THE BIKE
Tuesday, June 23, 2009



sweaty, exasperated and panting tired, he ran along beside me as i stepped on the pedal circling the big oval on my BMX bike. he hung on and manuevered the bicycle's wheel making sure i'm doing it right.

after circling three rounds with him, i earned my guts. i finally told him, "i can do it alone. you can let me go now."

reluctantly afraid, he slowly let go of his hands on the bike's seat. it was an unwilling gesture but he did it anyway.

his eyes were keenly glued to me. he watched me vigilantly as i coasted the bike in advance. i was self determined to go on my own.

i saw his delight when he smiled ecstaticly from ear to ear to see me handling the bike unaided.
boastfully showing off, i mobilized that bicycle hard and fast uncontrolledly.

despite his cautious warnings, i accelerated the speed even more. i was trying to brag and exhibit to him, i can burn rubber and go even faster.

"slow down...don't go too fast yet. do it carefully," he instructed me with care and concern and with that apprehensive glare in his eyes.

but my stubborn, stick necked, harddeaded self insisted i pedalled even more with great power. i was persistent that i can speed dash these new wheels.

i was egotistic. in fact, with my chin up high, i steered that bike arrogantly like a quick, racing, rapid supersonic speed ball.

the wind breeze blew on my face. so with all my might, i drove that bike double pronto like winged jetplane in the sky.

as i approach the ending turn, i was in bliss to almost reach the starting line on my first cirle on that oval riding my bike for the first time.

but i underestimated the curve on that turn. i miscalculated the elliptical concave arch on the oval.

unable to hit the brakes on time,i fell sidewise on my bike. but even worse, i fell straight on my face towards the rocky ground.

crying from the seeing the blood on my skinned knees and bruised face, i hollered for help with my screaming voice.

from a far and in panicked, i saw the sight of him hurriedly rushing to my rescue.

panting again, almost burned out, he ran as fast as he could.

"are you okay? where does it hurt?" he asked. he seemed rattled and anxious.

"eddie, get something to wipe the blood," he instructed our house boy hurriedly.

"are you okay? tell me where it hurts.it will be okay. i am here." he uttered. this time, he said it calmingly.

he rubbed my bruised spot. and i, i just stared at his distressed face.

"i'm sorry, i did not listen. i was too excited to ride my bike, that's why." i responded.

from there, he scooped me with his strong arms and took me to the bleachers. he wiped the red spots my bleeding knee and cleaned the dirt on my face with his handkerchief.

"i'm okay now. it is okay now," i assured him.

"are you sure?" he asked.

"very sure." i replied.

"now, do you want to ride the bike again?" he asked me.

i smiled in glee.

then i asked him, "can you walk next to me again while i am on the bike?"

willingly, he said, "sure. but this time, be careful. okay?"

and so even with my skinned knees, i rode that bike again...even until now.

that was 24 years ago.

i rode my bike on my own at the clisoc field by the oval in my hometown, bayombong, nueva vizcaya, philippines.

that wonderful man was my dad - PAPA BERT.

he taught me many things after that...

he taught me how to cook, clean the house, wash the clothes & dishes, take care of my siblings, budget the grocery because he claimed i will not have maids forever.

he taught to be kind to the poor, to be generous and share my blessings, to serve others and not asked anything in return. he claimed i can not bring all wealth to heaven, only my friends.

he taught me many more...

there were many more lessons after.

up to this day, i still learn everyday.

but the greatest compliment i have ever received is that i am like MY DAD.

why? because i have the greatest dad.

HAPPY 60TH BIRTHDAY PAPA BERT!
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY not just today but everyday!
we love you.
<3, len

COUNT
Friday, June 05, 2009
Count your blessings instead of your crosses;

Count your gains instead of your losses;
Count your joys instead of your woes;


Count your friends instead of your foes;



Count your smiles instead of your tears;




Count your courage instead of your fears;

Count your kind deeds instead of your mean;

Count your full years instead of your lean;

Count your health instead of your wealth;

Count on GOD instead of your self.



RICH or POOR

One day, a father and his rich family took his son to a trip to the country with the firm purpose to show him how poor people can be. They spent a day and a night in the farm of a very poor family.

When they got back from their trip the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"

"Very good Dad!," The son replied.

"Did you see how poor people can be?," the father asked.

"Yeah!" his son said.

"And what did you learn?," the father asked again.

The son answered, " Well, I learned that....


I saw that we have a dog at home,


and they have four.

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We have a pool that reaches

to the middle of the garden,


they have a creek that has no end.


We have imported lamps in the garden,


they have the stars.


Our patio reaches to the front yard,


they have a whole horizon."



When the little boy was finishing, his father was speechless.

His son added,

"Thanks Dad for showing me how poor we are!"

If you have love, friends, family, health, good humor and a positive attitude towards life you've got everything! You can't buy any of these things, but still, you can have all the material possessions you can imagine, provisions for the future, etc., but if you are poor of spirit, you have nothing!

Isn't it true that ...

it all depends on the way you look at things?






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the fence

Once, there was a little boy with a bad temper. So as a punishment, his father gave him a bag of nails and instructed him that every time he lost his temper, the little boy will need to hammer a nail in the back fence.

The first day, the easily angered boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. But after couple of days, it had gradually dwindled down. He finally discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails into the fence.

Finally, the day came when the boy did not lose his temper at all. He told his father about it. But in surprised and confused, the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper.

The days passed and the young boy was glad because finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone. Then the father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence.

He said, "You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. Have you noticed all the damage tarnished by the nails you hammered on the fence?The fence will never be the same. It is the same when you're angry. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one."

You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It does not matter how many times you say "I'm sorry, " the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad and damaging as a physical one.

Let us think before we say something mean towards someone else. If we have nothing nice to say, let us refrain from saying anything. By doing so, not only did we save a hurting heart, but also we did not leave permanent scars. =)




MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


DISCOVER ME: who is the lady behind the blogs?



"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"

my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

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PAMPER ME in this stressful world, i need relaxation. places i hibernate to and hide away from the world. here are some of my favorite spots.




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:: raya spa::
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FREQUENTS embracing life in los angeles: a day in a life in my shoes



::monte carlo cafe::
::THE GROVE::
::coffee bean::
::barnes and noble::
::starbucks::

GOBBLE GOBBLE [L.A.STYLE] food over matter los angeles style =)




::todai::
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::hodori::
::alcove::
::portos::
::mayflower::
::tommy's::
::roscoe's::
::philippes::
::thai bbq::
::the pantry::
::pinks::
::koji's::
::kabuki::

QUERRIES i don't know everything. so these are the sites i go to answer my inquisitive inquiries, obtain html coldes, and upload my pictures.




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