with the strenous demands of term paper, projects and the approaching mid term exams after my spring break, the energy wasting hours of 3 - 11 and 7am- 7 pm work schedules in a hospital setting, and the arrival of my overworked big sis yearning for a time off to rest, my four year old niece who runs & climbs here and there, and my six years old nephew who stayed in the bedroom & played video games all morning and all night long, all three from the philippines, and to add to that is the enermous amounts of household chores and other job interview i must i attend to in the upcoming week, i am practically dead.
my work is not much of a job. it's more of staying up. and i am guilty of not doing a good job at staying up because as soon as the clock striked 8 pm (on my 3- 11 shift), boom, i slept because i had nothign else to do.
when i am home, i am bombarded with errands. or i'm with the two little and adorable kids who couldn't get enough of me and wanted to play 24 hours a day.
homeworks, assignments, projects are piled up and yet, i procrastinate. i do not have the time to do it. well, if i did, most of my tiem were spent with my sis and my kins.
social life has been up for the past two months or so. i had been to the hottest parties and the steamiest clubs one can ever think of if they were in los angeles. in fact, all my weekends are booked except for this coming one because i had to work. we'll see how the rest will be.
with three hours of sleep and an overworked body and drained mind and emotionally tired heart, i am surprised...i'm still breathing.
i just realized glenn is getting married in two weeks, i have not talked to AB in roughly two weeks, i have not explored the "dating scene" in months, i do not think i am over ron ( part of me wants him still). eh. i told you, i am emotionally drained.
truth is, this new set up is a better way of disregarding what i feel. for the past week, i have been ignoring my twinge and i guess that is good because i have forgotten how to cry...to feel the pain. i am learning and teachign myself to feel numb and to redirect and refocus on things that are important and on people who loves me dearly.
i have yet to meet my someone special.
but for the moment, let me breathe...hmm. i'm still squinting my eyes....yearning for some sleep. so i guess, i shoudl go back to bed and catch me some.
ciao.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 10:51 AM
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