I am officiallly a nerd! I got a memo from my school that I am one of their honoree for the Dean's List and President List Awards. And this can only be achieved by having a 3.5 to 4.0 average. I am slo a recipient of the Dean's Scholarship Award. I feel proud. You know how people say, " Some people dreams of success. Other people wakes up and works hard at it." That's me. I am darn proud of it because I spent barrel of tears, sweat, and endless nights of no rest and no sleep to get to where I am now. I sacrificed so many things just to be where I am at now. Thank you, Lord. You said, "Do your best, and I'll take care of the rest." I give you all the honor, my Father." My mom read the memo and I can see the joy in her eyes. She was almost teary. At least, she knows how much effort I put into everything I do. My dada was proud of his little girl. He's always like that. I hope I inspired my siblings.
Ate Ral just got back from her vacation in the Philippines yesterday. last night, we blabbed for hours...from 5 pm to 11 pm...I don't know. Think how many hour was that. I had leg cramps sitting on my carpet. So many surpises. I'm quite shocked. She got married there. I guess, I should be happy for her. But she's too young. Oh well, that's her decision.
Various things happened today. This black guy asked me out on a date..YuK. No, he's nice and everything. But I don't know. He seemed too aggressive for me. Besides, I never dated a black guy before. It's just I am very picky with guys. I just don't see myself with a black man.And it's not about the racial thing either. So please, do not judge me by that aspect. It's weird because eversince I got bac from the Philippines from my Christmas vacation, a lot of African American were asking for my number. One guy even asked me for my measurements. What in the hell was that? Why are these guys getting attracted to me or seemed interested in me all of the sudden? I don't find myself physically attractive. Yes, I do have a low self esteem eversince Glenn traded me for someone else. Why do you think I get scared every time somebody tries to court me? I just chicken out and I take the easy way out. In Psychology, they call it the negative reinforcement. I avoid things. I look for an escape because I am afraid to love.
Funny thing is, when the guy asked me out, he asked me infront of OJ. And OJ asked me if that guy was asking me out on date. I said he just wanted to eat out. And told me to remind him when am I available. But eww. I won't go. Then OJ acted a bit jealous. I still want to asked him if he liked me. I just don't have the balls to do it. I hate it. After class, OJ and I decided to go online at the Digital Imaging Lab because he had weight lifting class and I have a RN 50 class. He kept asking me for my email address. I told him to just call me at home or my cell if he wants to talk to me. And he goes, " No I want your email address so I can email you a love letter." I said, "What?" Love letter? Did he just say a love letter? And I asked him again, " What are you talking about?" and he just changed the topic. Instead, he asked, " When are you leaving for Vegas? " Spring break, " I said, on " April 9th to the 15th." he asked if he can come. I was actually thinking about it when he asked me that. Should I let him come? If he comes, I can't flirt with any other guys...hehehe or we can be "romantic" on Vegas...if you know what I mean. heheh LOL. Well, I'm nice so I said," Sure." So I think I am going with OJ and Janet, Sheila, Mickey, Armstrong, Andrea, Wowie to Vegas to meet my bestfriend Maff there. Should I see Glenn's brother there? What if Glenn finds ou I was in Vegas on Soring break? He will probably go paranoid and he'll ask his brother to chaperone me!! EEWwww, NO! We have lots of things planned and I can't wait....but we'll see.
Originally, I plan to go to Waikiki, Hawaii and see Glenn there (he lives there now...int he Airforce Base) but he gave me an attitude before he left to Philippines that I got pissed off that I changed my entire plan of going to Hawaii for Spring break. I really should forget about him. He's making my life a living hell. I wa supposed to surprise him...but he ruined it. Maff and I wanted to go to New York but we realized it 's too cold there at this time of the year according to the weather forecasts plu ssoemthign "bad" happened...(care to talk about it Maff?) so never mind. Maybe in the summer time on my birthday. maff asked me to go with her to Chicago? Are you crazy? i thopught you wanted to go to NY? What's there In Chicago now? Uhuh....I know...but I won't tell you. LOL.
I miss Glenn right now. I wonder if he even thinks of me. He'll be back on March 27. I've been longing to call him overseas but I've been forcing myself NOT to because he'll start having all these ego trips again. He thinks I still love him every time I call him. But guess what, for the past two months and a half, he's the one calling me. I know he wants me back. But right now, I am not stupid to go back to him. I still love him but not as much as I loved him then. Plus, he really made me miserable. Now, talk about karma. Spring break in Vegas, I am looking forward. And I just hope and cross my fingers that Glenn FINDS out about it. I can't wait to hear his reaction.
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