my relationship with my mother is a like a roller coaster. at one moment, we are getting along really fine, i would tell her everything, and she would do the same....and then at the peak of it all, we will get on each other's nerve and we would exchange harshly said words to each other and eventually hurt each other. we would both cry and not talk for days. then after every words and drama sinks in and drains out, we start talking again as if nothing happened and we would go on our normal daily lives.
that was the case today....AGAIN! first, mama grew impatient because she kept telling i have no plans for my life and that i wait until the last minute to strive for my goals. and i would defend that my goals doesn't depend solely on me. i did what was required for me to do and it was up to the school to accept me or not. anywayz, the argument went on and on. she said i never gave her my grades and that what if i was lying to her that i have been getting grades. so what i did was, i went online and got my grades from my school online and obtained the grades right away and printed it out and gave it to her. she saw that i am a dean's scholarship awardee, i have a 4.0 average and i am excelling at all my educational endeavors. and then she shuts up and sarcastically comments, " i would keep this for my records."
i don't know. a lot of people said my parents especially my mother, has done a very good job at raising me to be the adult i am now. well, my mommy and my papa are the complete opposite. while popeye( my dad) is lenient and cool, my mama is strict and always checking up on me. together, they share the success of my upbringing. mom thinks i am so much like dad, so carefree and generous. my siblings said, i am strict to them like mom.
last night, kuya salde ( my cousins from new york) told me i shoudl be thankful she is my mom. i am. i think i am very fortunate that my mother worked so hard to give me and my siblings the best things in life. it's just sometimes, she can't wait. i mean, she's growing so impatient at things in life when these things require a lot of waiting and she needs to be patient. whatever i am doing with my life right now, it is for her, my dad, my siblings, and my kins. i am what i am now because of her and papa. and i do what i do now to be able to give them the same love and care they gave and showed to me.
all these things i am gong through with my mom are the inspiration why i want so much to succeed in life. i learned from papa the importance of generosity, kindness, and time. while mother taught me the lessons of hard work, discipline, and determination. my mother taught me that nothing comes in life easy. that i have to work diligently ,industriously, and consistently for it. she engraved in me the faith in the Lord and the ideals that if i worked for my goals and gave it my best, the Lord will take care of the rest. she instilled in me that i don't have to be the best instead, i just have to TRY my very best.
is this mother's love? or is it mother's tough love?
there are things i do not completely understand about my mother's qualities. R said he wants to thank my mother for doing a very good job parenting me because i am wonderful as a person. i don't see myself in that way yet. but for some very odd reason, i want to be almost like my mother when i become a mom someday. like her, i would be strict, focus, and strong for my children. like my dad, i would be generous, loving, and kind. but i think i would contribute my unique characteristics to my kids someday. and my mother will always be that one unique person who inspires me to simply be ME and try my very best. besides, i owe it all to her...my qualities, my features, my life.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 2:42 PM
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