too many things happened today.
i wasn't able to talk to ron, i woke up late because i was awakeallnight waiting for him to call, and then my cousin aileen and i were stuck an hour anda half in traffic GOING to my school....because there was a goddamn accident on the 99 north freeway going to stockton, we decided to use a detour route on theside sreet withot any knwoledge of the downtown stockton area, adnthe we got lost, and then finally we were able to get to the 5 north freeway, thankgod, we remembered one freekin' landmarkin stockton---filipino plaza, and then on the 5 freeway, we drove 80 miles per hour, swiveling from one lane to the other, and then upon exiting, a crazy, lunatic,old man taxi driver merge unexpectedly to our lane which we almost hit by one freekin 'inch by the way, and so i honked the horn at him and he gives us a "middlefinger." what do i do? my blood was boiling and so i overtake him and get into stupid roadrage... . then finally, i got to school 15 minutes before the class ended and i had a freekin' exam i studied so hard for, i thought she wasn't going to let me take the test. thankgodagain, my teacher was so nice. i took the test and felt confident towards my answers.
so to relieve all these stress, my cousin and i decided to "relax" at the mall....and didn't noticed the time. then the cell phone started ringing....it was her parents. so we were panicking because they were bugging the hell out of us. we decided NOT to answer. and then they call...again, and again and again.
finally, we agreed on a white lie to tell them. and i decided to do the talking to my aunt, respectfully, and oh my gosh, she was yelling at me, too. she was asking me this and that. and uncle was yelling at me and screaming in the background. and then i was giving the cell phone to my cousin and she didn't even wanna hear it. aaaahhhrrr. i was irritated. i just told them we were on our way home and they need not to worry. what do they do? hun gup on me.
i was pissed already. and then going backto the freeway5 south ....there was another accident and the ramps were closed. so i called them again, and tell them about the situation and they were yelling at us. i asked if they knew of other detour from stockton and they weren't very helpful at all. what am i suppose to do? i do not know my way around this area. it's like being in a blindfold not knowing where to go. and then aileen decided she should talk to them. and all i overheard was, "stupid here, and stupid there" being said to her and it was obviously hurting her.
so we decided to stop to eat. and then i called ron and he,too, was nagging me. rrrr. more... and more...and then we finally hit the 5 and then we call them up updating them of our situation and gosh, my aunlce is so closed minded that he thinks i was making up the story that there was an accident. gosh,i even told them to watch the news or something...just so he cansee it for himself. but no, he insistedhe was right and i was lying to him. and auntie, on the other hand, didn;t care to listen to what we had to say and decided uncle was right.
on the way home, aileen tells me about her emotional and social relationship her parents and she said she had no emotional link to them whatsoever because they are so paranoid. then she discuss her problems...and grunges she was holding against her mom and dad and how she deals with all the painful words they say against her. and then i realized how lucky i am. she might have had every material things i wanted in life but i am so fortunate to have the most wonderful mom and dad who gave and showered me all the loving in the world. her life is filled with so many sad stories compared to mine.
on our way home, i thought about my siblings, how close we were, how my mom and dad spend quality time with us to go to church every sunday, to talk about certain thingsin life openly, how we have time to sit around a meal to eat and pray together, to gather around the family room, crack a joke and share a laughter or two, how my mother understand and TRIES to understand us, how my dad gives everything he has to give for us...
as we approached the drive way, we prepared ourselves for a long lecture, more yelling and sceaming.and then we got in. no words said. just angry faces ....looking and staring at us. rrr. it was irritating. and then auntie wants us to show our faces to uncle....for nothing.
i wasn't ready for more stress anyway. i am so drained out and to think ti was only monday and i had more drearing things to do for the rest of the week. i just wanted to lie in bed and lock myself up in the room.
so i entered my room. in my bed was a priority package from mom and my family in los angeles, consisting of review materials for my licensure exam. and a note that simply said, they missed me and they loved me. i went to the bathroom and i cried there. i missed them, too.
ahh. in this wrold were hate is everywhere, and we run obstacles that are too hard to handle, it felt goood to know that my parents and siblings are there and they loved me unconditionally. my Lord works in miraculous ways.
. i have forgotten how lucky i am .the note from my mother that simply stated, "love, Mama" reminded me that i am... especially today, i needed that . and what a comfort.
thank you, Lord...for my wonderful parents and siblings.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 11:45 PM
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