Monday, April 28, 2003
i remember my mom telling a story back in kindergarten about how mommy birds feeds their newborns. the mommy bird protects her birds until it hatches. then when they were born, she looks for food for her little birdies and feeds these worms in their mouth until they are full. but when when she is teaching them how to fly, she sends them in the air individually without her help. this way, they can develop independence. so they can fly away and survive.

my parents have been wonderful. while my mother was the strictly religious and concservative disciplinarian, my father was the lenient, cool papa. it was a such a weird contrast. but i am what i am now because of their odd combination. from mama, i learned focus and strength and the need to have a spirituality. from papa, i got sense of humor and generosity and love for others. these have became my roots. my parents planted the seed of sharing blessings to the less fortunate, the spiritual belonging, the importance of laughter, the will to rise above difficult situations and be even stronger during these moments and the self determiniation to succeed.

my father gave me independence long time ago. when i was kid, i would always explain my dilemma to my dad and he would always make me answer my own questions with " what do you think you should do?" he always encouraged me to "follow my heart." at nine, i had my won bank account and i manage all the expenses at the household. even now that i am an adult, my dad just stood one step behind me and supported my dreams.

mom, howvever, is having a difficult time giving me wings. my older sis got married early and mom feels i am follwing her path so she is very very strict. i understood that. she is very scared. and i would be , too if i was on her position. most of the time, she still interferes with my decisions. she treats me like a 10 year old who cannot decide for myself. i have to remind her sometimes that i am grown now.

for a quick moment, i contemplated about my life. i am an adult now. the roots that my parents planted in me when i was young has now bossomed and spread her branches. the new born birdie is learnign how to fly. papa gave me half of my wings. mom is still assisting me on the other one. but someday, i will fly away on my own. someday, my parents will be that momma bird who let her baby bird fly by themselves. almost but not now.

i heard this qoute whiel watching a television special yesterday."the 2 most important things you can give your children are roots and wings," i am just thankful my parents gave me both. thank you mom and pop.

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

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