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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
i'm gasping for air. the mood has been plaintively somber. one by one, i desired to spill this unexplainable gloom in my heart. the dismals are overwhelming. the tedious dumps of my life are drowning me. alive.
i feel like a sinking ship. i am like a soldier unarmed. i am pen without an ink. i am like a coloreless rainbow. how do i define it? unhappy? heavyhearted? dispirited? drearing querries envelopes me in a seal tight bottle and i am just suffocating. huffing to breath spasmodically. i thirst for ventilation.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:29 PM
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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE. but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me. i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey. and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be. so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES. love, len DISCOVER ME: who is the lady behind the blogs? "I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important." ---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes" my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart. the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am. REACH ME if you want to get to know me better, if you want to share your thoughts, if you want to be my friend, don't hesitate: you can find me at ::EMAIL ME @ AOL:: :: EMAIL ME @ GMAIL ::FACEBOOK:: ::AOL IM: XLENDCX:: ::yahoo: YM:: ::MYSPACE:: PREVIOUS POSTS marry me diane, one of my best girl pals, just go... more than the silence [NOTE: I wrote this entry a... UPDATE i know i know. it's been a while. every si... HAUNTED i remember it so clearly. i came home fr... what is the color of love? for months, i kept my... "please? take my name off your blog?," he asked f... Surf's Up Life is like surfing the gigantic pipes... concealed laceration i have not been eating. alwa... romantic hibernation there was a story about gri... "Yours were the hands" when i was a baby and mom ... DAILY DOSE OF ME my other blogs: in case, you're not tired of me yet =) ::GOOD THINGS:: life is all about appreciating the simple things ::YACKETY YACKS:: pinay chatter box: much ado about nothing =) CONTRIBUTIONS articles and works i've done for other e-zines through the years binibini.org: KEYCHAIN binibini.org: FAREWELL binibini.org: SA GITNA NG GABI HABITUATE fellow bloggers who keeps me entertained and sane ::ernie:: ::joyce:: ::eric ahn:: ::pammy:: ::champuru:: ::maldito/glenn:: ::mica:: ::tintin:: ::batjay:: ::rijah:: ::carol:: ::christine:: ADDICTION these are a few of my favorite things... ::louis vuitton:: ::ugg australia:: ::armani exchange:: ::h & m:: ::banana republic:: ::target:: PAMPER ME in this stressful world, i need relaxation. places i hibernate to and hide away from the world. here are some of my favorite spots. ::olympic spa:: ::pho siam thai spa:: :: raya spa:: ::japanese garden:: ::redondo beach:: FREQUENTS embracing life in los angeles: a day in a life in my shoes ::monte carlo cafe:: ::THE GROVE:: ::coffee bean:: ::barnes and noble:: ::starbucks:: GOBBLE GOBBLE [L.A.STYLE] food over matter los angeles style =) ::todai:: ::sanamluang:: ::hodori:: ::alcove:: ::portos:: ::mayflower:: ::tommy's:: ::roscoe's:: ::philippes:: ::thai bbq:: ::the pantry:: ::pinks:: ::koji's:: ::kabuki:: QUERRIES i don't know everything. so these are the sites i go to answer my inquisitive inquiries, obtain html coldes, and upload my pictures. ::google:: ::yahoo:: ::ask:: ::photobucket:: ::blogger:: ARCHIVES |
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