i have not talk to frank. i am feeling skeptical about the decision i made regarding him. am i ready? part of me is still in doubt. but perhaps, because of the fear. but ahh, i do not know. i have met someone about a month who is as wonderful as frank.these past few days, i realized...i think he is even MORE wonderful than frank. he's not of the same race as i am but he's still asian. and in many ways, we relate...our pasts, the people we grew yp with and dated....many things. but frank, i do not knwo what we are. all the guys i liked anyway were wonderful. but i am just too picky with guys. and right now, my being fidgety about guys are kickign in with frank causing me to doubt my decision. i hate feeling this way. i feel as if i have no guarantee. i mean i care for him deeply and i know he cares for me but i want him to care for me even greater because that's what i need right now. i need that security that he is here to stay. i need the comfort that he will not leave. am i paranoid? i don't know. anywayz, have to jam now because i have to wake up tomorrow for school tomorrow. on the good note, i do miss him though.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 10:24 PM

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