A HOLE IN MY SOUL Long Razor, Sharp claws, Dug deep into my flesh, Wrapping around my heart Like a cold covering the sun. One quick jerk forward, Unbearable pain, Instant emptiness. A large hole in my soul which promises to heal buti know... Without my heart, it never will.
A Remembrance of You. I'm here by myself Memories reel through my head you walked away Never looking back
The memories of you stay here I die a little more Everytime I think of you the memories ache inside me
I'm not the first to go through this because of you I thought I was different even though you warned me so
Just like the sun, it felt good to be with you... When the blisters form I realize I got burned
To be a part of your love parade your never-ending stream You master every face to use to win in this charade
I close my eyes to lose the world For a moment, shy can't everything be still? It seems my heart was here before you to be consumed til you had your fill
ANSWERS I COULDN'T FIND As the sunbeam covers my face I try to leave everything behind But darkness finds the pleasure to chase My eyes and make me blind
So hard to try to figure it out Understand what's going on It urges me to shout out loud While the last ray of light is gone
I knew it was never to be right But I was brave enough to dream I also had the courage to fight But I didn't have the voice to scream
It makes me feel like "Don Qui Chotte" Fighting an illusive windmill When nothing that I have got Could keep the time still
As the sunbeam covers my face I didn't leave anything behind Just was a losing case And answers I couldn't find…
MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.
but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.
i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.
and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.
so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.
love,
len
DISCOVER ME:
who is the lady behind the blogs?
"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."
---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"
my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart.
the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.
REACH ME
if you want to get to know me better, if you want to share your thoughts, if you want to be my friend, don't hesitate: you can find me at
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