my "mahal" [ron] [mahal is love in tagalog] is finally "home." yet, again, we survived another gruesome battle in love: one of the hardest i have encountered so far. it felt strange to talk to him " normally." before, all i looked forward to was his phone calls since he was "unreachable" ... somewhat "far away."

and now, he's within reach.

it's so different having you here, boy. before, all i thought about is your "homecoming." and now that you are here, i am speechless. i guess, that is my way of expressing how happy i am. it's strange how i prefer to be silent and yet, i feel giddy inside. i love that you are here and yet, i am scared because of the decisions we made ahead.

i want you...to be what you were. and i feel deeply that you feel the same way. and yet, we kept holding back. why? you said because we have dreams to achieve...especially you...but you don't want me to leave either. i am confused. but i know for sure i remained in love...with you.

i miss you so much, beb...

i wish we can start a new............

posted by pinay freestyle @ 8:20 PM

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