i'm still feeling downcasted and heavyhearted. my dispirited soul is still drearing mirthless and sad emotions. i have desolated myself from feeling happy.well, even if i wanted to, certain situations...rather people are succeeding at making my life miserable.
the rhapsodical drama continous on.
in cardiokickboxing class, steve told me PR (rich-- the guy i liked one time...) was with lucy yesterday (that bitch! not only is she hurting steve, she's giving me an impression she really was a hoe. i can't blame rich for goign for her...or seeing her, any way, he did bone her one time and left her. that's all she'll ever be in my eyes). i chose not to comment on what steve said. it was best i kept my mouth shut before i explode and advice him to leave his dumb gf's ass. but it added more to my misery. i mean, i am trying to survive each day at a time and here, he adds more worries. it's just what i needed...more "putdowns."
mom is still on her hormonal imbalance.
none of my "user" friends are here to be found.
i'm just absorbing everyones twinge, dramas, problems. name it. i am the one makign sure they are okay, if everything is going well, if there's anything i can do...to comfort them.
and as usual, i am left unnoticed. consider me dead. that's how it felt, anyway. no one even ask if i was okay, how was my day...even wondered if i was alive or dead. yep.i told you.... just shoot me.
but oh well, behind all thse anger, if there's few people i appreciated for "listening" to me...
*thanks "albert" for your heartwarming advice. i needed that last night. i needed someone who will not judge me but instead, assure me and comfort me that they are there to stay. thank you so much. i owe you one. someday, when circumstances are choking you and you need someone, without any doubt, i will embrace you and comfort you the same way you have comforted me.
* manong jeremy, time and time again, when i am angry at the world, when my whole universe is crumbling, and my endeavors are collapsing, and you always manage to bring me smile. i needed that today. thank you. sorry for taking you forgranted sometimes. but at all times, your "adeng norichan" ( little sis) is here for you no matter what.
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