whole

i knew you hunger for me to say, "it's okay"

i felt certain you long for me to approach you and express, " i was worry."

i recognized you wanted me to initiate the first move,

i grasped you wished i can just admit to guilt and offer amendments.

that way, you figure it will all be over and we'll just wind up talking again.

yeah, i knew.

but...

i'm bruised badly with your disturbing accusations.

i'm burned with scarring heat from agonizing utters.

the little respect i have for you seems to dwindle, almost evaporating

now evolving into debris of marvelled resentment.

yet, i still wondered.

still puzzled, i questioned, " how can you even defend the guy who continues to damage you when it is us, the people who cared for you and loved you no matter, are the ones struggling to fight for you?"

and yet, in your eyes, you fathomed we're the ones who are NOT exerting effort to understand you?

yet, frankly, i truly am seeking ways to sympathize with you.

you just refused to adhere to me even just half way.

if before, i aimed to forgive andforget what you did,

this time around, i'm not going to condone to that.

the angry words you threw at me tarnished me completely.

i noticed you wanted me to pretend that," all is well."

that it was okay for you to wound me and scar me.

to manipulate be believing "it was the " past."

but NO, i made up my mind.

this time,

I'M NOT GOING TO.

maybe in HIS time,

when my shattered esteem is fixed,

when my weary soul gains strenght,

when my broken self is whole again.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 5:51 PM

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