Sunday, September 29, 2002
man of my dreams

there is this old man at the west ward of my floor at the hospital. i would always see him every morning at the start of my shift, sometimes, even before my shift at 7 in the morning. at times, i would see him sleep at this woman's room. i wondered how he was related to the woman. at lunch, he would feed her. then he waits until the night sets in. he would leave for an hour and then go back again. and then the cycle repeats again. i see him the next morning.

and he sits there.

he sits on this leather chair..so uncomfortably. and yet, patiently, he sits there. i would pass by and i would ask, " are you okay? do you need anything? " and he would just smile back at me. i assumed he did not understood what i said. he spoke spanish only. sometimes, i would catch him staring at her. sometimes, he gives her the bed bath, he pulls the covers all the way to her neck so she won't get cold.

one day, i was assigned to this patient. i found out he was the husband of this woman. they have been married for fifty years now. apparently, the wife was diagnosed of congestive heart failure and suffered a stroke. she has been in the hospital for thirty days now. and each and every day i worked, i would see him there..never miss.

what a dedicated man. for fifty years, he devoted himself to her. and for thirty days now, he sits there beside her just waiting for her to get better. sometimes, when she gets into respiratory distress, he would panic and tears would fall from his face. on the corner, he would cry silently. and i just stand there watching him....wathcing him hurt because she is in pain. when he cries, you can see that she meant the whole world to him. and if she goes, his whole world will collapse

love is such a powerful feeling. this old couple stood through thick and thin and even atthis very moment, they are still fighting for each other. i dream of a man like him. someone who will take care of me, someone who will be there for me especially when i am sick, someone who will sit there in that hospital room, just waiting for me to wake and smile at him. sometimes, wheni think of my future husband ( whoever he may be), i think of this old man who religiously took care of his wife int he hospital.

that's what i call, " true love."

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writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.

but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.

i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.

and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.

so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.

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