here's another THANK YOU round to my ever loyal 'fans' ( naks! don't deny...i know you missed me..=) kidding aside, i wanted to circulate a large individualistic THANK YOU to everyone. however, there is no way i can type up hundreds of emails nor a personal HANDWRITTEN love letter to everyone who thought of me and wished me to get well and sent their prayers and love during the recent surgical procedures i've go through. in every language, THANK YOU VERY MUCH!

[[although, i was able to allot and squeeze some "loveletters" a few people along the way---ya'll know who you are---hope you got it]]

a removal of some parts of your physical body and also losing some functions to your existng body made me realize how important it is to take care of ourselves and to be thankful for the LIFE God gave me. some of you knew and watched me go through the difficulties i underwent for years now. my elongated path to living and healing is not a joke: itching weeks of wearing cemented casted extremities relying on crutches to take you from point A to point B, the excruciating nerve, muscle, joint pains, sleepless aching nights, countless episode of vomiting to name a few. the truth is, i can enlist arrays of multiple symptoms i feel everyday, or the existence of the strongest medicines on earth i take just hoping and wishing to make all the discomforts and side effects perished, or the multiplying medical treatments, outnumbered diagnostic procedures i received just to obtains congruent solution to the twinge i face persistently everyday. THE LISTs CAN GO ON...but i simply masked the pain away and SMILE or joke it off as most of you who knew me noticed.

truth is, i am simply tired of fighting sometimes. beyond one legged crutch walking & leg cementing, faking a painful smile is even more exhausting. sometimes, i think of how others would respond if they were in my shoes. for most part, it gets insanely torturing. the demands of your daily survival is a constant battle. and the hardest part of it all is NOT knowing when the tormenting war within your physical, emotional, and mental body will end.

it is during these darkest moments when i realized i am still fortunate, after all. my Lord blessed me with extraordinary strength and persistence to live and fight all the battles from which i derived and often absorb from GREAT INFLUENCES in people like you. from YOUR outpouring LOVE, jolly spirits and conjoined LIMITLESS prayers, i am empowered that LIFE is worth every battle i need to face.

they said, " TRUE LOYAL FRIENSHIPS are like TEA BAGS. You'll never know HOW STRONG THEY TASTE until YOU DIPPED them inHOT BOILING WATER. " so to me, you're my TEA BAGS...for lack of a better word, far beyond gratefulness, from the deepest depth of my heart, I AM forever THANKFUL for HAVING YOU for BEING THERE when the sun shines but even better,FOR BEING THERE when the rain pours.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!

at the end of all of these, i know, without hesitency, my Lord will return the favor to all of you as I pray to HIM, my Lord, my master healer, to keep you healthy and protected in HIS watchful eye and return the outours of BLESSING back to you.

GOD LOVES YOU...
SO DO I.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 12:20 AM

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