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10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 !!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR !!

varied shapes and colored fireworks lit the midnight skies as my brother long and his friend leo prepeared the fireworks. unle henry turned on the loud siren from his car. our family gathered (and stampede) infront of auntie vickie's to watch and witness the fireworks up in the sky and every direction possible. the children were given "legal" fireworks courtesy of me and ate bel. their faces furnished with excited and anxious smiles.

as one enter inside the house, already drunk adults who gulped the chivas regals even before midnight were handed red wine. the legal aged (and the "wanna be" legal - you will remain anonymous!)youths were also given vodka infested strawberry flavored margaritas. the kids also enjoyed their wine versioned sparkling ciders. all drinks elegantly poured on champagne glasses. we tossed and drank after the fireworks came off. even my little cousin annette, whose experiencing all this new and happy chaotic gathering for the first time as she just moved here from tennessee, claimed excitedly, "wow!!! this is the life!!!" and just like that, 2005 bid its final farewell.

but i will never forget 2005. he surely left his marks in my life this year. major decisions and changes were typical menu for me and my family this year. for instance, my family spent the holidays apart as we always spend it together as some of us are away from our dear lovedones. homesickness is not an easy thing to deal with. emails, texts and phonecards has been a factor to communicate efficiently. we're surviving. that's good for now.

personally for me, as normal as every one else, i have had my share of joys and tears this year.the heartbreaking revelation of han cheating on me at the start of the year tore me apart. but i forgave him and i decided we can now be friends. but the Lord has HIS own purpose. this year, i've discovered a wonderful person in AB, someone who has been my "unnoticeable" friend for years, and now, i'm slowly falling into ( he does not know yet, i think).it's hard to tell your best friend you secretly loved hima ll these months. we will get there. there's a proper time for everything. let's enjoy the moment.healthwise, except for the inevitablebroken foot, swollen muscles and nerves and the well media coveraged flu, i am okay for this year.

financially, i am reaping the earnings of my hardwork courtesy of the many double 12 hour shifts i pulled from work this year. i am blessed more than i an can ask for. spiritually, i renewed my faith to the Lord Jesus this year as an obedient disciple serving HIM at church and serving others, and inspiring the young ones to do the same.workwise, my work allowed me to expand my covenant with the Lord to serve and to enhance myself as a human with heart in general as i witness the greatest gift the Lord can give us: LIFE at its worst and best (from birth of a child, to the healing of the sick, to death). everything this year has been a learning lesson. perhaps, i could not ask for more.

well, as they say, "what does not kill you only makes you stronger." and truly, i was dignified with the renewed spirit and strenght this past year. my exboyfriend, ron, once told me, "only the strong survives in this f*cked up world. so fight like it's your last battle." what can i say? i fight like a lion and thank GOd, i'm still standing here.

life will always be unpredictable. 2006 will have its own ups and downs and that goes for the new year also. i will be tested again. i will cry in tears. i will accomplish something again. i will take risks and make difficult decisions again. i will be tempted. i will rejoice in laughters. i will share many more speial moments. but one thing is for sure....with God as my Saviour, i will STILL be standing here.

Happy New Year!

posted by pinay freestyle @ 11:14 AM

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