words of prey
Monday, February 06, 2006

she uttered repetitive

words of sarcasm.

s l o w l y sliced my whining ego,

like a -f-a-s-t--- b-u-l-l-e-t---->

hitting me

s-t-r-a-i-g-h-t to the chest.

and i'm bleeding...

bleeding from hurtful hearsays.

just attacked me physically.

skinned bruise and unhealed wounds are easier to mend.

unconsious words of prey

creates permanent damage.

i worked and studied hard to be "n o t i c e d"

i wait for the day for you to say,

"I'm so proud of you..."

i am M E.

i'm NOT perfect.

i will never be.

but

i am ME: i'm a work in progress.

just

L - O - V - E

me

for

being

simply

ME.

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LEAD ME LORD

LEAD ME LORD

Lead me Lord, lead me by the hand
And make me face the rising sun
Comfort me through all the pain
That life may bring
There's no other hope
That I can lean upon
Lead me Lord
Lead me all my life
Walk by me, walk by me across
The lonely road that I may face
Take my arms and let your hadn
Show me the way
Show the way to live inside your heart
All my days, all my life

Refrain:
You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light
I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
Lead me Lord

Lead me Lord
Even though at times
I'd rather go alone my way
Help me take the right direction
Take Your road
Lead me Lord
And never leave my side
All my days
All my life

You are my light
You're the lamb upon my feet
All the time my Lord
I need You there
You are my light
I (just) cannot live alone
Let me stay
By Your guiding love
All through my life
All through my days
Lead me, O Lord
Lead me Lord

[Lord, my heart us aching and my soul is weary. Grant me serenity forthe day. Let not the hurting words bring me down. Instead, let it uphold me. Forgive me for my shortcomings, Lord. And thank you for the hope for a brighter tomorrow. I know you are testing me. So I am working harder, Lord.Inspire me. Strengthen me. Help me inspire others like you inspired me. i asked you this in your most precious name. Amen]


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MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

love,
len


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