for most times, i stayed mum about the rollercoaster ups and downs of my life. in the past, arguing back and attacking the "attacker" has not been the right way of dealing with conflicts. and i 've learned that some times it was best to stay quiet and cry in the dark. most of the times, i figured if fire was thrown to me, it is best that i INHIBIT myself to throw the fire back since i'm aware that fire + fire = more flame.

but those hurtful words you said damaged me.

you've crossed the line. i'm sorry if i might have said the truth...and sometimes the truth hurts. but you had no right to shatter me even more. i've sacrificed so much---all my life...to try my best. i poured my heart and soul to be where i am today and to be what i am today. you had no privilege to put me down: to be called " stupid" and to destroy the ME that i struggled to established.

whether you despise me or not, i forgave you. last week, you tried to shred and tear me and my emotions apart. you attempted to break me down like you always do. in the past you've succeeded.

but NO.

this has to stop. this time around, i am not going to allow you step all over me. it took me so many years to stand up against you. not because i do not like you but because i felt like you must have hate me for you to always break me no matter what i do.

but sorry. this lady that you broke in the past into little debris has glued her self together. i am back in one piece. even stronger this time. and no one...not even destroy me again.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 8:57 PM

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