sometimes, being labeled, " party girl" brings difficult situational dilemmas. i don't consider myself one at all. i think, for me, i often jsut bring that "image" to people buit i am really NOT what they assumed me to be. often times, i don't know if i am doing or saying things right when the incident calls for it...
like for an instance.....
...two weeks ago, a handsome guy i just met at a bar invited me to an afterparty. i politely refused because i felt i did not know him well enough to go. but i did give him my number.
...months ago, when we had a bachelorette's celebration/bridal shower and we were well - equipped with males strip dancers, i found myself sipping martini, chatting with friends, and getting a "sexy" lap dance from the guy (even had evidence from it - heheh).
...my exguy planned a camping trip and asked me if i wanted to go, and i responded, "as long as there are tons of s'mores and loads of scary stories, here i come!"
...one of my guy friend/admirer? described me to his friend, and he mentioned, "she's great!-gets along with everyone!"
i'm not what the predominant assuming people think i am. i'm not egotistical nor bombastic at all. i just have a set standards to having a great time. i live to the max, yet, i also know when to step on the breaks.
i'm not here to swagger. i guess, i jibed well with everyone because i'm quite relaxed, i'm engaging, and most of the times, i don't take myself seriously when i am out.
besides, i can drink a round of tequila shots but i also have a sober driver waiting for me when i am too tipsy to even walk. i have had so many countless adventures that i often have an interesting story to share.
i tend to attract a crowd when i am not afraid of making fun of myself , bursting in laughter as i blurt out the corniest jokes in my pocket. heheh
but in all modesty, all these and probably more, makes me a blast to be around.
MY SILENT REVERIES
writing is my passion. i created silent reveries years ago to vent out things i could not tell the world. it was my private, modern tech approach to scribbling my thoughts and emotions in a journal. in here, i can feely be who i am. i could cry my woes, i can love freely, i can grieve over a broken heart, i can celebrate the joys in my heart, i can rejoice with my accomplishments, i can tell stories of remarkable friendships and unforgettable connections i made with extraordinary people SECRETLY AND SILENTLY without worrying people might judge me. i hid under the name PINAY FREESTYLE.
but eventually, some people gained access to my secret place. so i opened my doors to them in the purpose that i could inspire them: to be better versions of themselves and to share themselves to the world. slowly, i embraced my readers as a part of my life. i welcomed the strange idea that my untold life stories and unconcealed revelations could be of help to others, to love and accept themselves as they are. and i, i came out from the animosity. i eventually became just the regular LEN - the nickname my family & friends call me.
i developed stories of love, of letting go, of falling in love all over again. i made great friendships. but if there's one thing i was particularly proud of, it was my undenying love for the LORD. i wrote and made soul searching, heart wrenching entries i entitled, "SPIRITUAL REVERIES" which you will find many here. it was my productive way to heal myself from twinge and while i am at it, i could also mend others spirits along the way and bring them back up to par with their faith and relationships with God. it has not stop there. it's still a constant journey.
and so, for as long as i can, i vowed to tell my memorable reflections,i have unmasked the hidden me. and the seeking and searching of life's meaning and purpose is not over. LIFE is a long road of discovering. and i still yet to discover many wonders of this world and satisfy my unending curiosity. but be warned. you can either love me or hate me. but i don't care. this is me: sripped and bare as i can be.
so i invite you into my chaotic unperfect world. join me in my whirlwind new travels of diving into the unknowns. let me share my life with you all over again. come in, as i tell you my SILENT REVERIES.
love,
len
DISCOVER ME:
who is the lady behind the blogs?
"I want to have a personal light, the glow of oneself that comes from sheer willpower, the light of someone who has made important sacrifices in the name of things I think are important."
---Paulo Coelho's "Eleven Minutes"
my name is len. people always tend to judge me without discovering who i really am. i might look intimidating, a typical shop girl, and i act like a crazy party girl on the weekend. but i actually have brains. and i own an even bigger heart.
the truth is, beyond the louis vuitton bags, beyond the lavish parties, the excessive passion to travel and the desire to get to know the world, if you got to know the REAL ME, i am really just a simple girl. my only desire is to be loved for who i am.
REACH ME
if you want to get to know me better, if you want to share your thoughts, if you want to be my friend, don't hesitate: you can find me at
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