clear thoughts

yesterday, my best friend maffi and frank talked on the phone regarding an issue that concerns maff. gosh, listening to frank explain to maffi men's point of view regarding "issues," made me rethink why i said "yes" to frank couple days ago. yeah, there's a lot of people around me who are wonderful and frank is definitely one of them. but there's more to him than that. he's so honest about his feelings for me, about the mistakes he made in the past, and more. he's also caring and loving...and VERY understanding, witty, and knowledgeable. yes, he has his own flaws that i saw already but his charms are overpowering the negativities i see in him. i wanted to give him a hug because he showed how concerned he was to my bestfriend.

in addition to that, i opened up my thoughts regardign the previous entry. things like i am so scared. but he assured me he felt the same way. and that we were in the same level. he said he cares for me so much that he would want this bond to work. who wouldn't? there's nothing i wanted so much but to be loved by someone i will loved back. and i see this potential with frank but i am so scared. but he assured me he will take care of me....no matter what decision i make regarding him...and us.

in fairness to frank, i did tell him about ron ( the other "wonderful" guy...heheh). but i secured him with the surity that i am NOT with anyone. and that if there's one man in this world i am giving my full attention to, it was him. it was an amazing conversation. one of the best conversations with frank. i am just glad he took this load off my chest. it looks like i am right after my decision after all. but there's more to come and this circumstances will judge if this bond will blossom into love.

thanks sweetie, for being understanding. miss you. and pormise, i will take care of you.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 5:53 PM

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