serenity

once in a while, i yearn for a quiet, placid moment. my hectic and routined schedule lately kept me away from experiencing any sort of tranquility. i craved for those instances when the only noises i hear when the wind is blowing on my face or when the raindrops are falling on our roof. i wished for those flashes of minutes when i watch the sun set or sun rise on the coast's horizon. these are the pith moments when i reanalyze my day, refresh my thoughts, reminisce my past, rethink my future.

i miss all these: the magnitude of just stopping and smelling the coffee , or inhailing the breezy fresh air, or watching the children play innocently at the park, or the jiffy shakes of the clock when i write heartfelt letter or poetry, or the driving time in between destinations when i drive to go to work, or school or go home when i can just meditate.

eversince i returned from up north, i usually go to st. basil cathedral here in los angeles whenever i get the chance. but i go there on the quiet hours. i want my time there to be a time when i can breath. this is where i can unload my heavy burdened heart and soul. this is the cracks of the day where and when i can have one-on-one conversations with the Lord, where everything is peacefully solemn. this is the place where my scattered and confused thoughts converts to undisturbed and colected contemplations and my agitated and stormy emotions switched to smooth and unruffled feelings.

at present, it's 1:31 am.

and i am once again invaded with perturbed lingerings and turbulent pasts. i want to close my eyes now and get rid of the uneasiness. instead, i yearn to free my soul from any type of distress. i want things to flow smoothly and phlegmatic just like the times when i meditate and pray, when i watch the sunset, when i listen to the raindrops, when i feel even tempred and laidback. RRRR. i want these fidgety musings to go away . they are trying to decomposed me from my previously possessed tranquility.

just...

....just take me away from this tensed feeling and agitation.

instead, bring my back to the still of the night, to the reposed view as the sun sets, to the halycyon as i pray in that cathedral....

just....

bring me back to my hushed sleep...

...smooth, calm, tranquil and serene.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 1:41 AM

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