Wednesday, April 18, 2001
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKEY!
Two more years!!! and you can go clubbing legally!

CHEER UP AND SMILE, MAFF
I got an email from Maff today and it's so full of drama. I don't want you crying, Maff. Often times, I know you feel like a failure because you got married young. I am aware of the wroNG decisions you made when you were young but these shouldn't be downfalls to dreams you want to aCHieve. All these struggles and odds you faced should be stepping stones to where you want to be. Things you have done in the past will be just that, your past and it will not be irreversible. But the future lies ahead of you and opportunities are there waiting for you to grab them. All you have to is grasp anfd reach for them, Maff. We have no time to regret put misdecisions, we can not go back in time to reverse them. But we can make life better for us, Maff. The future is waiting for us to conquer our goals. Yes, being with Melvin was not the greatest achievement and you feel miserable. But as I said before, wherever you are happy, count on me and I will be there. And AJ is there....if he makes you happy, go for it. Remember when you told me, I got you back? Well, you got my back, too. We are only humans and we are not perfect. We all make mistakes. But these mistakes should not be reason for us to look back to where our life has been and be in despair. These mistakes should be the foundations of our strength and determination that we learned from it and we can make an effort to be somebody. I don't want you tho think of yourself as a failure. You are not a failure. In fact, I think, you should know that you are greatly admired. I never knew anyone in my whole life who is as brave as you. You went through hell and back and yet, you survve it each time. What makes you think you're weak now? Maff, you will never be weak. And Please promise me you'll never give up hope. And if it seemed that your world is crumbling down and you feel unloved and alone, please know that I will be angel and I will give you my wings just so you can fly again, the same way you always assure me you are there for me. If you feel that everythign is just too much to bare and the burdens are gettign heavier to carry, don't ever forget that you have a friend in me who is always willing to share that load of burden with you and who will walk with you until you finish the race. I am proud of you, Maff and you should be proud of yourself. After all, I wouldn't be as strogn as I am now if you weren't there for me. Next to the Lord, my parents, and my siblings, you are my also my source of strength. And if you think, you didn't make a difference in anyone's life, you're wrong. You touched my life in ways that no one will ever understand and top. What I am saying is, you're just darn special to me and I will take a bullet for you because you have been such a wonderful friend to me. We have no time for regrets, Maff. Our future lies ahead of us just centimeters with our reach...we must grab it now and make somethign out of it. Who knows where we will be in five years time? Perhaps, you will Attorney Elusorio and I will be Doctor Dela Cruz? I dont' know what the future holds but I know for sure that you will still be a part of me when that comes.Even if we are old and gray, have kids and grandkids, I will never trade our friendship fro anything else. You've proven me from year after year what a good friend you really are. Like Mickey, our friendship became rare and "hard to find" ( like an endangered species...) . I am clueless to what our future has instored for us, but I am sure, you will be my one and only BEST FRIEND. Abd I love you to death....remember that.

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"

my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

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