SEALED

i've been tossing and turning. most of the time, sleep deprived. in all honesty, i have a lot of things in my head. and it's spinning there up and down to the point my head hurts just thinking about it.

there are so many things i want to discuss. there are so many revelations i want to share. my heart is screaming, wanting to let my desires be known. my emotions are bursting. i want to let it all out.

questions after questions lingered in my mind. there's abundance of queries just waiting to be revealed. there were actions that need explanations. there are wonders of 'how are you?" and worries of how he is doing.

i've been working out, walking, lifting weights, and meditating. i've been driving with no sense of directions...just driving. i've been writing everything in my personal journal. i've turned off my cell phone and turned off the ringer volume on my room phone. i blocked myself from aim and secretly checking my friendster and myspace. i've only talked to a few people ( two exact). i've been trying my hardest to stay sane and calm and finding ways possible to destress myself.

i'm not ready to discuss anything. i'm not ready to talk about what i feel or the things that are happening. it's best to keep it there tucked in my heart and mind. i decided, this is not the right time. so my mouth are sealed.

posted by pinay freestyle @ 10:20 PM

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