something bugged me regardign my conversationw ith "sweetie" ( okay, his name is frank) last night.i told him how i am always uncomfortable looking to a man's eyes. i mean, i can look at it but i can't stare at it. or is it teh way it stares at me? oh well, i don't really know. it's just i feel as if i was being stripped down naked when people especially men, stares at me. feasibly, i feel conscious about myself.
anywayz, i mentioned this whole issue with frank last night. and then he blurted that he loves lookign through the "girl he loves' " eyes
( was he referring to me? ) i asked what is it about the eyes that he has to stare at. and yes, as wonderful as he is, he said, there is so many things you can tell through a lady's eyes. it can be "gosh, I want you, i love you, you're everything to me" or " gosh, i am not feeling anything...there's nothing there."
as he was telling me this, i wondered what he feels looking at or through my eyes. can he peek through the voices in my heart by looking through my eyes? will he feel the same emotions i feel just by staring at it? will he see my fear? can he sense i am afraid? does he feel "gosh. i want her" or "gosh, there's nothing there?"
like everything in life, i do not know the answer. perhaps, i will be able to claim the answer to these questions when the proper time comes along and if frank and i will end up to be with each other. i just don't want to jinx any romantic possibilities. it's more like..."let it be." right now, i like him so much. and i miss him more than i should. and for now, i am contented with that. so i am leaving it to fate...if there's such thing...i'll simply "let it be."
posted by pinay freestyle @ 7:18 PM
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