I got into this huge argument with my mother regarding the way she disciplines my siblings. Can you believe my little sister Kring is getting $30.00 weekly for her allowance and she's asking for more? My gosh?! That's too much for a high school student, and she's asking more? Supposedly, she needed money for bus pass. Why does she need bus pass when she's being dropped off and picked up to and from school? I don't get it. I just don't get it. And my brother Long had two speeding tickets about $200-300 dollards each so totalling of about $500-600 dollars and my mom kept saying, " That's it, I am taking the car keys away from you ( from my brother)." But she never takes it away. She never follows through. How is she supposed ot be teachign Logn a lesson when she doesn't have a word of honor? I was telling my mom how she spoils them too much. When I was their age, I was working and earnign my own money. I mean, I didn't want them to work because i want them to concentrate on school but my gosh, I told my mom they have to learn the value of money and the hardwork. When iw as in high school, I had 5 dollars allowance.
Then my mom started rattling about how "bad" I was in the past. When I was young, I admit, I hung around in a "bad crowd." But I wouldn't say I was bad. I had A's and B's at school. I was an AP and honors student. I took leadership roles in various clubs and took volunteer training outside school. I was working at a local mall. I was never in jail, did drugs, or even smoked...now, Tell me, am I a bad kid? I went out wiht a guy who was atthat tiem a gangster buit I was never with his gang...I mean, iy was only him who I saw and kicked it with and I have long dropped his loser butt and now, my mom is taking that against me?
I don't get it. I felt so verbally abused. I am in the Dean's list, I have a degree as a vocational nurse, I am on top of my classes, I help her financially, and she was mad at me because I was telling my siblings that they have to budget their money and use it wisely? My mom said stuff that really hurt me. Even my little sibling said somethign against me such as, "what do I care?" "So what?" What do I care....I care because they are my siblings! and I care about them lately. But they just don't realize that.
I cried last night. I just felt so alone here. I mean, I have all these friends but I am not too comfortable to tell them what I really feel. The only people that I confide to is Maff and Glenn. Glenn is not calling me and I have no idea what he's trying to tell me this time ( I know he's back from the Philippines) but I am assuming he's "busy." If he choose not to talk to me, that's his problem but do not come running back to me when I decide to not have you in ym life completely.
But I thank God for you, MAFF. Sometimes, when the world seemed to shut its doors on me, I knwo there's always one friend embraces me with open arms. I talked to you today and you comforted me. I was telling you how if I didn't have a paper to do this week, I would have goen to Las Vegas already. I just want to get out of all these drama and have fun. I just want to get away from these people at home who are irritating me.
Ah, I can't wait~Oh yeah, Thank you so much, Maff. I said thank you to you maybe a million times or more, and again, really from the bottom of my heart, I am grateful for you and our friendship. Just don;t foget to pick me up fromt he airport! hehehe
Sorry for a very lonely entry. I hope things gets better one of these days.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 1:48 PM
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