my phone rang and it was AB. he had some issues he needed to get rid of because he was feeling bad about it. being the listener that i am, i decided to lend my ear. so it was this whole thing about making his mother wait for him until 2:30 am in someone else's while he was with his friends. and he felt guilty that he took his mom forgranted. and one more thing is that, he was with some girl linnete( who hads a bf, and also lucy's friend) and check this out, with steve and lucy.
yep, you read it right. it's my close friend steve and his (how do i call her, hoe? well, what's another politically correct term for a slut?!) well, it's lucy. both steve and lucy have no idea i know AB. i decided not to tell steve because i am waiting for AB to ask steve if he knew me. i wonder what steve would tell me as soon as he found out.
but going back to AB's issue, his mother was really upset and he felt like total disobedient son making hos mother wait until 2:30 am at his aunt's house while he was havignfun with linnete. my comment was, " what were you thinking? that's you mother you know. she comes first." i asked if he liked linete and he said no. but he just didn't notice the time. well, i advised him to cook his mother breakfast or something or prepare her lunch bag and put a little note that he was sorry. so i guess, he did that today.
changing the topic, AB told me i am so much like him, in evry way i can think of. well, i was quite confused because i don't even knwo how i am to him. i am nice to everyone as long as they are nice to me. but ahmm, he said while he ws with linette at sta. monica beach with steve and lucy, he was it was me he was with. i was goign to ask him what that meant but i decided to shut up because if he did respond, i don't want to feel all these mix emotions for him.
i did tell him i have plans of going to las vegas next week to see maff and ate carol and the kids. but i also told me las vegas always rejuvenates my soul. for some strange reason, las vegas charges my weary soul. and it' s also that feeling of " i want to get away." i told him i'd see him perhaps on sunday or if not, as soon as i get back.
it was 5 am and both of s were sleepy. i wanted to be with him today but ahmm, he has things to do so i guess not. but we'll see. i addressed to him that i had to go. and he agreed. as we were hanging up, he goes, " wait" and then silence. i waited. he continued on, " ahmm, do you have to go to las vegas? can' t you just spend time with me? i mentioned i wanted to go to vegas. but it's not like i' not going back here. it will only be brief. and he said, "okay."
for the second time, i told him i have to go because i am so sleepy. and he goes, okay. and then again, "wait," he said. i waited...again, thinking and wondering what is he going to say this time.
"i'll miss you when you go to vegas...but i'll also miss you when we'll hung up now," he said.
okay. what ami suppose to say. i didn't want to say i'llmiss him too though i knew i will but i felt there was a needs to keep my thought right now for later purposes. so anywaz, i said thank you and i'll talk to him and that he needs to get some sleep.
at 5 am, i stayed up and i tried to overanalyze what he meant by saying he will miss me. not all guys i meet tells me that. so it meant a lot to me that someone was actually thinking of me and will be thinking of me when i am gone. i feel cared for.and though, i didn't have the guts to tell you AB, i will miss you, too. thank you for missing me. one of these days, i will probabl ket you read these blogs of mine. but for the mean time, it feels wonderful that i am writing this thoughs for you without you knowing a single clue. u'll give you acess one day...when it's the right time.
posted by pinay freestyle @ 5:43 PM
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