silence

little words creates great impacts.

for the first time in my life, i let someone take a peek of my hidden emotions towards them. in my post before this, i mentioned i gave AB access to tearyeyes. well, erase that. last night, when i was with him, he noticed my awkward silence and asked me what was in my thoughts . according to him, i was "awfully quiet" and that he managed to annoy the hell out of me to tell him what was wrong with me.

irked by his annoyance, i made a condition with him that once i did tell him what was bothering me, he'd top asking me questions and levae that topic alone and we'll pretend that what i was about to tell him was never said. and he agreed. okay, that was cleared and out of the way.

with that said, i uttered, " i think i'm beginning to like you more than i should."

and then....

silence.

and then he asked questions. and i chose not to answer. i answered it with silence. i told him what i needed to say. and it was affecting our rapport in some strange ways. there was awkwardness and uncomfort between us that the best response i can give was silence.

and then he shut me down in one bullet. just one pull of the trigger...

" i am not over HER. i feel like my heart still belongs to her."

ouch. that hurts.

he asked, " are you okay? i don;t want to hurt you. i'm sorry..."

my response?

silence.

silence can do a lot. it creates a lot of things. just like little words or phrases affects numerous things. silence speaks so much. just like my silence meant i was terribly hurt, the i-wanted-to-tear-weep-and-cry hurt.

i should have just shut up. it could have save me a heartache.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 11:19 PM

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