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Saturday, March 31, 2001

Tuesday, March 20, 2001

MY BEST FRIEND MAFF

I talked to my bestfriend Maff. I have no Idea if I told you about her. But well, we had this long talk yesterday and today about our lives...then and now. I was going through a lot of strains in my life lately and I'm having a difficult time dealing with the loneliness> I am just glad that Maff was there. So Maff, this one's for you. For the wonderful friendshipa nd I am looing forward for mor eyars to come. I can't wait to see you in Vegas in spring break. And please find me a doctor or a nurse....heheheh LOL

This was the exact email I sent her.

Dear Maff,
I knew you since 1994. I was feeling miserable because I thought I was getting old and to realized that I knew for such a long time, proves I AM OLD!!! hehehe. But anywayz, thank you for being my light for the past weeks. It meant a lot to me knowing I have a friend I can count on. I mean, we meet people everyday in our daily lives and we gain friendships in them but we never know when will this friendship fade.

For me, I can say I met a lot of people. I encountered different types of people everyday. I gain and lost some friendship. I have been through thick and thin,
through hell and back, through tears and smiles,
through loneliness and joy, through love and heartaches, through stupid guys and intelligent guys, through family problems, throuigh fake friends,
through friends who encouraged me
and friends who put me down...
through failure and success,
through frustrations and upsets,
through wins and losses,
through everything...
I don't know how I survived it all.
But I know for sure that I was confident to face it all because there was a friend who believed in me and stuck with me through it all...
and that was you.
Thank you for being the angel who keeps reminding me spread my wings and fly.
I really thank the Lord for you.
I want you know I am here for you always but I guess, most especially when the world seems to shut their doors on you. God loves you, and so do I. Please know you have a friend in me always.

FRIENDS FOREVER.
len
posted by Pinay Freestyle at 9:35 PM

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MY SILENT REVERIES

writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len

DISCOVER ME: who is the lady behind the blogs?

"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."

---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"

my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.

"

REACH ME if you want to get to know me better, if you want to share your thoughts, if you want to be my friend, don't hesitate: you can find me at

::EMAIL ME @ AOL::
:: EMAIL ME @ GMAIL
::FACEBOOK::
::AOL IM: XLENDCX::
::yahoo: YM::
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CONTRIBUTIONS articles and works i've done for other e-zines through the years

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HABITUATE fellow bloggers who keeps me entertained and sane

::ernie::
::joyce::
::eric ahn::
::pammy::
::champuru::
::maldito/glenn::
::mica::
::tintin::
::batjay::
::rijah::
::carol::
::christine::

ADDICTION these are a few of my favorite things...

::louis vuitton::
::ugg australia::
::armani exchange::
::h & m::
::banana republic::
::target::
PAMPER ME in this stressful world, i need relaxation. places i hibernate to and hide away from the world. here are some of my favorite spots.

::olympic spa::
::pho siam thai spa::
:: raya spa::
::japanese garden::
::redondo beach::

FREQUENTS embracing life in los angeles: a day in a life in my shoes

::monte carlo cafe::
::THE GROVE::
::coffee bean::
::barnes and noble::
::starbucks::

GOBBLE GOBBLE [L.A.STYLE] food over matter los angeles style =)

::todai::
::sanamluang::
::hodori::
::alcove::
::portos::
::mayflower::
::tommy's::
::roscoe's::
::philippes::
::thai bbq::
::the pantry::
::pinks::
::koji's::
::kabuki::

QUERRIES i don't know everything. so these are the sites i go to answer my inquisitive inquiries, obtain html coldes, and upload my pictures.

::google::
::yahoo::
::ask::
::photobucket::
::blogger::

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