I have travelled on

Is paved with good intentions

It's littered with broken dreams

That never quite came true

When all of my hopes were dying

Her love kept me trying

And she does her best to hide the pain

that she's been through

When she cries, at night

And she doesn't think that I can hear her

She tries, to hide all the fear she feels inside

So I pray, this time I can be the man that she deserves

'Cause I die a little each time

When she cries

She's always been there for me

Whenever I've fallen

When nobody else believed

She'd be there by my side

I don't know how she takes it

Just once I'd like to make it

Then there'll be tears of joy

That fill her loving eyes

When she cries, at night

And she doesn't think that I can hear her

She tries, to hide all the fear she feels inside

So I pray this time

I can be the man that she deserves

'Cause I die a little each time

When she cries

So I pray this time

I can be the man that she deserves'

Cause I die a little each time

When she cries

Today seemed nice as the sun shines so bright;

But without you,

I can't get a glimpse of the rays of light

Colorful flowers bloomed;

Green leaves sprouted on trees;

But without you,

it's black and white. there is no color.

Birds are chirping as they sing,

The air is breezy as the wind blows,

But without you,

it's quiet and soundless.

People are blissfully laughing.

Children in bliss playing.

But without you;

There's asence of happiness.

Time goes on, time is ticking...

Difficult days turns to sleepless nights..

Without you,

My life stands still. I am lost.

My heart aches.

I hold on to hope.

Without you.

I can't express. My feelings are empty and bare.

Adventures approaches.

Experience gained from our loss.

Without you...

But there is no meaning.

Chore lists are done.

Times are put in.

Without you,

there is no value.

Prayers are said.

God is begged.

I still wait.

I am still without you.

When all is said:

This life I dread;

Every day is difficult...

without you

My dearest dimsum,

i slept early last night thinking you would not even bother to call so i put my cell on vibrate.

it's another night i forced myself to sleep.

surprisingly, i saw a missed call from you on my cell this morning.

did you missed me after all?

did you want to hear my voice?

did you need to know if i was doing fine?

i want to know..because i missed you, too.

Love,

"princess"

yesterday, i went to church and lit up two candles.

one for the love of my life, dimsum.

one for the loves of our lives who is now an angel in heaven.

i prayed for happiness for dimsum.

i prayed for peace for my angel.

how i wish i can just keep you both in my loving arms?

but i surrendered you both to God.

i know my Father God, Lord and Saviour will keep you safe and sound.

i lit two candles for the loves of my life.

i prayed for God to take my strife.

dear dimsum,

i have spent the last couple of days focusing on other things besides thinking of you. most of the time, i am successful at finishing the household chores and other tasks i have to attend to, or appointments to go to. but there are times when even i could not help it but keep you in my thoughts.

i find it so difficult to write this letter. we have agreed couple days ago that we'll have a little time off away from each other . this way, we can breathe. we can heal our pains. i am giving you that space so you can vent. but each day had passed, i missed you more.

i asked myself why does it have to be this way? i need you and yet, i can not have you there beside me right now. i want to be just there next you, caring for you and making sure you are fine, but we can not do that right now because we are dealing with mending ourselves and finding ourselves amidst the most difficult trial of our life.

truth is, i have not had a decent sleep since i last saw you. i still think about the last hug you gave me: short and sweet. i still think about the last time i gazed into your eyes and it is full of ache. i still think of looking back towards your direction as i walked away that early morning.

but i didn't. it was way too painful to look back and see the sadness in your eyes. besides, i did not want you to see the tears slowly falling from my eyes as i walked away from your car. you've seen me shed enough tears for the past few weeks.

i wanted to run back and hug you the second time. i wanted you to come after me and hold me once again and tell me it is going to be fine. i wanted you to hold my hand and not let me go. i wanted to but you did not. i did not want you to see me crying. nor to tell you that i was hurting. but i knew, you knew.

and so i walked away...even if it was the hardest thing for me to do. i walked away even if all i wanted to do was sit next to you. i walked away even if my heart stated stay. i waled away because that is what you wanted. and loving you is giving you what you wanted.

it has been days. and i've been nothing but miserable. my nights have grown colder. my phone is in silent. i've been forcing myself to sleep early to not accomodate any thoughts of you entering to my head. i wished i can drive to you and just see you but that would be breaking our deal.

so i sleep early. i force every chance to just close my eyes. because when i do, at least, i get to hold you there once again. i get to be in the warmth of your loving arms.

despite the space between us, i want you to know that i still wait patiently for the day when you can hold me again up close and personal.

i still love you. i always did. i still do.

please come back soon.

love always,
your princess

Being with Dimsum,

I realized that LOVE

does NOT consist in

gazing at each other's eyes

all the time.

He taught me that LOVE

is looking outward

TOGETHER

in the same direction.

For all that you have been...

For all that you are...

And for all you are yet to be....

I've fallen in love many times...

Always with you...

Chúc mừng sinh nhật! (HAPPY BIRTHDAY!),

my nhieu yeu (sweetheart).

Em yêu ahn nhieu lam (I love you very much).

TRUE ROMANCE
on Thursday, February 24, 2011 at 2:09pm
(song has been rewinding inmy head...thought i'd post it here. )

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TRUE ROMANCE
sang by: Regine Velasquez
composed by: Janno Gibbs

Just one glance and I never had a chance
There and then I knew I'd fall in love with you
You should know you had me at hello.
I was Juliet and You're my Romeo

You're my super hero, save me from this sorrow
Sweep me off my feet and fly me away.
You are my McDreamy, You're my own McSteamy
Brad Pitt and George Clooney don't stand a chance.
You're my one and only true romance.

Just one kiss you swept me off my feet
And my heart was beating faster than it should.
Just one smile (just one smile) and it's like a carpet ride.
I can hear the song 'A whole new world' in you. (A whole new world)

You're my Beiber fever,
You're my Ashton Kutcher,
I'm going Lady Gaga (Papap parazzi) for you.

Oh....You are my McDreamy, You're my own McSteamy
Brad Pitt and George Clooney don't stand a chance.
You're my one and only true romance.

I'll be yours forever and a day.
I am here to stay.
You are my one true romance.

Loving you is easy.
Though it might sound cheesy.
I'm a girl just standing infront of a boy
Asking him to love her.
(When you say nothing at all)

You're my super hero, save me from this sorrow.
Sweep me off my feet and fly me away (fly me away)
You're my one and only true romance.

What does NOT destroy me;

Only makes me STRONG-er.

I'm hanging by the moment.

I'm hanging by a thread.

But I'm existing.

It might be half-assed.

It might be half-baked.

It might seem merely.

It might seem empty.

It might be strange.

It might be complicated.

But I'm existing.

I might be quiet.

I might seem nostalgic.

Maybe a bit mysterious.

Mostly puzzled.

Semi-conscious.

Yet barely breathing.

But I'm existing.

I might be occupied.

More like excessively tired.

The barrel of tears I've cried.

Yet, I struggled and tried.

I am still living.

I'm existing.

I'm hanging by the moment.

I'm hanging by a thread.

I'm taking the hand of the man I love.

I'm holding on to my faith to God Above,

I am still living.

I 'm still existing.

This insanity is turning into a rage.

God...Just let me turn to the next page.

I need to forward each moment.

I can't bear with the torment.

I don't long to just exist.

I want to live.

I want to savor my existence.

God...Just help me carry this load.

Give me strength as I get to the next episode