I vowed to NEVER write here again.
Because I felt it's NOT a place where I can be honest with the world.
People who had access here judged me for what I have written here.
But whatever is written here, It's the TRUTH. It is me from deep within.
I said goodbye months ago.
I didn't even thought of writing anymore.
But I have to make an exception.
For you, MY SON, I'll do this one last time.
MAY 30, 2013
My everdearest ANgel son Simon Hung in heaven,
It's been two years.
Since you came into my life, my son.
But God took you back in heaven.
Mama Len misses you.
But I know you are always with me.
I know you know how much I love you.
I know you know how I would give my life for you.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, my angel son in heaven.
I know you are partying up there with your Auntie Vicky and with Tobi and Ariel.
Have a blast there, Okay?
Mama Len misses you dearly.
I LOVE YOU.
Thank you for giving meaning to my life.
You are God's greatest gift to me.
Because I became a mom because of you.
I will NEVER forget you.
You will always hold a BIG space in my heart.
Happy second birthday, my son Simon Hung.
I know God is throwing you the biggest party.
I know you would not want Mama Len to cry.
Until we hold each other again, my son.
Until Mama gets to be on your side.
Mama Len will see you in my dreams.
Where Mama can hold you tight.
Where Mama can be a mom to you.
Let's party there.
I'll light a candle for you in a bit.
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH.
You are my life.
You are the only reason why I am living.
You are the reason of my life's purpose.
Take lots of care, my angel son.
Always hold me.
Always be there for me.
Always guide Mama to the right path.
I'll wipe the tears now.
I know you don't want to see me cry.
And I'll do that for you, my son.
HAPPY 2nd birthday my angel son.
Momma loves you soooo much.
Momma misses you very much.
Blow your birthday candles now there in heaven.
Let's celebrate your life.
I love you,
Your MAMA Len
Although it hurts not to physically have you here,
I also know you NEVER left my side.
I'll be sleeping with your picture and your ashes again.
Please hold me tight.
Everything will be alright.
I will be alright.
TWO: Birthday letter to my baby SON in HEAVEN
Thursday, May 30, 2013