Friday, March 22, 2002
process: mending a broken heart

people asked, " how does pinayfreestyle or len or ME mends a broken heart and heal a wounded soul?

i answer, " well, she overloads herself with enemous amounts of things to do such as working two jobs ( one from 3 pm-11 pm, one from 7 am-7pm, works full time err actually, more than full time...usually 16 hours or more, nothing less) , she goes to regisered nursing school full time (oh by the way, she wakes up at 4 am), she runs errands for siblings (dive them here, pick them up there, eh.. you get the routine), she does househodl chores at home (cleans the house, gas the cars, cook food for starving siblings and her tired momma from work and for her sick dada), and when time allows, she goes partying with her friends and most of the time, with total strangers. ( luckily for the past three weekends, she has been in 7 different parties and clubs scenes).

wow.

yeah i know. i just did all that just now. yep. i am a walking zombie.

i did all that just to...get over him. just so i can focus on the positive vibe, and not waste my time trying to weep on someone who does not want me in their life. although, okay, i wept.

another question: so what do len do to on her spare time?

she has no spare time! but if there's one thing she loves doing, she indulge herself with a grade caramel frapuccino from starbucks.

oh. before i go, i wanted to tell you this. at work today, patients were fine and there were no admissions. and so what did i do? well ( we, my cowroker and i...), i got me corn rows! i got my hair braided j-lo style. hehehe. i like it. my brother said i look ghetto. i like it. i don't care what anybody thinks.

adios.




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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"

my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

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