mood: happy =)
thinking: i am liking him so much

and R said....

" I don't wanna lose you."

no one has ever said that to me before. i think men in my past never thought of that phrase not until after i was gone. it's odd to hear that i am needed. but it feels good to hear someone is telling me i "complete" them. i used to say the same words to glenn and he never cared a bit. now, exact same words are being said to me and i feels strangely wonderful. =)

my cousin geng and i were together yesterday. i told R i will be out with her to go to my aunt's house for dinner. i left early in the afternoon and i didn't get back until late night. i always get attracted to korean guys. i guess, i have always preferred chinky looking guys. it's just i never had any before, i always had the typical filipino looking men, if not half breed. well, my cousin geng has been "flirting" with one korean guy for the past three months or so. like me, she has now find korean guys attractive. and i kept telling her that at least i am going to have a korean man of my own soon through R. and she kept bugging me to find her one!!! LOL.

goign back to R, he mentioned that he kept waiting for me to call. i totally lost track of time talking to my cousins and aunts. plus, they were feeding us there as if we were hungry dogs who have not eaten for days. so when i got home last night, i called R immediately. he had just stepped in the house from work. he returned my call after 15 minutes and we talked until the wee hours of the morning today. he listened to me eagerly. and every time i asked if he was okay, he would always say, "i am just listening to your beautiful voice." he also mentioned that he has been looking forward to talk to me all day and he has been waiting for me to get home so we can talk.

aww. now i miss him even more. he is at work at the moment. i am cooking breakfast right now for the starving people in my house. after, i have to fill up some "important paperworks" which my future depends on and so i will be busy the whole day. i will call him tongiht

posted by pinay freestyle @ 9:38 AM

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