My religion is such a huge part of me. People may think I am the most unlikely person who is actually attached to my spiritual sense of being. But I am. I believe I should be a roel model for other youths. And at the same time, I try very hard to be there for them so they can follow the right path.
I went to church today like I always do. And the pastor gave us this sermon about being disappointed. He talked about how Jesus had so many disappointments and yet, he moved on. Like Jennifer, ( our social service worker at church~~ she's a very good friend of mine), planned and prepared for this carnival yesterday for months and months. She invited bands, dancers, performers, petting zoo, and advertisements but yesterday, when the carnival day came for the church, it rained and nobody showed up. It was quite a disappoinment for Jenifer. The pastor went on, " There will be many more disappointments in our lives. But there was probably a reason for that disappointment and tomorrow is another day."
Ahh, I have a lot of disappointments. Not choosing the right friends, loving wrong men, not being the role model I should be for my siblings, saying things that hurt my parents, and many more. But pastor was right, there are more of the good days compared to the few disappointments I had. Ia m truly blessed, I guess. And I thank the Lord for everything.
Last week, I got into a huge argument with my mom and today, we talked about our lives. She asked me when I was leaving for Vegas with Maff. It's strange how we fight and make up. We don't even have to say sorry. In fact, we went out yesterday to Catch 21 and today, we all ate at Bahay Kubo.
Glenn and I haven't been talking. I called him today. He said he was cleanign up his fish tank and I know how it took hours. So I said, I'll call him back in two hours. After this, I'll call him. I asked him why he can;t call me and he said i'ts for financial reasons---menaing he's just flatbroke right now and his pay check isn't coming until next week. What does this mean? I don't know. Where is it heading between me and Glenn? I am not too sure either. I am just glad to hear his voice and to know he is okay.
My Lord works in miracles I don't understand and yet, I am pleased. He gives me disappointments and I endured great disappointments but He knows His plans for me. He plans to give me something better. Despite the countable disappointments I had, I had more great smiles and laughters and joys.
PRAYER: Lord, so many times I have been ungrateful for all that you give me especially when I am loved, secured and in comfort. I only rememebr you when I am hurt, in pain, unloved, or disappointed. Lord, take this chance to always remind me that even everybody turned their back on me, you will always be there as long as I call on your name. And though, sometimes, I encounter few disappointments, help me remember that it is bnecause you have great plans for me. Sorry for my shortcomings, oh Lord...and the peopel around me. But bless me and everybody else who touched my lives in my everyday living.
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