*~blink away~*

life has been cruel to me lately. i started writing about what i feel at the moment but depression came and hit me again. maybe, i am not fully prepared to write or talk about it. for this time being, i assume, it is best that i keep to myself and only to people who are close to me and undertsands me more than ever ( maff, manong takeshi, cousin aileen, and glenn).

i hate being in this position. i loathe to feel the hurt i am feeling right now. talking to manong takeshi last night made me realize my worth. and he mentioned that i have always been strong and that i need to disregard the negative side comments and events that people uttered or felt against me. i need to abolish the negative thinking and if possible, invalidate the twinge and make life go on again.

so i'm working on it diligently. i am stressing with all effort to forget about it for the holidays sake. and as soon as i am ready to share, you, my readers will be the first to know.

perhaps, being with my family and friends here in los angeles can change the emotions i feel towards all this sorrow.so for now, i am going to "blink away" from the misery, form the hurt, from people who stabbed me with pain ( you know who you are).

posted by pinay freestyle @ 5:05 PM

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