RAIN
Saturday, February 25, 2006
RAIN

mother nature's pours its drench filled tears. i love the rain. i was always fascinated with the rain and its stunning precipitative process: first, the subtle blows of the winds,then the dark forming moonsoon clouds, the tiny little drops of tear-like formed water that transforms into sudden gushes of what seemed like barrel of shower.


as the rain makes still pools on the side walks and created running pools in the gutter, listen closely. can you hear the pulsing tempos? each hard sunken drops creates a liquid chorus. each sounded like drum beats of my heartbeat's pulsating power and force. it's almost as if it's playing me a sweet sleep song on our roof. it's singing a soothing lullaby to tuck me into the breezy night.


i shivered. the chills of the night made me shake and quiver. i hugged myself and stared at the beauty of the rain. it felt like i'm living in the wet rain. my heart's drench with anger filled like water. i'm coated with cold submerged in ice. i'm soaked as the chill clung to my cheek.my lips trembled, i'm seeking warmth. i only want solitude. i wished for serenity. hence, i hear words of prey, raging tones of destruction. though, my hearts heavy with slashes of bloodsmears and slithers of outpouring tears. i hugged my knees and embraced my arms and watched the rain fall drip dropping in disarrayed lines. i moved my eyes up to catch rain; blending my tears of salted pain as my eyelids forged to close.

there's a blue harmony in this winter rain. the soft rhythm of the wind suits the mood i'm in. crashing over me again and again. cooling and fooling as it seeps me within. it rinses through me, diluting my life's stain. cleansing unloaded burden i carried heavily from adam and eve's first sin. it smoothes to pebbles the gigantic boulders of pain. clarifies tumbled thoughts in a brainwashed spin. purifies my impured soul and recharges my weak spirit. the melancholic mood is once again washed away like a slough of the skin. then like the colors of the rainbow, i am once again in the lightness of my being ME.

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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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